In the past, you have given meaning to your situation by describing your journey as a warrior's journey. Continuing in that way of thinking, no matter what you are facing, can you find meaning for it and for how you as a warrior want to respond to the battle you are in? You don't have to answer. Also how can we help?
Dear friend of my heart, I’ve not walked in your path or endured what you have endured. If I had your experiences, would I ask your questions, would I give up the battle? Honestly, I don’t know. As you know, I look at a physical disability from a different perspective since one of my children is a paraplegic. Losing physical function is an overwhelming heartbreak, yet a disabled person can persist, can find meaning and purpose, can love and be loved in return. Not only do I know this from my son’s experience, but also know from volunteering for ten years with patients at a spinal cord injury hospital. People are amazing. People do choose life and live it as fully as possible.
This week, I’ve been reading Henri Nouwen’s book Here and Now and this passage resonated with me:
“The great value of spiritual reading is that it helps us to give meaning to our lives. Without meaning, human life quickly degenerates. The human person not only wants to live, but also wants to know why to live. Viktor Frankl, the psychiatrist who wrote about his experiences in a German concentration camp in the Second World War, shows convincingly that without meaning in our lives we can’t survive long. It is possible to live through many hardships when we believe that there still is someone or something worth living for. Food, drink, shelter, rest, friendship, and many other things are essential for life. But meaning is too!”
Of course, I see disability from a parent’s perspective and know every day, hour and minute of your life is a blessing to your parents. Because I’ve not walked your path, I offer instead my heartfelt prayers for you. I pray that you are surrounded by angelic beings who comfort you, protect you, strengthen you and guide you through the days and weeks and months ahead. You are much loved in this life, Coyote. May you feel this angelic comfort soon.
Namaste.
My reiki master gifted me a rose quartz crystal at the end of our first session in October so that I could process all of my emotions and open my heart more. I wear it on my body most of the day, so I have that to keep my heart receptive. Of course, I will meditate more. I'd rather meditate on my own than on a Zoom call, but I'll still meditate at the time of each conference. Are they all at 6 pm now?
I also ask that if anyone sends healing to me, imagine me as a robust, fully healthy individual, unencumbered by disability. I say that because I know my purpose in life is to help the collective ascent to the fifth dimension, and that begins with literally shapeshifting my body and repairing my genome. I've had too many visions and received too many intuitive insights to believe otherwise. So @bluebelle, I know this wasn't your intention, but it hurts to hear that all I have left is just to accept the current state of my body. I feel deep in my being that humanity is fast approaching a point in spiritual evolution where our minds will have a lot more bearing on our physical expression. If the trauma I endured stemmed from a discrete event like an accident, I would come around to acceptance for the time being. But what I've been through has been successive traumas that have gotten worse over time, and the natural history of my diagnosis points to fatality by the age of 40. I can accept more trauma and death at a young age, or I can defy all expectations and reverse that linear trend. There's nothing in between in my situation. (It's like riding a bike: you either keep pedaling towards your destination or you halt and fall over.)
So the meaning I've placed in my life is to be a one-in-a-million miracle. Because it will also take a miracle for the world to come back from the brink of ecological catastrophe. But we make our own miracles, so this is all within our agency. I might be taking a big risk and setting myself up for profound disappointment if I fall short of my goals. But can you think of any memorable hero who didn't take risks or leaps of faith? Neither can I.
First, though, like a knight suiting up in armor, I have to take a sober accounting of what's at stake.
It takes strength to sit with anger. Anger has much less attractive pr than joy does.
But Anger needs a seat at the table too.
I wish for you whatever you need in the moment. I will wish for you whatever is best for you , even if it doesn't seem so in the moment.
I love you little brother. I am richer for knowing your story and your pain becomes my own when I read in your voice.
You are in my prayers.
I will ask archangel Raphael to watch over you and to send you healing, blessing, love and protection.
Your visions and insights for the fulfillment of incarnating the 5th dimension will carry you through! The body is magnificent and does regenerate itself. We will add you to our meditations of light and in celebration of health and wholeness for you and all mankind. Be well.
I so agree with Maggie. Never give up even during the most challenging times!I
Trust me when I say I have a Legion of Angels behind me as we battle these challenges of 2020.
May tonight's transition and celebration of the Winter Solstice and the powers of the Great Conjunction and the meaning and symbolic presence of the creation known as the Star of Bethlehem create many holy of all holies miracles for the Aquarian transformation of our world, and all of us now evolving with it.
Blessings for all of us and our earth, our world, our nations and all of our own loved ones during these times.
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"Your visions and insights for the fulfillment of incarnating the 5th dimension will carry you through! The body is magnificent and does regenerate "