May your insurance company do the right thing. May you be able to have this procedure soon and may it provide you peace of mind. May you feel calm and at ease. May a host of angels watch over you and may everything you are going through be for the highest and greatest good. May there be positive and productive communication between all [arties involved so that you can move forward in a positive manner.
Thinking of you my friend. Thank you for sharing about the beautiful angel shells and that incredible continued connection you and your daughter share. I will be keeping you in my prayers this month. May Monica and our many angels helpers continue to nurture and guide you and all who may need some extra help right now.
@Jeanne-Mayell @sistermoon. Okay, I give. Yesterday was such a very bad, horrible news day that I am depressed. Maybe you two were having intuition about all these bad events continuing to unfold. Cosby has been released from prison on a shady technicality which was never even put in writing? Britney Spears is not set from from her father controlling her adult life? Now the Supreme Court allows shady money in elections?
Well, Rumsfeld died. There’s that. And the Trump Organization and CFO have been indicted. There’s that, too. And Pelosi is staffing the 1/6 Insurrection commission. Maybe there’s hope after all.
@bluebelle The emotional rollercoaster is exhausting. Holding on to hope and positive predictions and affirmations amid the horrid news of the day. I keep repeating that this is their last stand against truth & real justice. Calling all angels to surround you and all of us in loving healing light.
Just a quick note to let you all know that my mom's procedure went well and didn't take nearly as long as she was expecting. Now we just have to wait for the final biopsy report, so please keep prayers and thoughts coming. Thanks, everyone. :-)
@jeanne-mayell I could not get back into the forum for a couple weeks. I could not remember my password, and I did not receive an e-mail from the password reset prompt. I had tried about 5x and finally got a password reset this morning.
Thank you for the story of your experience. I have practiced your process a little bit but I am not truley ready to "let go". I recently had a dream/visitation from my Mom and she said something amazing. It really uplifted me. However, it is not the same as our everyday human experience of having her with me and being able to have a "normal conversation". Because of her illness we were not able to have normal healthy conversations at the end, and I feel that the loss/lack of communication hinders my moving on.
I have to say that I still can't believe that it is real that she is gone. I have felt her presence but it is always quick. Sometimes I am not sure when it is my imagination/wish or when it is a real visitation.
Losing the closest person on earth to us is really a major life adjustment in many ways.
Thanks to everyone for your support. I really appreciate it.
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@jov Thank you for getting back to us. I hear you, and wish I could take away your suffering. Grief is so painful, and yes at times unbearable. And it comes in waves too. Sometimes overwhelming, and sometimes a little respite. Then it's back and just when you thought you were feeling better. I promise you that it abates over time, but when it's the closest person in the world who you've lost, it is very hard. Sending angels to your side.
A quick update, and a thank you. My mom got her test results back, and the surgery was successful. There was no indication that any cancer cells remained in the area they worked on, so they're fairly certain they got it all, mainly because it was detected so early.
There will be followups for the next year or so, but it does seem that everything is clear for her. Thank to everyone for your support, prayers, and healing energy. :-)
Cindy, as you anticipated, articles about the 25th anniversary of flight 800 are beginning to appear in the news.
I am thinking of you and sending you lots of love as I know it is a difficult time leading up to the 17th. We all care about you, your son and all the families who are marking this terribly painful time. May you feel Monica's love and support every day.
You have been an incredibly bright shinning light over the past 25 years. You are brave, strong and have made important impacts for family care after flight accidents. You have helped many dealing with losses which have a media spotlight attached to them.
You have also kept a beautiful connection to Monica who guides you and her brother.
May Monica's memory be a warm and joyful blessing for you and may you continue to feel an active connection with her.
Hugs to you my friend. You are in our hearts.
@lovendures , thank you friend. I knew the news would start up at this time of year. Coverage of major anniversaries varies, depending on what else is going on in the world. In slow years, we would get more coverage, and conversely-someone elses misfortune would reduce our coverage. I've learned not to hope one way or the other as it will never be a win win situation. I do think after this year, it will die down.
Jim Kallstrom (FBI agent in charge of the criminal investigation) just passed earlier this week, and they announced just recently that they will be retiring & destroying the reconstruction, so there were additional issues that added to the news cycle. I've kept in touch with the NTSB over the years, so I was fortunate in getting a heads up last week that additional images of the reconstruction would be distributed prior to their release. I've walked the reconstruction twice, & was relieved they did not release any interior shots-the exterior views are bad enough for the families who have never seen it in person.
Just the time of year & it being a big anniversary have things closer to the surface for me. Things I did in the aftermath that were put out in the public are only a fraction of the story-it was a rough road. But I made the trek, and like some survivors before me, I try to pay it foreward.
Monica has been around lately, giving signs & in my dreams. She's been playful, not somber. I had a sage visit my dreams a few weeks back as well, who commented on my strong connection to both my kids & said those connections would grow exponentially in the near future. She said the same thing about my intuition & connection to the other side in general. Guess that explains the start of things like the weather related dreams.
I truly appreciate the love & support. This year, like most (weather permitting) I'll be walking the beach around sunset (the time of the crash). Hugs...
I hope this is not insensitive to bring this up, after Cindy's post and the loss of her daughter, but I am in a lot of sadness and pain over my child. I was mentally ill her whole life and didn't know it until two years ago. I made so many mistakes, and I think she feels like I left HER, not just her father. If I were to tell her what really happened she might turn her back on him too, and that wouldn't be good for anybody. I have been forgiving of me ex, and even though we are friendly, my child is still holding on to resentment. As it is, I can't talk about my boyfriend at all, she has prejudged him. Although I am now an excellent baker, she mocked my efforts recently. She has learned to be this way with me from him, belittling, and not appreciating me. It is a never ending cycle of disappointment.
