Similar issues here with toxic parents. You have NO obligation to let them back into your life in any way, shape, or form. It is NOT up to you to show them the path of healing, they have to find it themselves. And how you will grieve for them when their time comes is up to you, and if you don't feel grief you shouldn't feel guilty about that.
Meditate on sending healing love to yourself first, then to them. You have to nurture your own inner child, since you probably didn't get enough nurturing when you were a child.
I'm sending love and light your way. Shine on, Saibh, shine on.
Everyday, I go down to my former address to feed the stray cats. Sometimes I go a different way. Last week I went by an abandoned home where a horse is kept. It's been there for years, and there is always a big roll of hay, but not last week. I started going that way every time. Now I don't know much about horses, but as I would go by, she would stare at me, like she wanted help. I went to the police and told them about no hay. He asked if she was skinny, I said no, but would he check, and he said he would. I went by today, and still no hay, and she had her back to me. Now in cat talk, it means she's mad. I got out of the car, to give her some carrots,she turned around, but she would take the carrots, but I put them in her empty feed bucket, and she ate them. I bought some Quaker oats which the internet says she can eat, but I can't possibly feed all she needs. I hope she gets help; I feel I've done all I can, except to give her some treats.
Blessings to you for this beautiful reminder that the losses in our lives, and the challenges of anticipating even more painful ones to come are not forever ones as nothing lasts forever except for love. And love is just sacred energy and as such cannot be created nor destroyed.
It just is and always has been and always and forever will continue to just be there in us, around us and a part of each other and all things really and truly.
I have been in the Chihuly Glass Museum in Tacoma. And walked the beautiful glass ceiling bridge many times in one visit. Glorious and amazing beauty all around.
Mystical and magical in all ways. The hot shop where they worked with the hot furnances turning the glass was mind blowing artistry that felt like a choreographed dance between the artists in each team.
And that is how I often see our lives--an almost choreographed dance between one another frought with challenges but also filled with great beauty that is so intense it hurts our hearts to see and feel the sacredness of so much beauty and passion and love.
what an amazing person you are - you are wonderful. I don't know where you live but is there a rescue - even a horse rescue -- that can take the horse? I would be happy to do some research for you if I had more information.
This is a bad situation. Can you ask around to see who is taking care of her? Who owns her? Is there a sanctuary or rescue you can contact? She can’t live like this!
Anita
Sunday I felt like I walked into some dirt or a web while connecting lights outside.
I tried for hours to clear my eye to no avail. Next morning I went to the eye doctor. Her tests showed a retinal tear and she sent me to an ophthalmologist. He did several more tests and loads of drops which I hate getting. He saw a partial retinol tear. Well, that is frightening to me. I had a repair using laser which was horrible for me to endure. Pain, lights like fireworks and felt I was being blinded.
We have a trip to Disney World planned Dec 22nd. I’m getting different opinions about being able to fly. This has been planned for a year. 12 of us.
Ive read that if I had a gas bubble put in place, I’d have to wait until it was completely gone before being able to fly. It already seems I won’t be able to go on certain rides, but I mostly want to be with family including my young great nephews.
im resting, not lifting, vacuuming, walking the dog. All the things I need to be doing before leaving.
Does anyone have experience with a partially detached retina?
I know there are trains, but Portland to Orlando is 3 days each way!
Anita
here's the deal - if you don't have the laser, you're going to need surgery. Also from what I know (I'm not a doctor, I just do research) there should be no problem with you flying. I had my cataract removed - though it was a short procedure, I know how you feel. I would explain your feelings to the doctor and perhaps they can give you something stronger. I wish you the best. Some of this may help - apparently flying is a problem if you have some sort of gas bubble implanted. https://www.medhelp.org/posts/Eye-Care/Flying-with-a-detached-retina/show/355283
I live in Wagoner, Oklahoma. I don't expect much help. A couple of years ago when those 10,000 cows froze to death up north, I again complained about the horses (there were two then) didn't have shelter, and they had ice on them. They said, the owner took good care of them, and anyway, they are livestock.
I had a retina tear about 15 years ago. No-one suggested laser surgery back then so I probably am not going to be helpful to you. The next day the eye surgeon did the surgery and put the bubble in my eye and ordered me to lie eye facing down for 21 hours a day for two months. I took the summer off and followed doctor's orders. The eye healed perfectly. People said I was lucky because it was a bad tear.
I would err on the side of careful with a detached retina. Not sure if this is the case with you, but my doctor said it detaches when a myopic eye which is oblong in shape, stretches the retina too far. My father had the same thing many years earlier.
I would not fly unless the doctor says no problem. If it's a retina tear, then it could be delicate for a while. But if you doctor says it's fine to fly and go to a big amusement park, then I'd probably go.