Just bopping in after my trip to DC. It was long and hard, it opened old wounds, but it was the right thing to do.
I haven't had a chance to catch up on news, protests, etc., so after arriving home, I did shop to prepare for the snow that's expected here. Shame on me for shopping during a boycott without knowing, but I think I'll be forgiven all things considered.
There were some real George Bailey moments for me in DC this trip, and I'm still processing. But being there, in the core of it all, it was like DC (as in the real residents) intended to just go about their lives. I know I kept feeling that what was prominent now will be a flash in the pan. There was a foot of snow on the ground covered by ice, and no signs of melting as the temperatures didn't even make it to the mid 20s at the warmest point of the trip. Residents laughed at the inability to move the snow, and slipping as they tried to go around, but they did so with cheer for the most part.
My reason for being in DC was sad, but there was a total Capraesque vibe for me the whole time. It made me realize that we shouldn't overlook small beginnings or acts, and how such things can make major changes. It's good to be home, snuggled in, and to have the time to reflect on it all.
Hope all here are doing well in spite of all the drama we've been facing.
@cindy My prayers went with you. Thankful you were able to " lance the wound" and let more healing take place. I thot about where we are at this point in time as a nation, as people. With Imboluc ( I hung my scarves outside for "Brat Bhríde," and left an offering of bread,milk & honey) and the Leo full moon being so close together this year it's an especially auspicious time for letting go of what no longer serves us .. making space for new beginnings both in our personal lives and the collective. The turning point is upon us. May we continue to show up, show out and be heard. Hugs and welcome home.
@cindy thank you for sharing your experience with us. I have thought of you often and have missed your voice here. As difficult as your presence and what was required of you must have been, I hope you felt and continue to feel the gift of your being there, and deep healing.
@lowtide, @journeywithme2 Thank you for your support.
We mostly stayed in the hotel once we got there, but we did venture out two nights. The first was to Constitution Hall for a reception & thank you service for the first responders and other support teams. Besides the responders, there was all sorts of top brass from the military, congress critters, NTSB officials. I nearly stepped on Sen. Tim Caine, and I could have done without the speech from Ted I'm going to Cancun Cruz. The second was the Anniversary services themselves, which was only family, the emcee for the night, American Airlines care team, myself (and my son) and the parents of a crash victim from the 2009 crash.
However, the locals I came in contact with-Uber drivers, airport staff, hotel staff, etc., were local. They were non-plussed by the goings on in DC. They chuckled when they'd hear my son and I aghast at something the administration was doing, as they too agreed, but they obviously don't make their opinions known first with customers. I only saw one group of National Guard, it was just 4 of them, and the locals totally ignored them, just as the guard ignored the locals. It seemed like neither wanted their presence, so they'd all just keep to themselves & co-exist.
I also think part of my calm about the atmosphere came from a dream I had back in early December. It was nondescript for the most part-just a group of people chatting with each other, mostly small talk. Then out of the blue, I heard Spirit clearly say "He won't make it past 79." While no one was actually talking about the orange one, I knew in the dream who was being referenced. I woke immediately, which happens often when I'm supposed to remember something I'm told in dreams. And no Jeanne (& mods) this wasn't one of my dreams where I am shown someone's passing. It was general-which to me meant that his tenure, for whatever reason, is expiring. I don't know if this is what will happen or if it was something that was said to me to get me through the first holiday without dad, and the upcoming trip. I'm still feeling calm, so even if it isn't prophetic, I'll take it for the time being.
Seeing @gbs' astrological breakdown in the random prediction thread makes me wonder if there isn't something to it. We have until June to find out, I suppose. I found it interesting to find folks commenting on the moon. There was a good deal of snow in my yard, and the pool froze over, so both my son and his SO were staring out the back door looking and commenting on the moon and it's reflection. They too felt something I suppose.
I'll also extend my thanks to others here who said they'd keep me in their thoughts and prayers. My speech was personal, as is normal for me. I got choked up when I was speaking of Monica, and suddenly my hair fell almost in front of my face. For the last year, I've maintained rainbow colored Fairy Hair (it's like having colored tinsel in your hair permanently-it sparkles in the light). I typically can't see the strands without a mirror. But lo & behold, when my hair fell off my shoulder on the left side, the lights from the left side of the stage lit up a strand and I was suddenly seeing a rainbow-one of my signs from Monica. That allowed me to regain my composure and continue on without anyone but my son noticing. Always look for the signs from your loved ones, they're always there to support you!
@cindy. You always speak so beautifully and heartfelt. The image of the rainbow sparkle, and meaning was special.
As for signs, I was in Kohls recently looking at earrings and spied a pair with dragonflies. I bought those, because dragonflies are a sign of my Dad, so why not?🙂
For the last year, I've maintained rainbow colored Fairy Hair (it's like having colored tinsel in your hair permanently-it sparkles in the light). I typically can't see the strands without a mirror. But lo & behold, when my hair fell off my shoulder on the left side, the lights from the left side of the stage lit up a strand and I was suddenly seeing a rainbow-one of my signs from Monica.
I totally love that!
Saw my GI this week and a new pulmonolgist.
I am wheezing from my vocal chords. Didn't know that was even a thing. Asthma is uncontrolled. Lungs struggling.