This estrangement is very difficult. I am afraid to remarry because I feel I will truly lose all communication, even more than now. I feel a little guilty being so damn happy now, and feel embarrassed because I have already married three times, the last relationship lasting 25 years in all, and 22 married with my child's father. I am in my fifties so almost half my life was with them.I wanted to leave years ago but she wouldn't leave her father so I stayed because I could not be without her. But I feel I have lost her anyway. It is the worst feeling, and I honestly don't know what else I can do except love her from a distance.
I really need something good to happen. I have given my love for her to the angels. I have asked G-d to help. I find it is difficult to be really fully happy knowing she doesn't much want to spend time with me.
If anyone has any insight, psychic or otherwise I would truly appreciate it.
My best advise is to continue to keep the door open. Continue to send her love. Be available t be receptive when she does walk through.
It is important to find other ways to additionally share your love. Animals, volunteering, mentoring, taking up a cause or supporting an existing one, food bank helper, helping with a drive to collect school supplies. Perhaps you can find a cause which your daughter likes and you can volunteer together. Join a group which does volunteer projects on a regular basis. I bet you can find one in your area.
Helping others on a regular basis is an excellent way to move forward in a positive direction.
@ghandigirl I feel for you deeply. I am estranged from my adult daughter too. I know that my two divorces and my intense personality both hurt her deeply. Her biological father rejected any involvement with her while she was growing up, but came back into her life after she was out of college. His explanation to her for his absence and neglect (He asked my second husband to adopt her and paid all of the expenses for it in order to get out from under child support payments.) was to tell her that I refused to allow him visitation which was a total lie. This is at the heart of her anger. I offered to go into therapy to resolve issues, I accepted a list of "boundaries" that she created only to violate herself, I sent her loving messages, etc. In other words, I did everything I could including telling her that my door was always open to her and that I would always love her. After two years of no communication, I tried again last month and suggested that we not try to resolve past conflicts, but simply go forward in a simple, social way. I received a terse NO. Oddly enough, this brought me peace. I knew that there was nothing more I could do and that I had tried everything for, perhaps, far too long. There's a way in which someone who refuses to reconcile controls and manipulates us as we teeter on the brink trying not to fall over. I decided not to engage anymore. I told her that I wouldn't bother her again, but that my door remains open. Her brother, fortunately, supports me and said, "You've done all you can do." I don't know if you can get to that place of surrender, I can only tell you that if you can forgive yourself for your mistakes, if you know you've tried everything, etc, and believe that reconciliation can occur beyond this lifetime, then I hope you will find peace and comfort. The real conundrum in my struggle with her is the fact that she's a Christian missionary. I counted on her practicing her faith somewhere in all of this, but it was misplaced trust--she even ridiculed me because of my own devotion to my faith. As Lovendures suggests, finding something else to focus on helps--especially things that help others. Just know that you are not alone. We all struggle with something. Sending peace and love.
Wanted to add a request for prayers/healing/light to Mallory - the daughter of distant relative who is a young woman in her 20s. Went in to have an infected gallbladder removed and something went awry and her lungs are now badly infected (they are not sure of the cause.) She has held steady the last couple of days in the ICU (she has been in there for over a week), but they are still trying to figure out how best to help her recover. Thank you!
There's a way in which someone who refuses to reconcile controls and manipulates us as we teeter on the brink trying not to fall over.
@seeker4 So powerful, your words, and your whole post. I agree that there is a way that a person's refusal to reconcile with another is a way to control the other person. And your statement got me thinking that it is also a way to control herself. She's blocked out her own conflicted, confused, and painful childhood, as a way to fool herself into thinking she achieved control over those feelings. She doesn't yet have the strength to untangle the truth and see that in the end, it's a complex web of forces that caused her pain, not you, and possibly not even him.
Put another way, when someone has suffered, staying angry at someone gives them the illusion of control over that suffering.
In the case of your daughter, she finally got to have her father who had abandoned her all those years. But she still suffers from the pain of growing up feeling rejected by him. So she's created a story that he never really rejected her, because it was you who caused him to stay away.
We fabricate these myths when we refuse to forgive someone for the pain we endured.
It comes down to forgiveness. If we can't forgive someone, then we have refused to accept a world in which bad stuff happens to us and others.
What if it's no one's fault (and everyone's fault)? What if people are frail and traumatized and harm others because of what happened to them? What if we could understand all the forces that work upon a person that cause them to harm another?
Your daughter can't accept those forces in him, in you, in her, and in this world that have caused her pain. So to feel control and make it simple, she conveniently pins it all on you. But in her actions, she commits a terrible act of harm upon you.
It sounds like you are able to stop the cycle of unforgiveness by forgiving her, understanding her frailty, loving yourself, and yes, by keeping the door open.
@ghandigirl, I pray for you to find peace in this too. And thank you for reaching out. It takes courage to lay it out for us here. I hope it has helped you. I know you have helped us.
Adding a prayers and light request for my best friend's mother, who was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer a month ago and has yet to begin chemo b/c her insurance won't approve the treatment. Despicable. She is in pain and the insurance holdup is really detrimental to her spirits.
Thank you all ❤️
Prayers,Light and Love to the Highest Good for All concerned here on this thread requesting prayers, both spoken and unspoken. ❤️