@smacgoldstein84 Thank you for your healing and prayers. I feel it worked!
Today was an upsetting day in very many ways. My head aches from thinking about and feeling poor Paul Pelosi and my own stress. But some amazing things happened. The last being sent Michael Moore's blog, which arrived in an email, when I couldn't even pay for a subscription. Before that, I actually saw a rainbow three times as I drove home, and the first thing of all was the most precious, making a connection with Anne my longtime therapist, who has passed. I miss her and the message she sent in immediate response when I called to her twice was in my mind, what I saw in large thin quiet letters was, "Sit with it." And I saw a montage of being at Anne's house, with the different solid-colored colorful flags draped across her entrance and her artwork. I saw all the years and felt and remembered all her wise advice and how she saved my life, when things were very, very dark. So I sat with the feeling.
As I sat, I pictured myself, as a past version of me, and she was crying and saying how very disappointing it all is, and me as I am now, taking her hand and saying, "That was so hard. How can I help you?" Supporting myself is new. Remembering/Learning to Let Go and Let G d does help.
I complain a lot because in three years I've only seen the trace of one rainbow. I saw many, even in one day, where I used to live.
I was griping out loud as I drove, and caught a glimpse of the rainbow, and then thought maybe it wasn't even real at first, but it reappeared two more times. I almost cried. It was, obviously, Anne. She came out to see me. She wore her different colored flags so I would know it was her. She used a powerful number too, three sightings. And I got to recognize her. I feel her still. I see her smile.
An update on our dear friend Mark. Heard that he is on dialysis and is experiencing kidney failure. Mark is only 60. I am hoping for a miracle.
Hi everyone.
No doubt you were all expecting to hear my commentary about how Republican violence is out of control after Pelosi's husband was attacked, but I fear I have been distracted over the last few days. On Tuesday, I apparently suffered a stroke while in court. No, the case did not cause it (I had actually won the case a few minutes before). However, apparently one of my blood vessels in my head was narrowed to 90 percent despite having no risk factors, good blood work, etc.
Thankfully, I was sent to the hospital where I currently remain (although I hope to be discharged tomorrow, fingers crossed). I shall have to make several changes as I recover (mostly work related). No doubt I will struggle with this, but I have good family and friends willing to help me. Thankfully, the damage doesn't seem too severe. It mostly affected my right arm, leg, and face, but the incident itself only lasted a few minutes. I was conscious for the entire part and still have my mobility, my speech, and my thoughts, so I hope that the blood medications they plan to put me on will solve the problem. I REALLY don't want a brain stint, and right now it is too dangerous to put one there.
I feel like a walking time bomb. Any prayers or light sent my way will be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
@allyn So sorry to hear that. Best wishes for a speedy recovery and I guess stop and smell the roses occasionally, don’t make work the be all and end all of your life. Take care, I can’t send you angels but do wish you well.
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Oh Wow Allyn!
SO glad you ( or someone else ) realized you were having a stroke and you got immediate medical care. Prayers have been sent. You are indeed fortunate to have your speech and mobility, such a blessing.
May you be surrounded by healing energy. May you have all the care and support possible to help you through this time. May you be wrapped in love and kindness.
Thank you for letting us know how you are doing and please keep us informed.
( P.S. glad you won the case!)
@allyn Thank you for letting us know. It sounds like you have been very fortunate in retaining speech, thought process (your very good mind!) and mobility. I will be praying for you in the days ahead as you work through your recovery. May your heart be filled with peace as you recognize all the good things that will come out of this experience. May your friends circle you with their loving protection and support.
I sense that you will make a full recovery physically and your emotional self will follow your body’s lead. A stroke is a lot to process, but in the meantime, enjoy these autumn days and let yourself relax. Please let us know how you’re doing.
I am sending you healing and an inner awareness of spiritual support coming from many people.
@allyn. Oh my dear wonderful and brilliant Allyn. You must have some doting angels working overtime that you got to the hospital and got care right away, and won the case to boot. Sending more angels to be with you 24-7 from here on in, and praying for a complete and speedy recovery.
@allyn Oh my, @allyn -- I am sorry you experienced that, but so glad to hear that you got medical treatment right away and are on the path to recovery. We were actually just visiting a friend this evening who is recovering from a stroke he had last month (blood vessel bleed.) He is also recovering well, thankfully.
Take your time, get the rest you need and we are sending you all sorts of good healing energy. Be well!
@allyn...just wanted to join the chorus to wish you a speedy and complete recovery. I always look forward to your posts. Take care of yourself!
So sorry to hear of your difficulties. Sending you a wish for a speedy recovery and trip home
@allyn Oh my, so sorry you are having to deal with this health issue. I wish you only the best and send healing thoughts your way.