I will be leaving my job soon. The physical and emotional environment, harsh chemicals, and a boss who refuses to use green cleaners have left me no other choice.
Already I am interviewing and think I have found a new school home in a brand new building.
Still, my heart hurts to leave my students. They are PreK. They'll be so sad and the boss will be their teacher, a bully.
Please send enlightenment to my boss. Help her to love those children and care for them as I would.
Prayers for my body.
Hi Folks! I took a serious fall early this morning and fractured my eye socket. The experience was terrifying, but I am also filled with gratitude at the wonderful doctors who treated me, and for the fact that I have good insurance, had my pick of emergency rooms, and had love and support throughout the ordeal. It reminded me how lucky I am, even when something "bad" happens.
I am on my way to getting better, but would appreciate any and all good vibes. I am also sending out love and light to those with health challenges who don't have the good fortune I have, and would appreciate folks joining me in that endeavor as well.
Just bopping in after my trip to DC. It was long and hard, it opened old wounds, but it was the right thing to do.
I haven't had a chance to catch up on news, protests, etc., so after arriving home, I did shop to prepare for the snow that's expected here. Shame on me for shopping during a boycott without knowing, but I think I'll be forgiven all things considered.
There were some real George Bailey moments for me in DC this trip, and I'm still processing. But being there, in the core of it all, it was like DC (as in the real residents) intended to just go about their lives. I know I kept feeling that what was prominent now will be a flash in the pan. There was a foot of snow on the ground covered by ice, and no signs of melting as the temperatures didn't even make it to the mid 20s at the warmest point of the trip. Residents laughed at the inability to move the snow, and slipping as they tried to go around, but they did so with cheer for the most part.
My reason for being in DC was sad, but there was a total Capraesque vibe for me the whole time. It made me realize that we shouldn't overlook small beginnings or acts, and how such things can make major changes. It's good to be home, snuggled in, and to have the time to reflect on it all.
Hope all here are doing well in spite of all the drama we've been facing.
@lynn, I'm so sorry to hear about your serious fall. I can imagine how scary that was for you. I'm really glad to hear that you're receiving excellent medical care and support and are on the road to recovery. I'm sending lots of love, strength and healing energy your way. I also join you in sending healing light to anyone who has health challenges. May they receive whatever physical, mental or emotional support they need to fully heal.
@ghandigirl sending you healing, and sending your children love and protection that they get a teacher as wonderful as you, once all settles down there. I'm getting deja vu about this situation and wonder if it happened before at another school or perhaps that was a different person. Those children were so lucky to have had you as a teacher. I can attest to the fact that very young children remember their whole lives when they had a loving caring teacher. I know that I have remembered my kindergarten and first and third grade teachers for their loving acceptance and kindness. You will find another place and those new children will get a chance to have a loving warm fun and kind teacher---you!
@lynn sending you loving Reiki energy to assist in healing your eyes socket rapidly. I admire your fortitude and positive attitude. They will go a long way in helping you heal. Be well.
Thank you all so much! This morning I'm going to an optomology institute near where I live (again, lucky to have the resources!) and the doctors there will determine the treatment plan, and whether I will need surgery. Your prayers and thoughts have had tremendous effect as after only two days out from the fall, I am so much better than I expected to be. I'm really surprised by how much better I feel.
I'll keep you posted. I am so thankful and grateful for this community.
@lynn bless you. What a difficult injury. Praying for your continued healing and well-being. ❤️
Hi Folks,
Thanks for everyone for your love and support. I just wanted to give you the latest update. I went to the eye clinic yesterday, and probably got the best news I could have gotten. My vision is normal and my eye isn't damaged. The less great news is that the break is large, and my eye has receded about 1-2 mm. That said, the opthalmologist wants to wait a couple of weeks for the swelling to go down, and also because he thinks it's possible for the bone to heal itself enough that the eye will reposition on its own. If that doesn't happen then I will need surgery, but even then he told me they've done this kind of thing thousands of times and the outcome is expect to be a good one. So, please keep me in your thoughts, and send your healing vibes to my left lower eye socket and my left eye in general.
I'm not one for too much sharing, but I have wanted to include our community in this difficult time for me because I am feeling like lessons and gifts are coming with this freak accident. I've had "bad" things happen before that felt random and pointless. This feels different. I am feeling guided and also reminded of all the good I have in my life, and how lucky I really am. I feel compelled to share this feeling with you. We all have our challenges, but if you are lucky enough to have access to healthcare (and I know not everyone does) it puts us in a privileged category. Should it be this way? No. In a civilized society this should be a right, but for as long as it's not, it's the luck of the draw for many, and those who have this benefit are lucky indeed.
While I was waiting for my appointment, there was a lady there with her two teen boys. She was having a terrible ear ache (the clinic is an eye and ear clinic) and asked me, in Spanish, what kind of payment the clinic accepted. We spoke a bit and it was clear to me that she doesn't have legal status or any kind of insurance. It was another reminder that here we were, both of us sitting together in the same place, yet occupying different worlds. My concerns were about my recovery, hers were about how to pay for a visit. Count your blessings, Lynn, the universe was telling me. Look for the good you already have.
Much love to you all!