I just now was able to see and absorb your note about James (I took a weekend off of technology). My heart and healing light are being sent to James and your family! I will meditate and send as much love and light today as I can.
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@ghandigirl and @laynara
I will send love and healing light to your mom and Laynara's Fiance too! I intend on sending extra healing light to them on Wednesday during the meditation too. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ? ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
I know it's a big ask and I'm sorry if it's distressing, but I need guidance after that George Pell case, as it opens up my old wounds to the point that I stop believing everything all together. This is more or less made me lose all the motivation and energy for life, to the point I don't even care if I die from covid at all.
My life has been driven by wanting to become some sort of knight who fights under the name of justice. Namely being a barrister. The problem is though that I've been hurt by the injustice several times in my life. Not only I was not given the closure I need it, but people faunted in front of me that they got away with their ill gotten gains. I cannot talk about the details as it's too trumatic for me to retell it. Again, this made me feel lost again, I'm not sure I ever get out of this tunnel.
Will there be a way for me to believe in justice again? I also fear after this, people would want to hurt the good judges in Victoria, replacing with people who are nothing but a bunch of crooks in fancy robes. Will they be alright too?
I'm sorry about this.
- His liver enzymes continue to show improvement
- His heart rate, blood pressure, and temperature (!) are all normal
- He is at rest setting (40%) on the ventilator!
- He has good color and good carotid pulses, which are hopeful signs for brain oxygenation
- Neurology will be doing a temporal ultrasound to check blood flow in the brain. Pray for evidence of good blood flow!!!
- He will have a bronchoscopy to clear secretions in his lungs. Pray this would help his lungs heal.
- They took him off the paralytic, but his breathing became a little choppy, so he is back on a lower level still. They said it is not unusual to have a reaction when the paralytic is first taken off. They will continue to try to eliminate the paralytic today. Pray for a successful response!
- They are giving him some medication to try to stimulate his kidney functioning... pray it will help!
- Continue to pray that the tocilizumab will be effective in healing his lungs.
I am so sorry the George Pell case has brought up such deep emotions for you, especially at this time.
When trust has been broken repeated, it can be difficult to feel safe and secure, even deeply loved.
Think of this time right now as a revealing of how deep the darkness is in our society. But remember, the light is there and it is helping in the revealing. We can't have the change we want until we are truly aware of how deep the dark rivers flow.
Light is there. There are more light workers than the opposite. Have hope that the highest and greatest good will ultimately happen.
May I suggest spending 10 minutes on Jeanne's guided meditation today or as soon as you have time. I think it may be very helpful for you right now.
Holding you in love and kindness Goldstone.
@Goldstone I’m so sorry to hear that the injustice that was done by releasing Cardinal Pell and overturning his conviction is having such a negative effect on you. I imagine it is like being traumatized again. Know that I will be thinking of you and sending you light. The world definitely doesn’t always make sense right now. However, I believe that Pell will pay a karmic debt for his bad deeds. Please take care of yourself and take a break from the news.
@lovendures, thank you for the update on James. I am glad to hear that some of his stats have stabilized. I will continue to pray for James' healing, and he and his family will be in my meditation tonight.
Last night Rachel Maddow interviewed David Lat, the attorney who founded the website Above the Law. Lat was very sick with the coronavirus and on a ventilator for about a week. He is now recovering and was discharged from the hospital on April 2nd. I tried to find Rachel's interview online, but can't find it anywhere. Here is a link to another interview with Lat on April 1st when he was still in the hospital.
Hello
I am new here but I found myself on this website (as I often do when the world is going crazy) and I found this forum.
I hope it’s not too much to ask since I don’t know all of you, but I need some positive vibes for my cat Bubble. He is 8 years old and he has had bouts of anxiety twice now since we moved to FL 8 months ago. His anxiety manifests in physical ways like not being able to pee and having blood in his stool from pushing too hard. sorry for the TMI
Bubble is my ‘son’. Even tho we have 5 cats, this animal is my moon and sun. We can almost speak to each other. When he gets this anxiety, it’s like our communication cord is broken and I can’t reach him. It’s scary, and I don’t know what to do. He has been taken to the vet numerous times to make sure there is nothing medically wrong, and we have treated whatever we *think the problem is, but I know it’s something else and I can’t hear him when he gets like this. I reassure him and love him, but my own anxiety comes thru and I think that makes it more confusing for him.
Sorry for the loooong post...every time he gets this way, I think I’m going to lose him
I am sure your vet checked the urine for diabetes but just in case wanted to reach out. My MaineCoon cat had diabetes. Before diagnosis she would look at me and cry when going in litter box . Vet checked for that and we gave her shots insulin. She lived for many years after. I am not a vet but I know animals very well. Sending light to you and kitty.
THIS POST IS FOR ANYONE SUFFERING FROM TRAUMA
Here is what I have come to know: Life Isn't Fair.
I am not being glib. A major portion of my stress is feeling like I have been unfairly served. I tend to think and say things like, "I didn't/don't deserve this."
Which is true. No one deserves negative things. And sometimes things do work out in a way that aligns for the greater good. At my most cynical I feel like it's just an isolated happy accident, and it won't last.
I too have thought that exiting now from covid might at least still the outrage, anger, hurt, and confusion that I feel. That I think everyone on this forum feels. It would force me into Peace or something. But maybe it wouldn't. Maybe at the end, we are meant to look back and reflect on what we loved, who we loved, and most especially, how we loved. And loved ourselves first and foremost. Something few seem to know how to do and I want to learn how tomaster self love and forgiveness before I go.
Here is what i have come to believe, especially in these dark days that feel like they have a number for some of us: EVEN IF LIFE IS UNFAIR AND JUST SUCKS
I can still be happy. I can still choose in each new moment to focus on this moment and meet it with joy.
And the thought that is driving me to this higher place of reverence for my life, for my self and for this world is that if this is my very last day here, will it be a day filled with joy, love, laughter, and healing or will it be a day of continued self denigration and regret over past events? These experiences in our pasts are now just shadows and don't need us to grant them anymore power to hurt us, as they already do tend to make us ache residually on anniversary dates, and with memories of fairer times.
And those residual memories hold that pain, frozen. I ruminate on the past and it incapacitates me, and worse, lowers my immune system's ability to heal and protect me. I begin to feel that hopelessness again and emotionally I go backwards in time and it is raw and unforgiving and keeps me up at night.
So for me, my choice is to choose peace and joy. I thrive on looking to underline, and seek out the silver linings. And when life isn't fair and it reminds you of every single time it just wasn't fair and you had no control, and your old wounds feel fresh and stifling, remember then you are a precioius soul and you are here for a reason.
A yoga teacher I knew said it best, "Every breath is a privilege." Keep the Faith. We all move beckwards in memory. I was taught to say out loud, "That is over." Those three words hold a lot of power.