I had to laugh out loud when I realized the joke was on me for announcing something that I wasn't aware had been canceled.
You know I hardly ever miss Circle of Light though I am an all but invisible phone in person.
Love you Jeanne and the waiting in an empty waiting room and having my own private and lovely goodbye complete with a party hat as "Coyote the great Trickster" played his flute for performance for an audience of one.
Then I heard the plaintive strings of a violin as my own heartstrings repeated the sweet tones along with his.
Nothing was wasted or lonely or left out but exactly as it should have been. It was filled with laughter as well as a sweet tear or two.
In my life going with the flow has always been just that!
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You heard violin strings? FYI: Coyote played the violin.
Isn't that just the best?
Music must have filled his life with such joy! He was truly a "Jack of all Trades" and interests. A full life, a challenging life, but still filled with wonderful opportunities and joy.
My violins and @lovendures beautiful musical vision!
Love it!
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My heart is soaring. I know how intense ECMO can be and aa tricky as it can be during coming off if, it can so worry and be of intense concern for loved ones.
Feeling grateful and knowing love and prayers and sharing of energetic gifts are still needed for recovery,, those all shall be as requested and so given.
Peace and rest and healing for all and benefits to you as well for your beautiful dear caring heart
Hi, an update on my sister. We managed to always have a family member with her each day while in hospital and yesterday (Friday) her daughter and husband took her on the 1000 kilometre trip home. Rental car down to the city for the airport. A staff member kindly drove them to the airport rather than risking their shuttle service where a woman was waiting with a wheelchair to get her into the terminal and eventually onto the plane. People were very kind. Then the 90 minute car trip home, a very big day and a terrifying one for her. She is safely home and slept well in her own bed and can now continue healing amongst family.
Regards to all
Excellent news Matildagirl. SO happy to hear she is home and the trip back was a safe one. May she continue to recover and be in good health soon.
Dad may possibly get out of the hospital tomorrow ( even tho I still have concerns things may go downhill). So this morning, as I was getting ready for the day, I wondered if I'd finally get the time, peace & quiet to put some helpful, hopeful words into an email to send to Coyote's parents via Jeanne. I felt that all too familiar nagging feeling of being a parent who's lost a child needing to reach out & help others facing the same anguishing journey. The thought popped into my head several times throughout the day at the hospital.
Imagine my shock & horror to get home & find the news that another school has faced such tragic loss.
I know everyone here will be shocked, heartbroken & dismayed like me at the news out of TX. I also know that all here will be sending prayers, light & love just like me. It's horrific we have to do so all too often. Please know that while it may not seem like you are doing much given the circumstances (don't we all feel so helpless at such times?), I can assure you from personal experience it does help those in the throes of such heartbreakingly devastating circumstances.
Thank you so much for your post! Thank you for every part of it from hearing about your father ( may he be able to be home) to a letter to Coyote's parents, to your intuition on losing a child and this shooting.
Your words are as always, a blessing and filled with love and light. Thank you!!!
I am broken.
I am listening to a broken president speak.
Also, just so we are crystal clear, Abbot, Cruz and Trump are supposed to address the NRA National convention in Houston in 72 hours.
There are so many dark thoughts flowing through my head regarding these 3 individuals and all politicians who support the NRA or other dark money causes.
This shooting took place on the edge of the Texas hill country. My daughter teaches in the Texas hill country.
I am so tired of this B*ll Sh*t.
It is believed he had an AR-15.
I have known way too may people personally who have been effected by mass shootings. I have documented them here with posts in our community forum. These are friends who have lost loved ones in mass shootings. And @cindy, you have offered much love to me and us all when these situations have occurred.
I understand the fear of a teacher who must figure out how to keep her class safe during a real live intruder situation on campus. 2 years before Columbine, I was reading a story to my kindergarteners when a parent burst through my classroom door demanding their child. They were likely on drugs, ranting, raving and angry. My students were on the rug during circle time. I did not know if the parent had a weapon but my mind raced trying to figure out how to protect them. The student was not present in my classroom at that moment ( I saw very glad they were elsewhere at that moment) and the only thing I could think time was to get the person out of my class, calmly. I told him in a strong voice that his child wasn't in the class and that if he wanted to remove them from school for the day, he needed to go to the office and they would locate the student for him. I had to repeat myself and calmly but strongly direct him to the office for assistance. As soon as he left I locked the door and phoned the office. My class and the kindergarten wing were isolated and not connected to other builds so he had to walk outside to get to the office.
