Just bopping in after my trip to DC. It was long and hard, it opened old wounds, but it was the right thing to do.
I haven't had a chance to catch up on news, protests, etc., so after arriving home, I did shop to prepare for the snow that's expected here. Shame on me for shopping during a boycott without knowing, but I think I'll be forgiven all things considered.
There were some real George Bailey moments for me in DC this trip, and I'm still processing. But being there, in the core of it all, it was like DC (as in the real residents) intended to just go about their lives. I know I kept feeling that what was prominent now will be a flash in the pan. There was a foot of snow on the ground covered by ice, and no signs of melting as the temperatures didn't even make it to the mid 20s at the warmest point of the trip. Residents laughed at the inability to move the snow, and slipping as they tried to go around, but they did so with cheer for the most part.
My reason for being in DC was sad, but there was a total Capraesque vibe for me the whole time. It made me realize that we shouldn't overlook small beginnings or acts, and how such things can make major changes. It's good to be home, snuggled in, and to have the time to reflect on it all.
Hope all here are doing well in spite of all the drama we've been facing.
@cindy My prayers went with you. Thankful you were able to " lance the wound" and let more healing take place. I thot about where we are at this point in time as a nation, as people. With Imboluc ( I hung my scarves outside for "Brat Bhríde," and left an offering of bread,milk & honey) and the Leo full moon being so close together this year it's an especially auspicious time for letting go of what no longer serves us .. making space for new beginnings both in our personal lives and the collective. The turning point is upon us. May we continue to show up, show out and be heard. Hugs and welcome home.
@cindy thank you for sharing your experience with us. I have thought of you often and have missed your voice here. As difficult as your presence and what was required of you must have been, I hope you felt and continue to feel the gift of your being there, and deep healing.
@lowtide, @journeywithme2 Thank you for your support.
We mostly stayed in the hotel once we got there, but we did venture out two nights. The first was to Constitution Hall for a reception & thank you service for the first responders and other support teams. Besides the responders, there was all sorts of top brass from the military, congress critters, NTSB officials. I nearly stepped on Sen. Tim Caine, and I could have done without the speech from Ted I'm going to Cancun Cruz. The second was the Anniversary services themselves, which was only family, the emcee for the night, American Airlines care team, myself (and my son) and the parents of a crash victim from the 2009 crash.
However, the locals I came in contact with-Uber drivers, airport staff, hotel staff, etc., were local. They were non-plussed by the goings on in DC. They chuckled when they'd hear my son and I aghast at something the administration was doing, as they too agreed, but they obviously don't make their opinions known first with customers. I only saw one group of National Guard, it was just 4 of them, and the locals totally ignored them, just as the guard ignored the locals. It seemed like neither wanted their presence, so they'd all just keep to themselves & co-exist.
I also think part of my calm about the atmosphere came from a dream I had back in early December. It was nondescript for the most part-just a group of people chatting with each other, mostly small talk. Then out of the blue, I heard Spirit clearly say "He won't make it past 79." While no one was actually talking about the orange one, I knew in the dream who was being referenced. I woke immediately, which happens often when I'm supposed to remember something I'm told in dreams. And no Jeanne (& mods) this wasn't one of my dreams where I am shown someone's passing. It was general-which to me meant that his tenure, for whatever reason, is expiring. I don't know if this is what will happen or if it was something that was said to me to get me through the first holiday without dad, and the upcoming trip. I'm still feeling calm, so even if it isn't prophetic, I'll take it for the time being.
Seeing @gbs' astrological breakdown in the random prediction thread makes me wonder if there isn't something to it. We have until June to find out, I suppose. I found it interesting to find folks commenting on the moon. There was a good deal of snow in my yard, and the pool froze over, so both my son and his SO were staring out the back door looking and commenting on the moon and it's reflection. They too felt something I suppose.
I'll also extend my thanks to others here who said they'd keep me in their thoughts and prayers. My speech was personal, as is normal for me. I got choked up when I was speaking of Monica, and suddenly my hair fell almost in front of my face. For the last year, I've maintained rainbow colored Fairy Hair (it's like having colored tinsel in your hair permanently-it sparkles in the light). I typically can't see the strands without a mirror. But lo & behold, when my hair fell off my shoulder on the left side, the lights from the left side of the stage lit up a strand and I was suddenly seeing a rainbow-one of my signs from Monica. That allowed me to regain my composure and continue on without anyone but my son noticing. Always look for the signs from your loved ones, they're always there to support you!
@cindy. You always speak so beautifully and heartfelt. The image of the rainbow sparkle, and meaning was special.
As for signs, I was in Kohls recently looking at earrings and spied a pair with dragonflies. I bought those, because dragonflies are a sign of my Dad, so why not?🙂
For the last year, I've maintained rainbow colored Fairy Hair (it's like having colored tinsel in your hair permanently-it sparkles in the light). I typically can't see the strands without a mirror. But lo & behold, when my hair fell off my shoulder on the left side, the lights from the left side of the stage lit up a strand and I was suddenly seeing a rainbow-one of my signs from Monica.
I totally love that!
Saw my GI this week and a new pulmonolgist.
I am wheezing from my vocal chords. Didn't know that was even a thing. Asthma is uncontrolled. Lungs struggling.
I will be leaving my job soon. The physical and emotional environment, harsh chemicals, and a boss who refuses to use green cleaners have left me no other choice.
Already I am interviewing and think I have found a new school home in a brand new building.
Still, my heart hurts to leave my students. They are PreK. They'll be so sad and the boss will be their teacher, a bully.
Please send enlightenment to my boss. Help her to love those children and care for them as I would.
Prayers for my body.