@lovendures, thank you for sharing that incredible piece of music. It often brings me to tears. I could feel the sorrowful joy that you so beautifully described, as well as the magnificent ascension. Like you, I also found it synchronistic that Barber wrote Adagio when he was 26.
When I received the news that Coyote had passed on, I was caught in a whirlwind of emotions. But the more I focused on Coyote's presence, the more I was filled with a profound, quiet peace. I felt lightheaded, and in a real sense, healed by the power of it. I could feel the expansiveness of Coyote's breath. I could also feel his joy, which allowed me to feel joyful as well. It was infectious. I found myself smiling back at him.
Later that day as my thoughts returned to Coyote and I was again feeling a deep sadness, I turned on the radio and the Peter Gabriel song "Solsbury Hill” began playing. I immediately thought of Coyote, had goosebumps, and smiled. I love that song and find that in many ways, it exemplifies Coyote's life -- it's about struggle and endurance, and ultimately, wisdom, self trust and the courage to let go. Gabriel has a mystical and transformational experience on Solsbury Hill, as an eagle appears before him. "Son," he says, "grab your things, I've come to take you home." As the song continued to play, I envisioned Coyote being transported on the wings of an eagle -- slowly metamorphizing into that magnificent bird, as he soared across the sky.
I love and miss you, dear friend. I know we will meet again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zpePvu3A_UM
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/petergabriel/solsburyhill.html
Dearest Jeanne,
You are so right, I did indeed have a miraculous trance connection the day of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse with Coyote.
While it is called a Flower Moon (among half a dozen different names) and was a red moon, energetically it was a extraordinarily deep moon energy of enormous change and possibility that reads as a far deeper maroon verging on almost black blood moon color in feeling.
The veil between worlds was whisper thin that day. And as I am immensely sensitively reactive to earth changes and others energies as well they often not only have me taking in/taking on those energies. I was in a place of great imbalance and could barely function with the energies all day long. That forced me to bed where the deepest of energetic (I see them as angelic for my personal frame of reference) connection was triggered.
I realized that the candle I had going for Coyote had died and I felt so badly as I'd forgotten to keep thoughts and prayers going for him and had an immense drawing in to make amends with a meditative prayer. I lay down as is my meditation practice and was quickly brought to such a deep state as a result of the full moon energies and the intensity of a need to pray to his spirit from mine.
And in my minds eye energies I simply spoke from my heart to what I felt was his. That went on for a big long prayer like speech to him about his life, his mission and all he had accomplished with nothing missing or lacking or not achieved. It was simply deep channeled energies through me to his being or not being.
My heart to heart experience in this in-between world was so pure and so light and so deeply healing. I floated instead of dragging for the rest of the day. I only even realized later after coming here the next day and reading your post that whatever that amazing experience was it was happening then on his own amazing day of transition and change into limitless possibilities.
I did not at that time nor on that day know he actually passed but only that it was an experiencing of the process of transitioning on some other level and I believe in many others in this world and perhaps, who knows, other worlds as well.
Those of us who have always known deep inside we were different, meant to Iive in service for a greater good and who have had really challenging lives in both health of ourselves or those we love, become ready to grow and to learn and to transform ourselves and the people we come into contact with energetically, much more quickly.
It brought me incredible peace in so many ways and I knew my angels were surrounding each and everyone one of us in that place, that time beyond time.
Coyote and I personally only exchanged a very limited email connection once I learned his email address and contacted him online but he shared his full name with me long, long ago. I had previously read all of his posts here and always felt it was his Joanna Macy connection that brought him here to you.
You had brought her to all of us with your posts and I would occasionally look her up and read her beautiful passages and save them as I do quotations and poetry.
We all have many, many endearing and enduring connections as a result of all you have done and shared and created for us here, Jeanne.
You are always in my heart and the hearts of all of us here as will dear Coyote and his family and all who were touched by his brilliance in this world.
💜🕊💜
I love this poem, and felt guided to share it today with all of you:
When Great Trees Fall
by Maya Angelou
When great trees fall,
rocks on distant hills shudder,
lions hunker down
in tall grasses,
and even elephants
lumber after safety.
When great trees fall
in forests,
small things recoil into silence,
their senses
eroded beyond fear.
When great souls die,
the air around us becomes
light, rare, sterile.
We breathe, briefly.
Our eyes, briefly,
see with
a hurtful clarity.
Our memory, suddenly sharpened,
examines,
gnaws on kind words
unsaid,
promised walks
never taken.
Great souls die and
our reality, bound to
them, takes leave of us.
Our souls,
dependent upon their
nurture,
now shrink, wizened.
Our minds, formed
and informed by their
radiance,
fall away.
We are not so much maddened
as reduced to the unutterable ignorance
of dark, cold
caves.
And when great souls die,
after a period peace blooms,
slowly and always
irregularly. Spaces fill
with a kind of
soothing electric vibration.
Our senses, restored, never
to be the same, whisper to us.
They existed. They existed.
We can be. Be and be
better. For they existed.
Your post was absolutely beautiful. I am so grateful you shared it with us. It is also a joy to see your posts again Michele and to hear your wisdom. I have missed the spirit and love you bring to our forum dear friend. So happy you meditate with us in the Circle of Light.
I ran across this sign today that describes one sweet aspect of this Forum so I snapped a pic. From Mesa Verde. CO:
That brought a huge smile to my face and I am sure you were guided to discover the sign. Thank you for posting it for us. The past week has certainly been exactly what your sign said hasn't it?.
Dearest Jeanne!
This time last year our community had just survived the "Great Crash of 2021". To help off-set the expenses associated with fixing our beloved site, we decided to have a Birthday Celebration fundraise for your. We also asked our community members to write a note of appreciation for you Jeanne, so we could show you just how much your community has meant to each one of us. I thought about that birthday celebration and all of those beautiful messages written with such deep love and thoughtfulness today. And then I remembered Coyote had written a message to you Jeanne.
In reading his beautiful heartfelt words to you tonight, I knew I must share his message with you once again my friend, for they are a blessing which you will hold even more deeply now.
In honor of your Birthday Season, you will find Coyote's beautiful message to you sent EXACTLY a year ago, as well as a link to all the eloquent and heartfelt messages of appreciation from our grateful community members last year.
Happy Birthday Season Jeanne!
Written by Coyote:
I remember when I discovered this site in the final days of 2016 (before there was even a forum). I'd read the predictions and be incapable of imagining that the sun would continue to rise in 2019 and 2020, let alone 2018 and 2017. Yet here we are in 2021! I'm a more mature, thoughtful, and self-aware person now, and I have your efforts, @jeanne-mayell, to thank for that.
While I was lurking on the site for 2 years, I'd repeatedly ask my spirit guides to please lead me to the community of people I knew was out there who would help me understand what was happening in the world while also bringing joy to my life. I've only recently realized that they answered my prayers by leading me to this group of spiritual travelers. ?
https://www.jeannemayell.com/community/best-of-forum-posts/jeanne-appreciation-thread/
Quick request for a burst of prayer/light/healing for my friend's daughter who is going into surgery soon to try and help transition her off of ECMO. Things have been rough, so praying this will help and that the surgery goes well. Thank you, all!
I am so enjoying reading your beautiful posts about your experience with Coyote's transition, poems and more. What a beautiful connection and interaction he had with us here! It is such a gift to read about them. Thank you so much for sharing.