Thank you. I'm 60 too. One of the things I am trying to figure out is why I have next to no friends IRL. Yes, I have maybe 2 BFFs - you know the kind - who if I called at 2am and asked them to bring me trash bags and a shovel, would do so. But they live far away. Then I have maybe 4 other friends in the DMV area, and I'm down to maybe 2 here in California. So I lack for love via those types of connections.
My family dynamic is so f*ed up for so long that I basically only talk to 2 cousins who I didn't know growing up, and they also don't live near me. And my half brothers I love but they have sooooo many issues that I just can't be too close to them, it gets toxic for me quickly even though it's not their intention. I have sisters in law, but we're just not close. And my full brother told me to f* off years ago (he was the golden child), so I did, and when I extended olive branches when our narcissist mother died a few years ago, he told out dad to tell me to f* off again.
So yeah, good thing I'm in therapy!!!
@jeanne-mayell - Thank you. Coming on here is balm for the soul.
@laura-f We are all here for you.
@laura-f I really feel you. My mother won't talk to me. It's complicated. But I literally wake up every single morning wondering if she's even thinking of me. Every single morning and I hate it. It's all consuming. I shove it down but I'm sure to explode one day. I'm not really coping well. Lol! I'm sorry. It's heartbreaking to feel abandoned.
It is with a very heavy heart that I am sharing that I lost my sister, Deborah Carey, my best friend to cancer today. She has been my strength and joy for my entire life and I will miss her everyday. She is with her beloved Roger now and much happier now I am sure. Cancer is horrible and I am gratefully her pain has ended.
@mtgal99 I am so sorry for your loss -- not just of your sister, but someone who was your friend and lifelong partner. Your loss is profound. I will keep you and your dear sister in my thoughts, and I will pray that you will find some peace and comfort in the new life you will now have to live without her.
@mtgal99 I am so sorry you have lost your dear dear sister. Thank you for letting us know so we can hold you and her in our hearts and send love. I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you, even when you are glad she is no longer suffering and can be with her beloved. Sisters can be so close, as I am with mine, and loving someone who goes back your entire life, into childhood, is like losing a part of yourself. May you find strength from the coming weeks and months, and feel her in your heart.
@mtgal99 So very sorry for your loss... may your memories of the love between and the good times together comfort you as you grieve her passing. Look for the signs she will send you to let you know she is ok and still sees and loves you. 🙏🏻💜🪽💜🙏🏻
May the memory of your sister be a blessing. May you find comfort and peace. May she also be at peace. May you feel her love as a soft kiss of sunshine as you go about your day. It won't be easy, even when you know she is in a place where there is no longer any pain. Sending you a lot of love. Thank you for allowing us to help you right now.
@mtgal99 I recognize your sister's name. She was one of our community here, wasn't she?
May you be blessed with the comfort of your family and friends as you grieve. May you feel her presence as you say goodbye. I'm so sorry for your great loss, mtgal99.
I wish I could give you a big hug...this virtual hug will have to do. So sorry for your loss.