Ratbum, I wrote the above not Bluebelle... As I wrote Ratbum, (i'm assuming that is not your real name, I use the alias Lola, think many on this site do not use their real names) in respond to this thread, I got a 'hit" feeling, vision that the name does not serve you.
I'm an empath and highly intuitive so I just thought I should mention this...sorry I did not mean to offend, just wanted to share my positive insight.
Happy to clarify and thank you for explaining your name ??
I was sending light to ratbum and thinking over the story of her name and what Jeanne said about channeling light when you don't have any, and feeling the gray weight of gloom shared by others waiting for the other shoe to drop. Sometimes I'm so zapped, but then I have been blessed to receive light, energy, and prayers full of love and those moments are so totally dear to me. I wish I had the power and ability to create a candle light we could all share in the ethers. A couple of decades ago, I belonged to a group that did. But I don't. So, I thought there were probably a bunch of prayers and light I missed along the way and decided to build a candle with it, but the candle turned into a fire or sorts. It was contained in this very shallow, well beaten metal container that I supposed represented all the times I've beaten into myself. I gathered up all of these prayers and all of this light and decided to put it all in petrified, crystalized branches; the kind of crystals that throb with your heartbeat when you hold them; the kind that hold heat and self-heal. And I sat in front of its flickering flames and hummed low as it crackled. I kept thinking of ratbum's rats and they curled like cats above her head :-).
Things seem to have gotten slightly better thanks to your prayers. My family got some money to help pay our bills out of nowhere for this month. And our neighbors suddenly decided to share their food with us since we're so poor we have to go to food banks. However, I still am very stressed and anxious about if I will be getting a call from this animation studio and getting hired. I had a weird realistic dream the other night where I woke up to a phone call and the person who spoke to me said she was from the hr department of the animation company I applied to. She told me "we looked over your application you submitted and we'd love to have you come in for an interview, when can you come in?" I told them right now, got dressed and left. Then I woke up. So if that is a premonition dream meaning that's gonna happen soon I hope so.
Is there anyone here who can actually give me confermation on that? I'd really like to know. I've been asking for signs or answers to my spirits on this matter and I'm getting nothing. I desperately need and want this job. I need it to help my struggling family.
By the way I'm an empath and very intuitive, and can sense certain things. But im not a psychic.
I don't know what I am, Ratbum, but sometimes I just get things. After I built my crystal fire, I was watching its flames and reached out to pet one of your rats. One of them bit me and my hand bled into the fire. Suddenly I had this image of a woman giving birth and I was in front of her like a midwife. Out of the woman came this odd living organic thing about the size of an eggplant, but it was shaped at the top in kind of a rectangular way and came down to several arteries, but it wasn't dripping blood or anything. I freaked out and prayed for help and this white light arm came out and took it away. A couple of days later I read in the NYT that a woman gave birth to a baby with a transplanted uterus. God only knows what to make of this. Maybe you'll give birth to something in a new way? I was also playing with my Motherpeace tarot the other day, asking about the outcome of the tax plan and women in the Trump world. It's odd: I got a completely reversed Lover's card on the tax plan, Tiffany Trump, and Ivanka Trump (reading it as when the root is seen the, the partnerships they're in fall apart and give voice to something else) and Ivana Trump with Ace of Swords upright and Huckabee with Ace of Swords to the right. Interesting, huh?
Well, the edit function is being weird. So, I read the swords of Ivana and Sarah to be like Charlize in Atomic Blond. I wonder if they're going to be bringing "hell hath no fury, like a woman scorned" to Trump.
@gracesinger, sounds like you were picking up on someone else's vibes. My rats have never bitten or been hostile towards people. just sweet precious lovebugs. I also will never have kid nor do I want to. Your vision sounds very strange though, don't know what to make of that either. It seems too vague and mixed up to really have any meaning. At least to me.
Hey Ratbum, Just meant it figuratively and will give it back to myself; we can all work on giving birth to new aspects of ourselves in new ways. I didn't mean to convey the bite was hostile; even crystals bite. Best!
@Gracesinger I'm sorry, I didn't know you meant it figuratively. My apologies
but yes you are right. We can create new aspects of ourselves.