...but then I feel this calming,light surround me and whisper " Everything will be ok, you just need to breathe and relax. All will be revealed in do time." I feel the love everyone is sending outwards and I try to hold onto it as tightly as I can.
Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! YES!
Oh i am so delighted for you!.This is how you do it and this is how you pass your love and teachings on to your precious son! ?
I'm not doing so great this week. Here in San Diego we are in "Phase 2" of the state's reopening plan. Long story short, as usual, there's NO enforcement of anything. Bars and beaches are packed, as are the Air BnB properties in my neighborhood. Less mask wearing than ever. I hate people.
A bee landed on my bike while I was waiting for my train at the station today. It's the most fluffest working bee that I've ever seen, it's probably a European breed since Australian native bees are very different and sometimes very blue and out-of-this-world sorts. I would immediately feed some sugar bits from my jam dounuts if it weren't for the fact that we're still in a pandemic, so I can't make a mess, plus my train was arriving very soon. So I had no choice but to shoo it. She kept coming back to land on my bike for a few moments before she finally took off, back to her hive hopefully
A shame really. I really like to help. ?
As for my wellbeing in general. Well things are still rough, but I'm recovering a fair bit now, much better than last month, where I felt the walls are closing in tightly around me. Being able to reach out to other people certainly helps, especially when the uncertainty is still around.
I'm about to go into the next step of counseling, which is going to be much difficult because this time is about delving back into the past and trying find closure and acceptence more or less, since she told me that trying to erasing it won't work considering my track record. Instead she's helping me to find strength from it. Sounds very difficult and emotionally charged from the looks of it, but it's for the best, since I know there will be many days ahead where it can get sour, so I need to find a way to weather such storms and all.
Restrictions are easing up on my end in Victoria, including face to face schooling and my university is now considering getting some of it's classes to have a face to face sessions on campus. I'm pretty uneasy about it, but we'll see.
Courtrooms are still closed to the public at this time, unsurprisingly.
I just hope I could get some things down, like finding love and friendship within this darkness, despite the horrid storms of the pandemic. It's a tall order I reckon, but I can try and hope I suppose.
@laura-f, I can feel and understand your disgust and anger. You spend months sheltering at home, and for what? Here in Virginia Gov. Northam has just announced that Northern Virginia can begin reopening with Phase I this Friday, adding "just because you can open doesn’t mean that you have to open.” (If you just heard a big, noisy blast, that was my head exploding.)
Meanwhile, this past Friday the coronavirus task force singled out Northern VA as having some of the worst infection rates in the country. The raw numbers continued to climb over the Memorial Day weekend.
Northam has now instituted a mandatory mask-wearing policy (until now it's been "recommended"), but he violated that policy over the weekend when he was photographed without a mask as he mingled with visitors in Virginia Beach. He said he wasn't prepared, because his mask was in the car. Northam said he takes full responsibility for his actions and should be held accountable. And this guy is a physician.
Hello, my friend. You were on my mind today so I'm checking in to see how you're doing. I'm sending you a big hug. ?