Well things aren't going well.
Tonight I am losing heart. Even with all the positive intent in the world, things can fall apart.
I have been trying so hard for so long to keep it all together. It is humbling and scary to feel like there is no plan.
I just don't understand why it has to be so hard.
Maybe tomorrow I'll have better news.
Light, love, and peace to you @Ghandigirl - you are loved and supported by many here. I'll send you some light and hope your outlook changes quickly!
Sending you a lot of love and a big hug.
May you feel lighter and hopeful. May you know that angels are with you, even when you can't feel them. May you know that you are loved by many here and by higher beings. May kindness find you and may you find kindness and love for yourself. Always.
Thank you. Much love to you. Thank you friends.
I actually wasn't mood swinging... it was a very tense time of toxic issues and also waiting and jumping through hoops but today I have four beautiful words:
The house is ours!
@ghandigirl oh good for you. Best of luck and love. Peace, health and happiness always ????
John posted on Twitter this morning. He is doing well!The great progressive pastor John Pavlovitz is having surgery for a brain tumor tomorrow and I hope you all will join me in praying for him. I know he’s been mentioned on our site. Pavlovitz is a social activist and writer and you can read some of his essays here: https://johnpavlovitz.com/ May his surgery be successful and may he continue his much needed ministry.
@tybin I just saw John Pavlovitz’s post on Twitter-what wonderful news!!! It sounds like his surgery went very well.
I just deleted a short sentence about what is going on at my job because even a vague description is too much information. Thoughts, prayers, good energy welcomed. Not personal about me.
I have a prayer request that I’d like everyone willing to keep on their radar for the foreseeable future.
a wonderful man, a pillar of our community whose wonderful wife I work with on the theater board for our local troupe has been diagnosed with stage four Pancreatic cancer. Pat is one of the most giving individuals in the world. He headed up our local United way until recently and is just one of those people who would bend over backwards to help anyone in need.
this hits hard for a lot of reasons, the biggest being that stage 4 pancreatic cancer was what took my dad back in 2003 as a college senior just four days before I graduated. It’s terrible - it’s hard to detect in the early stages and stage four is — not good. They’re exploring options. A lot of time has passed since 2003 and they are better at treating it now - but it’s still a very hard one to do much for. Please wrap Pat and his wife Sally in as much healing energy as you can send them. I’m just so sad as this sinks in.
@dannyboy you have my prayers for your friend. I recently lost a friend to this disease. A clinical trail drug provided some hope and time but not a cure. My heart goes out to your friends and all those fighting this disease and more. We raise them up to ask and receive healing and peace. ???
- ????? Prayers for Pat, his wife, you and the community that has depended his leadership and shining example. Prayers for Highest Good for All concerned and asking for AA Raphael to oversee her care and that Creator bless all hands that touch her to be Healing,Loving hands.
My reiki specialist, Jen, is extremely concerned about her daughter, Lexi. Lexi has a history of anxiety and anorexia, and the anxiety has gone through the roof since she started her freshman year of college last month. According to Jen she has also relapsed with the anorexia but is in denial and is not seeking out help.
Since Jen confided in me when she didn't have to, the best I can do (beyond sending my own healing intentions) is to ask for help for Lexi here. Jen has been sending her lots of reiki, but my intuition is telling me Lexi might benefit from prayers/intentions/reiki from people who aren't blood relations (not sure why, that's just what I'm feeling). So if you can send Lexi some good energy, her mother would appreciate it. (Lexi attends college in Connecticut if that helps).
Thanks for letting us know Coyote. I will send some healing energy and prayers to Lexi. It is so difficult being a student in any grade right now. I know a few in college right now who are having a difficult time with mental health issues.
@dannyboy , @coyote , I sent prayers & light to those you requested. @ghandigirl , congrats on the new house! @jeanne-mayell , I loved your monarch painting! So vivid & realistic. I've been thinking lately that I should dust off the easel & canvas myself. I've also been telling myself I need to clean the garage to get to my torch & kilns as well.
I've been a bit MIA for the last few weeks for a few reasons. First I adopted a 5 month old great dane great pyrenees mix, whom I call Ricki. We have no clue what she's been thru in life so far-tho I'm certain her experiences weren't all that pleasant. She's slowly coming around so I can pet her & pick her up when necessary, but she mostly runs away as a normal response. Trying a crate made her more skittish, she has quite a fear of me trying to hold her collar or heaven forbid, putting a leash on the collar. We're making progress tho. My dane-lab mix (Lucy) has accepted she's here, but isn't thrilled thay she plays too rough- now that Ricki will attempt to at least interact with Lucy. This too shall pass.
The day after I picked up Ricki, dad was taken to the ER. He was in uncontrolled A-fib. We spent most of Sunday there, & I could take him back to the home that evening since there are always medical staff around. It took 2+ weeks for the change in medicine to finally get him back in a normal heart rhythm, as of Thursday's EKG. Thankfully, we didn't have to shock him, and his blood thinners worked this time staving off another stroke. Oddly enough, he looked more frail Thursday than he had through the entire episode. Or maybe it's just my perception since mom was in my dreams just days before showing me she's waiting on him.
I'm looking forward to a few quiet days. Glad everyone here seems to be doing well. @lovendures , I love your new avi!
Your new Ricki is absolutely adorable. I hope he can settle in and learn to trust you. What a fortunate puppy. What a big boy he will become!!
I hope you get your few days rest. And even more calm and peaceful days. Hope your father has some restful days as well.
I was think of you this week Cindy, I am glad you had a moment to post and say "hi".