Really angry and triggered tonight. The asthma escalation is not fully asthma. I have an infection
For months. Was not listened to. Long story not worth repeating. Behind the eight ball.
Was also re evaluated for evidence of mood disorders. Knew the diagnosis already was
correct. Surprise!..l still have them. I DO NOT WANT THEM.This made me.sad, like I was five years ago.
Sorry you have been dealing with asthma when the infection could have been addressed. Can you find a new doctor?
Some doctors can be judgmental and fail their patients when their preconceived ideas get in the way. I am grateful you can get the help you need, finally. May tomorrow be a positive step forward.
My doctor is good and sensitive. Although him retesting me to disprove I have the issues I do have was difficult for me. I had a layered response with the panicked reaction I had the first time I was diagnosed. I knew that I was having the issues and the test would not change that. I've yet to fully accept it all. It was a flashback to all the grief and pain of my longtime marriage blowing up when health issues became extreme and my exes bad, uncaring behaviour caused me to choose to leave.
For the infection, I made the mistake of previously seeing the Physician's Assistant when he was away. She treated me like I was a hypochondriac and not a chronic asthmatic. Shame on her.
I let him know about the earlier interaction with her. He asked me what she did after I stated this was not a cold and I told him she did nothing.
@jeanne-mayell I am home and slept almost 12 hours in my own bed. About halfway through the night dreams started which means I hit REM which I do not think I did at all after the surgery given all the interruptions. Very tired today but grateful that I haven’t needed pain meds. I did so good with just the muscle relaxers and gas relief that I’m not really in need of anything stronger. I didn’t want the opioids and really I just feel sore. I’m mobile. I’m going to spend the next few days upstairs where we have adjustable memory foam beds but I get up and move every hour like I’m supposed to unless I’m asleep. My father in law came over while we were gone and installed a pipe railing on our stairs and ripped up the carpet upstairs to start laying down plank flooring. He didn’t finish but it looks nice and I’m so happy to have the old musty carpet gone. I’m eating well - the name of the game is phosphorus which my liver uses to regenerate so we’re forcing down foods that are full of it. The protein shakes I liked leading up to this have nearly 50% of the RDA so I’m trying to have a couple of those each day along with lots of fruit and chicken. Eating feels good even if I can’t eat a lot at one time.
follow up appointments on May 8th and at that point we’ll see how things are going.
kevin is doing well too. He had his first ice chips today. His youngest daughter came to visit him today with the friend who is staying at their house and there was a smile and light in her eyes in the picture we were sent that I haven’t seen in a good long while. So happy I was able to do this.
And new news as of 10 seconds ago - Kevin’s team is going to discuss moving him out of the icu tomorrow!
I am asking for the healers with a bit more stamina to repel the energies of some of the more toxic people I need to deal with for the time being. If anyone could envision a mirror reflecting their stuff back at them for the next month, it would be endlessly appreciated. My intentions are generally good, but I really can't carry any of this sort of energy right now, and I am dealing with chronic fatigue issues. Energy similar to toxic bullying and 45 like energy.