Great way to reframe!
I think managing is a great word. I am managing my asthma. I am managing my anxiety, the bipolar, the depression. And the anger of no masks and no social distancing from others...I am managing that too.
I managed to walk in a nearly deserted park this weekend. I managed a car ride to see the sights of spring with the windows up and my mask off. I managed not to panic or nag when the bf sneezed.
This fear has me all seized up a lot of times. I am starting to believe I won't get sick. I am managing some optimism.
I wish my fellow Americans would do better, take more precautions, keep ME safe by wearing masks, but I cannot manage anyone else but my own self.
Welp... got my CV-19 Antibody blood test result back from Quest Labs: NEGATIVE.
This is not helping my anxiety, but either way it wasn't going to change my levels of self-protection.
Also, the tech and my doc agree I should wait about 6 months and get a different blood test elsewhere, as by then the tests will have more accuracy.
I just wonder - what the hell did so many of us get so dangerously sick with this winter that wasn't the flu?? and not COVID either???
In a related story - Snohomish County in Washington State has confirmed CV-19 antibodies in 2 people who were sick before Christmas. Neither person was in an at-risk category - no travel, no contact with the sick, no underlying infections. This does support the argument it was circulating everywhere much earlier than anyone thought.
(Tagging @Bluebelle - in case you haven't seen this yet)
No, I hadn’t heard this news out of Snohomish County. It’s sobering, but not altogether surprising. I’ve been suspecting that the East Coast Had COVID in December, too.
Good to see your post. I’m always interested in how you’re doing. Retest in a few months!
@laura-f, my husband and I also received our results from the CV-19 antibody test: NEGATIVE. Our internist expected that. He said that everyone he has tested thus far have been negative. As I mentioned in a prior post, my husband and I were pretty sick with respiratory symptoms in mid-December, and my hubby got sick again in January.
I just heard that my senator Kaine and his wife recently tested positive for the antibodies. He said that after testing positive for the flu, he continued to experience symptoms. In April, he and his wife were told they could have mild cases of coronavirus, but were not tested because of a shortage in testing in Virginia. The symptoms went away in mid-April. Kaine said they will continue to follow all of the CDC precautions.
Meanwhile, Rand Paul, who also once tested positive for the virus, refuses to wear a mask, claiming that he now has immunity and is "about the only safe person in Washington."
No further comment is needed.
Sorry to everyone in the forums for being unresponsive lately. I've been trying to recuperate myself mentally as of late due to the last few months been hellish for me, where I think early in April was hitting a dangerous breaking point for me. I almost lost myself, both spritially and physically, at that time.
My mind is still in the dark forest, so I can't engage myself into social affairs yet, especially with the recent troubles outside of the world. (I hope everyone else is ok, especially in HK, Brazil, Europe, Uk, US and the rest of the part of the world.)
I felt the troubles that occurs in 2020, have not only shine the glaring cracks and flaws of the greater part of the global stage, but even the little things in our everyday life that we've taken for granted. Recently, I've seem to managed talk my friend out of engaging a "friends with benefits" with his ex, who has propose that to him. I didn't tell him bluntly or anything like that. I've simply asked him if he's feeling comfortable about it. When he said no, I've simply told him that he shouldn't go through it if he doesn't want to.
That triggers him in breaking off with his ex, this time perminantly, while causing him to question of the toxicity of the current culture and impression of masculinity ideals. He felt disgusted about his ex when he realised her attitude towards him, that she never thinks of him as a person in the first place, but as someone to fool around with because in her eyes, he's a man with urges.
I think that's a dangerous viewpoint and philosophy to follow though on both ends. I think it's for the best if the Age of Aquarius mosey right in, even though it's painful, we need more feminine energy more than ever. More reason and empathy.
I was moved when you mention about about someone watching over me. I've tried not to cry. I guess that explains why I felt comfortable in most places, or how despite the situation was falling apart, I have a strange sense of feeling that "everything will fall into the right place at the end" and "I'm going through this as another lesson in life, so when the actual hard times came, I'm more than ready for it."
The only few times where I'm not actually comfortable, were felt like a warning that I should leave or avoid the area. Unfortuately, that feeling is true. There's this one time where I felt like something is pushing me to stay away from Flinders Street. Either by distractions and such, that lead me to a detour to my regular art shop. Even then I have a strange push to get out of the shop earlier, instead of doing my normal browsing at the art supplies and talking to the shopkeeper.
Later that night when I was watching the news, there's a manic was mowing down dozen of people in his car in Flinders Street on that very day. I was terrified and shocked, not at the loss and truma of lives, but also the fact I've narrowly avoided that, due to that something holding me back on that day.
(The people in the shop were fine though).
I guess I have to try to remind myself more often that I'm not alone, especially in the very dark times such as this.
As for the cards, I've been planning some things for them, especially with the minor arcanas, as they have an interesting narrative journey in each of those suites. Unfortuately, I'm still working on my uni assignments, but once that's out of the way, I'll be starting the fool's card first. I thought that card is appropriate to start this journey/project endevour.
Again, typos that I can't fixed from the last post. What I meant was in that last post where I can't edit was I felt sad and sorrow at the losses that occured, but I missed the word "only". Sorry about that.
Replying to you here so we don't keep hijacking the "Great Turning" thread.
Had not heard of the procedure you spoke of. I'm leery of anything involving surgery, so it's not something I would look into. I don't have chronic migraine, I get 1 or 2 a month, and they last anywhere from 6 to 72 hours, depending on the trigger. I'm pretty successful at "nipping them in the bud", which keeps them typically at 24 hours.
Interesting about the blood aspect you mention. For me, I know when it's a migraine because I can actually feel irritation in the arteries on the left side of my neck/head, and I know that the Left Basilar Artery is one that can cause migraines when it's inflamed.
In the last few years, I have read a lot of research that indicates migraines may be closer to epilepsy than other disorders. Sorry, no time to find links for you today, but if you google "link between epilepsy and migraine" you'll find stuff.
Of course everyone is different. For me, my regimen involves a lot of pill popping and other stuff, but it works to resolve the migraine more quickly than in the past. Here is my personal list:
1. Magnesium Glycinate - 500mg
2. Taurine - 500mg
3. Aleve - 550mg
4. CBD:THC 4:1 ratio cannabis drops
5. Binaural Beats for Migraine music thru noise cancelling headphones (my fave is: https://youtu.be/5jmrIggwCXc )
6. Lay down in a dark room, preferably with a cat next to me (I do have a reiki-emmitting cat).
7. Cool damp cloth with peppermint oil over the forehead and eyes.
8. Lavender drops on neck and wrists.
9. Progesterone topical BHRT cream 5mg.
10. If it's late in the day, Benadryl 12.5mg, or before bed the night of a recovering migraine.
I find the cannabis really tamps down the nausea well (throwing up never made me feel better anyway), in addition to helping with the pain, and I suspect it also reduces the inflammation in the arteries/brain.
Be well!
Re: Migraine Synchronicity -
OK, so we counted 3 or 4 of us on here that had migraines in the last few days. I had an email exchange with a non-facebook friend, he told me that I was the FOURTH person today to tell him I had a migraine that I'm just recovering from. That got me thinking, so I put it out to my FB friends. So far, 9 people have said YES, I had a migraine in the last 3 days. Some still have it today. Of those 9, 2 are pagan/wiccan priests, 2 are high intuitive types, and 1 is a full fledged medium (not Jeanne, someone else).
VERY interesting. There's definitely a disturbance in the Force. Hope it's not the giant asteroid speeding towards Earth...