Pat, I get the anger. Been there, done that. I had to bring Monica home and keep her with me. I knew if I spread her ashes at the time I lost her, or had them interred, I would not be able to move from the area. She and I had planned to move before the accident. I moved and she came with me. When I was ready to let her ashes go, my youngest wasn't. I just kept her at home for over 20 years. Then between Christmas and her birthday when my youngest was here for a visit, we spread her together. It takes time. The anger subsides.
I also understand public associations. We needed police escorts and protection just for her services. I've dealt with years of news coverage, specials, magazine articles, movies, books. It took decades to get pictures of her coffin off internet news sites (tho news stories of her funeral still exist nearly 3 decades later). Whether we understand what happened or give up trying, that doesn't have to stop us from moving forward with our lives. How and why they passed is part of their Karma. Our passed loved ones want us to go on, to live fully, and be happy even tho they are gone. They watch us and root for us from beyond. Sometimes for us, it will be one step forward, two back, until we find our stride to continually move forward. Be patient. It is all life changing, but survivable.
@journeywithme2, I had a gut feeling there would be a good outcome. I think that's why I saw the blonde in the scrubs with the good vibe. Physical recovery won't be 100%. It's more like making her take the opportunity to slow down enough to smell the roses. I don't see anything life shattering in the offing, so to speak.
@lowtide, hang in there, it will get better.
@cindy Hugs to you Cindy, for your always significant replies. Thank you.
I've posted here recently, asking for healing prayers for Joel A. He died this morning of pancreatic cancer, after having been diagnosed with it earlier this year. If you could send him light and love once more, I would be deeply grateful. Thank you
I am sorry for the loss of your friend.
The song "On Eagles Wings" came to mind as I thought about Joel A.
..." make you to shine like the sun, and hold you in the palm of his hand"...
I am sorry for the loss of your friend.
The song "On Eagles Wings" came to mind as I thought about Joel A.
..." make you to shine like the sun, and hold you in the palm of his hand"...
@gbs I’m so very sorry for your loss. Light and love and peaceful transition wishes for Joel. 🙏🏼
@gbs ❤️💜🪽💜❤️ Joel ...Go rest high.
@gbs I'm sorry for your loss. Hugs. Before becoming ill, was Joel an active individual? When I read journey's post about resting well, I heard, "nope- hit the ground running." It was like he felt better, so "time to get back to it."
@gbs I'm sorry for your loss. Hugs. Before becoming ill, was Joel an active individual? When I read journey's post about resting well, I heard, "nope- hit the ground running." It was like he felt better, so "time to get back to it."
Thank you, everyone, for your good wishes for our family friend. @cindy your assessment feels intuitively right to me. My sense is that his body had withstood all it could, and that he is relieved to not have to experience those levels of pain from the cancer anymore. Before his illness, Joel was wheelchair-bound for many years from an accident that left him paralyzed from the waist down. He also had diabetes. So the physical body certainly presented its challenges, but within those parameters he was active and participatory and would go on outings in the city. My sense is that he took on a lot of soul growth through the body in this lifetime, and is now ready to move on to other endeavors.