I am keeping you and your father in my prayers. I realize this is a difficult time for you and if there is something specific we can do for you please let us know. Sending lots of love and surrounding you both with light in the meantime.
I am looking for silver linings. Beto O'Rourke and Chris Murphy are bright lights for us in a dark time.
All of you here who keep us focused on our mission in this lifetime, you are a bright light and are operating at such a high level of enlightment, pulling us all up. I can wrap myself up in your words, and the thoughts you extend to us. Like a life preserver for the soul. The blessings offered and the steadfast vision of a more peaceful world as Jeanne promised are helpful.
I am really struggling today.
My child blew off my birthday yesterday. So far, radio silence. Not holding out much hope for any connection or acknowledgment. I see no way forward for us. It hurts.
America is wounded and I am feeling it as an empath. It hurts.
As I work to avoid spiraling down into Depression, I am struggling to keep the joy intact, and in mind. As I grieve for so many things and people lost including our friend Coyote, I hope to not lose faith.
I feel like the dark water is an apt metaphor for the onslaught of darkness of these tumultous times. Waves of trauma. Murky waters, can't see the ocean floor.
@ghandigirl Happy Belated Birthday!! Hugs and warm Love,Light and Hope to wrap yourself up in.
I know that pain you are feeling. I have tied a knot in the end of our ropes... so ... hang in there!!!
Too many times we are shamed for hurts, for our feelings.... let no one ever deny you the autonomy that it is ok to feel your feelings and experience them the way you do and that your pain is real. Although I am sad for the hurt you feel I understand it is part of what is yours to do while you are "Here" rather than "Home"
Know that as you work through it you clarify the Pathway for others to succeed and overcome it as well. Holding space for you and sending you a birthday gift of some of my Faith.
I keep this written on a piece of paper that I framed and hung to see everyday as quoted by John Lennon "Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end."
A great comfort to me. I hope it is to you also
Fernando Sabino - a brazilian writer (although it is often wrongfully attributed to another Brazillian writer Paulo Coelho) - originally in Portuguese: "No fim, tudo dá certo. Se não deu, ainda não chegou ao fim.” -> translated: “In the end, everything will be ok. If it's not ok, it's not yet the end."
@ghandigirl Sending Happy Birthday love to you. And sending in the ethers a perfect birthday cake, gluten free if that is your preference, beautifully frosted (chocolate? or almond cream perhaps?), with little glowing candles. And happy birthday wishes written for you on your cake, in cursive with flowers in your favorite color.
I am imagining you stepping back just a bit from that dark murky water, back onto the shore with its sparkling shells or stones, and looking up to know that the sun is still shining, even behind clouds, and that our Moon is there too. Sister Rain will continue to fall, somewhere, the rivers will flow somewhere, somewhere the Sea is blue.
And what JourneyWithMe2 quoted: “In the end, everything will be ok. If it's not ok, it's not yet the end."
Thank you both for your kind worrds.
I received a new sparkly beach ornament for my birthday for our beach themed bathroom. I think you picked up on that. Also my love of cake. :)
Unfortunately I am now sick and congested from days of extreme upsetness. To let go has been painful. I took a Covid test. I don't have it
I am losing my voice which happens when I don't feel heard. I dreamed about it before it happened.. Nursing myself back to health.
I am asking for prayers.
In 2 weeks my oldest daughter is getting married. She flies out to our house on Tuesday.
My youngest daughter was working in L.A. for the last week and came home today. She lives with us. On her drive back home, she felt a bit "off" and we agreed she should take an at home covid test as soon as she came home even though her symptoms were mostly allergy like with itchy. She is a mask wearer and very careful.
So she entered the house masked and took her test and waited out in the back yard for the results.
She was positive.
I have been worried for a few weeks about covid hitting our family before the wedding.
Damn psychic intuition! Though the "damn psychic intuition" told me to have her take the test and it has been preparing me for this possibility so I am not totally thrown right now.
