@ghandigirl I do feel for you ghandigirl. I find it hard to face the morning after a night of little sleep. For going to sleep at night, at bedtime I read something that puts me in a different time/space, fairy tales work well for me. I have a big book of Italian folktales collected and written by Italo Calvino. Also Sherlock Holmes stories. Right now I am reading from a little book New Moon of the Seasons: Prayers from the Highlands and Islands extracted from a giant book of old Scottish prayers and incantations collected by Alexander Carmichael – they include ones for sleep time.
I have found that 30 minutes of vigorous exercise (where your breathing is elevated) during the day or early evening has the most positive impact on my quality of sleep that night.
@ghandigirl I think it is. if it gets really bad for me I take a warm shower with lavender soap or magnesium soap and take this:
i does have valerian so check with MD if you can take it. I also drink hop water left to become flat because the bubbes bother me.
I have been struggling for a few days this week.
I don't know if I believe in angels or G d, but I asked both for help tonight.
@ghandigirl Dear Ghandigirl,
@ghandigirl I'm feeling already much better today. I just started sending good, soothing energies your way!
@ghandigirl i am so sorry this happened to you after all you have endured. I am healing your way.
I have decided I need to evict my BF from my house. Legally I have to give him 30 days after the end of the current lease period for him to get out. That would be October 30. He stopped seeing his various therapists and went off his "brain" meds about a month ago and this is not working for him. He was doing really well for a while but he's basically given up. He's depressed and angry and feeling sorry for himself. I think he is afraid of getting better. I don't understand why he just quit. Things were getting better. He's in progress of finally getting set up for badly needed knee surgery and treatment of a couple other long-neglected physical issues. He's a high-level-brass playing musician whose career was knocked sideways by the onset of "musicians focal dystonia". I found a special mouthpiece for him that practically cured it. He sounds amazing now and knows it but said it made him feel even more depressed. I think he is afraid of getting better. I've known this guy for over 40 years and he was always a driven, confident person. No more.
Living with his attitude and negative energy is destroying my own mental health. He does not have a lot of financial resources. A friend suggested I write him a check to cover moving expenses and a few months of living. I think that is a good idea. It won't bankrupt me and it would help expedite the eviction. But I don't think he's even going to try to get a new place. Extrapolating the current course, I see the sheriff arriving on Oct 30, making him leave the house, and moving all his stuff onto the front lawn. Then BF will probably drive off drunk and get into worse trouble. Or he'll walk into the street and let a car run him down. It would be his fault --not mine-- i understand that -- but it is a terrible shame for a talented and fundamentally good-hearted person to end that way.
I've been trying to find a therapist for myself. My primary physician got me an appointment for late November. I really need someone a lot sooner than that. I've tried calling others who take my insurance (it is actually good insurance, for most things) but no one calls back or else I get a bot that says they're not taking new patients.
Any advice or energy would be nice to have, if you can spare it.