This is so dear, Elaine and I understand why this meant so much.
Not, only were you loved and thought of, but you can still feel this connection. I call them connected by heartstrings. They connect each of us to each person we ever loved from one heart many energetic streamers flow out and connect to all those we love..living or passed.
In my belief system, you are still connected. Your heart is open by so much loss and because your siblings are older than you are, by the thought of more loss ahead.
I cared for my mom with beginning to advanced Alzheimer's, in my childhood home on Douglas Island, Alaska on and off for 8 years, flying back and forth many times a year and staying from 1 to 4 months at a time.
I know how challenging that is, and the feelings that follow afterwards when we no longer have them in our lives. I can only imagine the loss of a husband.
My thoughts are with you as you remember so very much and process all of these life transitions, regrets, losses...whatever all these emotions i can feel in your heart now.
I am here for you, as are all of the other kindred spirits here. You are a treasure and will be remembered and treasured..as I hope I will be when we someday understand all that has happened and why.
My father helped me care for my mom...no social services available..until he went into his own vascular dementia. We had long talks about life and death and his feelings of losing my mom long before she passed. He left first and I stayed with my mom in her bed that night on. I felt my dad leaving on the 4th night. At the exact time, my mom grabbed my hand in the bed and and said to me...your father is leaving. She felt it, too.
I said "yes, he is and its ok. He was very old and sick and as sad as it made him to leave you, he loved you so much and you will always feel him, near."
"Then it will all be ok she said" and she went right to sleep. I held her hand all night talking to her and to my dad.
Then, by morning she was back to her advanced Alzheimer's stage, barely talking, but with such a sense of peace. She was happy and content until she passed..cared for by all of us, in our childhood on our little island in Alaska, 4 years later.
No matter how sad it all is, how much we miss them and wish it was different. Its still all o.k.
There are wonderful little signs, special things like you Valentine, found often in the most unusual ways or places. They remind us of those dearest and often simplest of things that mean so very much. A reminder to you from him. You were and are loved.
And you are still loved. Never ever forget that. And we are all with you now. With you with compassion, understanding, and love.
Thank you so much. Your reply was so sweet. I got the Bronze Star on the wrong date though. It was 1967.
Hi Elaine,
What a nice message to get, maybe just to say that he loves you, but also to remind you that our loved ones are still with us. I cared for my dying mother. It was both a challenge and a privilege. Every once in a while I get a message that I connect to her. I've even gotten messages from beloved pets that I've lost. It makes me feel joyful that I might see them again. Love and blessings to you during this difficult time, as your siblings begin their journeys to their next stage of life. You've been a good sister to care for them. This is what's life's about.
My boyfriend quit his job today, hr was being mistreated at work and couldn't take it anymore. I hope he finds a new job because we won't make it without it. Keep my family in your thoughts please. Sending love and positive vibes!
I think something that doesn't get enough attention is the epidemic of workplace violence, but physical and psychological. So many of us either work or have worked in toxic environments with abusive supervisors/bosses. The mistreatment ruins lives. I've experienced it myself in the past, and it's absolutely everywhere. I hope as our collective consciousness is raised, this phenomenon becomes extinct.
It takes courage to leave a job without the security of a new one, but sometimes it's necessary. Good for your boyfriend that he put an end to mistreatment. I'll send good thoughts and energy that he finds a good job soon, in a positive and supportive environment. Take care Laynara. xoxo
It is so true LynnV. And as scary as it is to lose a job or an income, it is so great that he still has the skills to know how to look for another job and to have learned when treatment is wrong and it is better to find another job than be put down or hurt in any way by others. Believe he can do it Layanara and remind him in all ways that you are proud of him for his courage and strength and then believe in him, in yourself that your family can and will get through this challenge.
I've been been thinking allot about our future. I hope me and my family and all of us get to see it and not allot of people die... my depression has gotten worse lately thinking about all of this. The thought of not seeing the world get 12ou 12ou the darkness breaks my heart and scares me. I'm sorry for always posting, I just feel safe talking to y'all about all of this.
It's been a bad week. I've been feeling off balance too. The energy just feels dark lately. So don't feel like it's only you Laynara. I'm still sending you love and light. I hope you're feeling better soon. We'll all get through this.
Im slowly getting there! Im fighting!its hard sometimes but worth it.
Laynara, I think many of us have those fears about the future of our world, too. You’re not alone in that. However, if you feel that you’re suffering from depression, there are many sources of medical help out there-from your family doctor to mental health experts. Life can seem pretty overwhelming sometimes and we all need love and support. You are a sweet soul and I’m proud of you for reaching out to this community. Sending you love.