My youngest is now at a hotel tonight and tomorrow. She drove herself and is feeling pretty good all things considered, and has a fridge and microwave. Our exposure was very low though anything could happened. I made her chicken soup and my husband delivered it to her tonight.
But, I am not sure what we will do after these 2 nights. Not sure where my daughter the bride will go when she arrives and I just pray we can all be at the wedding and be healthy.
My youngest should be fine by the time the wedding gets here. But I have no idea what our plan will be as this unfolds.
If you can please send prayers for our health and safety it would be appreciated. I don't want to miss my daughter's wedding. I can't imagine missing her wedding. I can't imagine being separated from her in the days leading up to the wedding either. I haven't seen her in a few months and there are things, important things left to do together before the wedding.
She's a teacher, it's been a difficult and emotional week and it just got a lot more complicated.
Thanks!
Sending prayers for all of your good health and that all of you enjoy this happy time as you should.
For what it's worth, as I read your post I had an overwhelming sense of 'it will all work out.' May it be so!
@lovendures My heart goes out to you, Lovendures. This is such a special and important time for your family. Sending prayers, and asking the angels to walk with your family at this time. Blessings to you and yours……
@lovendures I’m sorry you all are going through this right now. Pre wedding stress that’s not needed. Can you ask about the therapeutic meds they have now? It can help your daughter. We all are sending you protection, light and healing prayers. I’m praying everything falls into place. 🙏🏼 I want to extend blessings and joy to the newlyweds to be. And for the entire family. Such a happy event. All will be well.
@lovendures Sending you love, light, good energy and prayers for a happy and healthy wedding/reunion for your family, for all to be well and for you to have every opportunity to be with your daughter and prepare for her wedding. Love to your youngest that she will recover quickly. Love and calm to you and to the whole family. xoxo
@lovendures Calling in AA Raphael to attend to your youngest daughter and her swift recovery as well as strengthening and supporting the health of all involved ❤️
Knowing how important and much needed this gathering and celebration of Love and family is at this time... I pray for the Highest Good for all concerned. That all enjoy the supportive love and re connection inherent in such gatherings.
I am holding a vision of Celebration, Health and Happiness in for all you and ask that AA Michael protect your Joy, Love and Connection.
@lovendures-friend, all will be well. What I saw as I read was like a game of musical chairs, only with rooms & suitcases being dragged behind. It wasn't fraught or tense, there were smiles on faces- like it becomes almost comical or game like. One of those things that are a pain in the backside at the moment, but looked back on with humor.
Dad is still in the hospital. We are hoping to get him into rehab today, but being a holiday weekend, there are questions if it will happen. We're in the neuro step down unit this time, instead of the cardiac step down. It's been a rough 2 weeks, and this trip has been hard ( not that last week's was a joyride). Dad was dianosed with a rare syndrome/complication of his Parkinsons called Multi System Atrophy (MSA) this trip. We've seen some mental decline in the last few months, but it's like he went off a cliff in the past 2 weeks, on top of the other issues. He was totally unresponsive for a day when we brought him in by ambulance-tho all tests & scans showed no issues-caused by his rare syndrome that can sometimes randomly shutdown any system or cause it to go haywire.
Yesterday dad was told he must use a wheelchair going forward. But once the neurologist left, in a moment of greater clarity, dad told me he knows he's at his end. He didn't quantify, but he intimated his time is very short. Between my dreams, intuition, the cards, & the fact he's been seeing my deceased mom & sister, I've been expecting this. The discussions yesterday were difficult, but I could explain why he was seeing his loved ones, and give him my support for his transition. I will be surprised if he doesn't transition by mid summer.
During my mother's end days with Lewy body, I knew there were times she delivered messages from spirit, and such was the case yesterday. Dad looked at me, told me I always approached things coming from a place of expecting good. I know that wasn't dad, but I'm not totally sure I've gleaned the intended meaning (so any interpretation or insight is welcome).
I left for home a little earlier than normal yesterday, as I had held everything in & I was tired. As i walked into the house thru the laundry room from the garage as usual- this was my first sight. That is a silk tulip from an arrangement that used to be in Monica's room, but is currently residing on the laundry room shelf BEHIND the soaps & detergents.
