This... is going to sound ...strange..... but.. it reminds me very much of being in an abusive relationship/marriage.... you get up each day... tell yourself.. you will endure.. and find little bits of Joy where you can.. to help you cope.. until you get to the point where..you can go.... and when you leave? You don't have to go back...that you are safe.. and you rebuild your life..creating a better life than the one you left behind.. because that dark time... taught you... how you don't want to live, how you don't want to be.... perhaps I relate to this because I am a domestic violence survivor... but that is how Trump's style of governing feels to me.. from the "honeymoon phase" "Oh Honey I am so sorry, I promise.. I will never hit you again. I love you baby"...to the tension building up...to the beatings and emotional abuse..... I feel like most of the American people are being subjected to domestic violence via Trump's malignant narcissism. We will endure.... we will get away... we will heal...and we will have scars.
@journeywithme2 this is *exactly* what I have been thinking about! You captured this all very well. Having been in a marriage with a covert narcissist, it's all very familiar. In addition to all that you said above, it's also the gaslighting (I never said that, you must have remembered that wrong, being made to feel as though "if only" you (or others) had done ____ then things wouldn't be this way, etc.). Watching Trump manipulate words, turn situations around on others, exact revenge, explain how he (his family etc.) are more exceptional than anyone else, and all of that accompanied by the feeling of hopelessness that things might never change......it can become a black hole if you allow it to go there. But narcissists always self-destruct - so while we cannot be sure of the timing of when he is gone, he will be gone.
Raised by a narcissist mother.. I understand all too well what that gaslighting does..teh crazy making all those lies and changing of stories as well as understanding that they will go to incredible lengths to make you the bad guy, doubt yourself and your own sanity and wreak havoc getting "revenge" for any slights - imagined or otherwise. While I have not have not had contact with her in 10 years (or my younger sister either.. who knows what she is but bought in to it at an early age and takes care of no matter the cost - typical Virgo she is) she has been on my mind... she turns 88 years old tomorrow. I have forgiven her.. and moved on with my life.. and .. love her still.. she is my mother...but I still want no part of their presence in my life. I don't wish Trump ill.. I just wish him GONE from his office of POTUS. I am thankful for both of us.. that we are not in those relationships anymore.
Your assessment doesn't sound strange to me at all. It sounds pretty accurate! Thank you for posting.
Love, peace, joy, and healing to all!
@journeywithme2 Doesn't sound strange at all. I, too, am a survivor of domestic violence and early on in DJT's presidency I began getting triggered by exactly what you describe. As his behavior has worsened, so have the triggers.
Take care of yourself. ❤
Wow. you REALLY opened my eyes. I am a survivor too ands that is exactly what. this. is.
@vestralux Seeing the dark power they draw for DJT, I wonder to whom/what are the evangelicals praying...
Thank you, What you said resonates with me, I've always felt there are the dark energies attached to the orange one making him stronger and helping him get away with his atrocities. It makes so much sense that all those evangelicals praying for him settling the same intentions would be so powerful. I think it's a great idea for this community and others to set daily intentions in meditation
Love & Light
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