I am keeping you and your father in my prayers. I realize this is a difficult time for you and if there is something specific we can do for you please let us know. Sending lots of love and surrounding you both with light in the meantime.
@unk-p beautiful post… thank you for sharing more of Coyote’s words… and Natalie Merchant’s luminous music.
I am looking for silver linings. Beto O'Rourke and Chris Murphy are bright lights for us in a dark time.
All of you here who keep us focused on our mission in this lifetime, you are a bright light and are operating at such a high level of enlightment, pulling us all up. I can wrap myself up in your words, and the thoughts you extend to us. Like a life preserver for the soul. The blessings offered and the steadfast vision of a more peaceful world as Jeanne promised are helpful.
I am really struggling today.
My child blew off my birthday yesterday. So far, radio silence. Not holding out much hope for any connection or acknowledgment. I see no way forward for us. It hurts.
America is wounded and I am feeling it as an empath. It hurts.
As I work to avoid spiraling down into Depression, I am struggling to keep the joy intact, and in mind. As I grieve for so many things and people lost including our friend Coyote, I hope to not lose faith.
I feel like the dark water is an apt metaphor for the onslaught of darkness of these tumultous times. Waves of trauma. Murky waters, can't see the ocean floor.
@ghandigirl Happy Belated Birthday!! Hugs and warm Love,Light and Hope to wrap yourself up in.
I know that pain you are feeling. I have tied a knot in the end of our ropes... so ... hang in there!!!
Too many times we are shamed for hurts, for our feelings.... let no one ever deny you the autonomy that it is ok to feel your feelings and experience them the way you do and that your pain is real. Although I am sad for the hurt you feel I understand it is part of what is yours to do while you are "Here" rather than "Home"
Know that as you work through it you clarify the Pathway for others to succeed and overcome it as well. Holding space for you and sending you a birthday gift of some of my Faith.
I keep this written on a piece of paper that I framed and hung to see everyday as quoted by John Lennon "Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end."
A great comfort to me. I hope it is to you also
Fernando Sabino - a brazilian writer (although it is often wrongfully attributed to another Brazillian writer Paulo Coelho) - originally in Portuguese: "No fim, tudo dá certo. Se não deu, ainda não chegou ao fim.” -> translated: “In the end, everything will be ok. If it's not ok, it's not yet the end."
@ghandigirl Sending Happy Birthday love to you. And sending in the ethers a perfect birthday cake, gluten free if that is your preference, beautifully frosted (chocolate? or almond cream perhaps?), with little glowing candles. And happy birthday wishes written for you on your cake, in cursive with flowers in your favorite color.
I am imagining you stepping back just a bit from that dark murky water, back onto the shore with its sparkling shells or stones, and looking up to know that the sun is still shining, even behind clouds, and that our Moon is there too. Sister Rain will continue to fall, somewhere, the rivers will flow somewhere, somewhere the Sea is blue.
And what JourneyWithMe2 quoted: “In the end, everything will be ok. If it's not ok, it's not yet the end."
Thank you both for your kind worrds.
I received a new sparkly beach ornament for my birthday for our beach themed bathroom. I think you picked up on that. Also my love of cake. :)
Unfortunately I am now sick and congested from days of extreme upsetness. To let go has been painful. I took a Covid test. I don't have it
I am losing my voice which happens when I don't feel heard. I dreamed about it before it happened.. Nursing myself back to health.
I am asking for prayers.
In 2 weeks my oldest daughter is getting married. She flies out to our house on Tuesday.
My youngest daughter was working in L.A. for the last week and came home today. She lives with us. On her drive back home, she felt a bit "off" and we agreed she should take an at home covid test as soon as she came home even though her symptoms were mostly allergy like with itchy. She is a mask wearer and very careful.
So she entered the house masked and took her test and waited out in the back yard for the results.
She was positive.
I have been worried for a few weeks about covid hitting our family before the wedding.
Damn psychic intuition! Though the "damn psychic intuition" told me to have her take the test and it has been preparing me for this possibility so I am not totally thrown right now.
My youngest is now at a hotel tonight and tomorrow. She drove herself and is feeling pretty good all things considered, and has a fridge and microwave. Our exposure was very low though anything could happened. I made her chicken soup and my husband delivered it to her tonight.
But, I am not sure what we will do after these 2 nights. Not sure where my daughter the bride will go when she arrives and I just pray we can all be at the wedding and be healthy.
My youngest should be fine by the time the wedding gets here. But I have no idea what our plan will be as this unfolds.
If you can please send prayers for our health and safety it would be appreciated. I don't want to miss my daughter's wedding. I can't imagine missing her wedding. I can't imagine being separated from her in the days leading up to the wedding either. I haven't seen her in a few months and there are things, important things left to do together before the wedding.
She's a teacher, it's been a difficult and emotional week and it just got a lot more complicated.
Thanks!
Sending prayers for all of your good health and that all of you enjoy this happy time as you should.
For what it's worth, as I read your post I had an overwhelming sense of 'it will all work out.' May it be so!
@lovendures My heart goes out to you, Lovendures. This is such a special and important time for your family. Sending prayers, and asking the angels to walk with your family at this time. Blessings to you and yours……