We've all had difficulty times recently. So please remember to look for the signs of your loved ones & your guides. They are with us all the time.
I am sorry you are having to deal with this COVID situation so close to your daughter's wedding. I have to say, though, that I agree with @cindy and her read on it. A lot of logistical back and forth that you will look on later with humor (though not so much now!) All will be well. Sending healing energy, patience and calm for you all!
@cindy Thank you for the reminder to look for the signs. I pray for peace and calm for you as well, as you walk with your father on his journey.
@sistermoon @cindy @journeywithme2 @babsellen @febbby23 @lynnventura @cc21
Thank you all so much. Your words and messages are so heartfelt and beautiful to receive. I feel blessed and fortunate to come here and be lifted up so lovingly.
Last night was a whirl wind. Trying to figure out our next move in the Wedding Covid Gambit Chess Game which we are playing is a very weird and unwanted place to find ourselves right now.
What I saw as I read was like a game of musical chairs, only with rooms & suitcases being dragged behind. It wasn't fraught or tense, there were smiles on faces- like it becomes almost comical or game like. One of those things that are a pain in the backside at the moment, but looked back on with humor.
Cindy and cc21, this is very much what has happened even today. We found a different hotel for Megan today and had her pack her bags and move to the new one which still has everything she needs for and extended stay ( mainly and microwave and mini fridge) but is more affordable and still near us. An additional plus is she has a corner room with a double window so her covid prison will be lighter and have a decent view. That was a nice surprise.
She feels mostly ok, just minor cold symptoms right now, and she has all the wedding centerpiece craft items with her to create the centerpieces she was going to create at home this week.
I do hope we will laugh at all this in the future. We are trying to find some lightness in all of this. One thing she said was how lucky she was that her car was already mostly packed from her trip to Los Angeles. She only needed new clothes. She even had her guitar with her.
And so the wait begins.
During my mother's end days with Lewy body, I knew there were times she delivered messages from spirit, and such was the case yesterday. Dad looked at me, told me I always approached things coming from a place of expecting good. I know that wasn't dad, but I'm not totally sure I've gleaned the intended meaning (so any interpretation or insight is welcome).
What incredible experiences you have had with each of your parents. I don't exactly know what the message was trying to convey but I have always noticed that even in dark. moments, you find light and bring it forward. You are able to offer others hope, solutions, information, support and perspective. Your experiences are a wealth of knowledge to others and your willingness to share Monica with us is life transforming. I know you well enough to say you find good. You find light in dark circumstances and I guess to find the good, you must expect that there is good somewhere to discover. You discover it coming from every situation you face. Every situation any of us faces.
Perhaps that is what the message means. You expect that there is good and so you find it and bring the light forward.
May this continued journey be a blessing for you Cindy. I know you will see the good somewhere each day. Just like the flower on the washing machine. You noticed because you are open to the good and light to reach you.
@cindy About six weeks before my stepfather passed, he had a moment of lucidity, too. It never occurred to me that his words could be messages from spirit. My stepfather was fully aware that he would soon pass from this life. He called it “passing through to Mother,” and I believe he sensed that his mother was nearby. My stepfather was full of gratitude for his life, for living to be so old (94 years). He said it was a privilege. I never thought of old age in those terms before, considering how challenging the last years of life can be. Yet, my stepfather had a sense of joy and appreciation. Now I have to look at that extraordinary moment in a different light, that spirit was involved. Thank you.
I know this is a difficult time for you, you who have endured so many difficult times. I am sending you love and peace of mind. Take care, my friend.
On Memorial Day, we honor the memory of those who made the ultimate sacrifice for our country, and pray for their families—who still love and grieve for them. May God bless our fallen heroes and all who serve.
~Barack Obama
I will not let the right hijack what it means to fly the American flag on Memorial Day. Our flag is flying and will come out again for the 4th of July and Veterans Day.
@ghandigirl Cake came in pretty strong. I love it too. And I hope you are recovering well and feeling better.