I am happy to hear of all the positive developments with James' condition.
I am sending out a white light with a pink overwash for his lungs. I am getting a peaceful feeling associated with his name.
ruminating is the hardest thing to let go of; it also is the proverbial cliff that turns out to be a step.
When I was going through a particularly vile personal situation, someone observed I think fast, and that I needed to slow down and enjoy the time and space where I was. It was said much more eloquently and in a way that got through to me. I did then work on that, and I remember one day when everything did slow down around me, and I enjoyed the beauty of what was around me. In a real way, I came to understand to the fullest both the literal and deeper meanings of slowing down to smell the roses. After that moment, I have found it more natural to not ruminate on many things at a personal level, and some of the topics that have come out lately for people I can relate to, and once upon a time, seeing them would be like ripping off a scab. Not now.
I know people that ruminated their entire life on something, and I see it as a life lost.
I also know all too well things related to Pell, for example, can have an ugly habit of popping up like an unwanted guest without any reason even when there is every reason to think things have been reconciled.
All I know for sure is these events, no matter how hurtful are not what makes our whole, they are a part of who we are though, part of our fabric.
I sense for me a weight lifting on my shoulders as I think of you, and it's a peaceful feeling.
Definitely get that cat to a vet asap. I think you've got things flipped a bit - he probably is getting anxious because he doesn't feel well. Blood in stools and straining is not normal. He may need a change in diet and either medicine or supplements. I'm not a vet, but I know you can give cats small doses of Vitamin C (<50mg), it can help them with these kinds of issues. It sounds to me like your cat has crystals in their bladder and/or kidney. Look into it. I have a cat who I went around in circles with many vets before getting her a diagnosis at the age of 11 of esonophilic granuloma - essentially severe allergies causing autoimmune disease. Happy to keep a good thought for you both, but I think you need more science on this one, you may want to look for a vet specialist - try Internal Medicine first. Sometimes regular vets miss something a specialist can hone in on.
Wow.
ruminating is the hardest thing to let go of; it also is the proverbial cliff that turns out to be a step.
Thank you for this.
I sense for me a weight lifting on my shoulders as I think of you, and it's a peaceful feeling.
Thanks for this too Jack.
I am having a terrible time of it. The social distancing is awful. And last night my partner got so angry with me after she hugged a neighbor, a guy about 23, who is not taking this virus seriously. He came over to give Harriet a hug for her birthday. I was flabbergasted that she went up to him for that hug! He has said he doesn’t care if he gets it or dies or causes family members to die. He has a major chip on his shoulder and makes very bad choices that have gotten him in trouble.
I insisted a Harriet take a shower and wash her clothes. I was burning up inside wondering why she did that when it meant we need to be kept more distant, esp since I’m going on 69 and take an immunosuppressant.
she seemed furious at me and it wasn’t till later Tharp she wrote she feels ashamed to be alive and that I won’t forgive her. But she never apologized. I talked very nicely to her and how this social distancing has been awful. She put on a mask and I sat with her watching tv, but she went to bed early, saying she was too depressed.
we sleep in separate rooms cuz of the dogs and snoring. But she left the house early with her flutes and laptop.
she won’t answer my phone calls or text messages. I have major abandonment fears and she’s been gone without a word for many hours. I’ve been cleaning house but my stomach is tighter and I’m getting more anxious by the moment. I don’t know why she would have hugged the guy. I don’t understand why she’d feel ashamed but make things worse by disappearing without any contact.
if anyone sees a good outcome from this today, will you please let me know. I already was dying inside. Now this has put me into so much pain.
Anita
Oh no worries-he’s been to the vet twice in two weeks
He had a urinary blockage last July and he’s been on special food ever since. We did a urinalysis last week, stool check this week (blood is now gone) and we just did bloodwork today and should know something tomorrow.
I was just wondering if perhaps I am giving him this nervous energy and not helping him get better :(
Dont worry!! He is under vet supervision!!!
@serakat glad to read that he is under a vet's care. One of the reasons cats get this blockage is due to anxiety. You have four other cats - do they all have their own space, things to climb, etc.? I know that can be a big issue. Good luck and please keep us posted.
I feel in my heart that she will be back . She just needs some time alone. Relationships are never simple. She isn't an easy soul, but neither are you . Neither am I, neither is my wife . I just have a blind hope that these struggles will make us better . I have faith in you Anita .