This was before lockdowns and shooter drills. Though Columbine had not happened, there had been a few shootings in the past. We did have "code reds", just not drills, and I remember telling the office "code red".
On a side note, I also had to deal with a grenade that came to my the first grade class for show and tell. Not a joke. It wasn't live, but that was only determined after I had to evacuate my then first grade class and call the office to let them know.
Do reasonable republicans exist anymore????
This is preventable. We have the tools to stop mass shootings and certainly reduce them.
I have marched for gun reform with my children. Our entire nation needs to march. And be activists. It is not enough to say we want to do something. We MUST do something.
wow, @lovendures and @cindy - such beautiful, heartfelt posts from both of you. The news about Coyote hit me a lot harder than i expected. I often referred to him as my "brother", and even tho we have never met in person, it feels just like i did lose an actual brother. I guess that makes sense, because in reality, we ARE all brothers and sisters. But what doesn't make sense is WHY? Why? did he have to leave at such a young age, with so many important things left to accomplish here- all of the great books he would have written- all of the progress he was working on towards the Earth and her people. DAMMIT, WE NEEDED HIM! I don't get it. Can't wrap my head around it. Why is Jack Coyote gone, and yet people like these guys are still here:
Also, just so we are crystal clear, Abbot, Cruz and Trump are supposed to address the NRA National convention in Houston in 72 hours.
It makes me FLIPPING FURIOUS!
I wish my brother Coyote was here to explain it to me
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I love you my friend. You have been in my thoughts quite a lot over the past week. I know you are feeling Coyote's loss very strongly. I also know he is with you, he is not gone, just around in a different form. You know that already. I wish he were here to help put this all in perspective for you as well. I know he would speak specifically to you tonight. Perhaps he can speak to your heart in some way now.
The only words I have for you are these...you are loved. Deeply. You make this world a better place and you have a beautiful light which shines with warmth and kindness. You are filled with love Unk.
Loving is not for the faint of heart. Loving others allows us to feel and feeling can make us vulnerable. You are also empathic and so you feel the pain of all who are grieving. You are feeling the most raw of human emotions now.
I am grateful you feel Unk. I am grateful for your kindness and love and friendship. I am grateful you care.
I can't wait to celebrate when change finally does come. It will come. For some it will come like a gentle breeze. For others like a roaring hurricane. I will embrace it as a fresh cool rainstorm after a long hot drought.
Change is coming. Our nation will unstick itself and vote out the dark muddy water. We will move toward the light, we will draw back the curtains, throw open the window and let sweet crisp air blast out the stagnate putrid stench of evil. Good will prevail.
Good must prevail.
It will come. For some it will come like a gentle breeze. For others like a roaring hurricane. I will embrace it as a fresh cool rainstorm after a long hot drought.
Change is coming. Our nation will unstick itself and vote out the dark muddy water. We will move toward the light, we will draw back the curtains, throw open the window and let sweet crisp air blast out the stagnate putrid stench of evil. Good will prevail.
Good must prevail.
@lovendures Thank you so much for this. I *needed* to hear this -- that change is coming and that we will get unstuck from this dark, muddy water. Good must prevail.
@lovendures your beautiful message to @unkp helps all of us. I have been feeling numb about the shooting and the gun lobby. I hold on to what is beautiful right now. The trees, the spring time air and long hikes in the forest.
Someone mentioned going to a protest. Protest marches are uplifting and give us solidarity in person with people who feel as strongly as we do. If anyone out there can get to a protest, it is worth it. Make a sign and enjoy other peoples signs. So much love and even humor in those signs. They restore our faith in humanity to see the outpouring of love from others.
Yesterday @Share and others talked about the need for white light (zapping) in our world now. This morning Andrew said the same thing. The idea resonated yesterday and again this morning. We don't really know the potential power of our positive, life affirming energy, but why don't we join in spirit circle and ask higher powers to step in? We can send our own white light energy to the people in Uvalde, TX. We can send our white light to Congress and other elected officials. I feel very strongly that we are connected for more reasons than our friendship and love for one another. We not only bear witness to these atrocities in our country and the threats to our democracy, we are called to make a difference and we have a responsibility to act. We need to help turn out the vote and kick the corrupt politicians out of government. We need to encourage everyone to vote so that our numbers can not be defeated. We need to take back our country and pass laws to control guns and limit the influence of the NRA and other interests that would destroy our country.
@ghandigirl I feel your pain dear one... sending you Light,Love,Faith,Hope Energy. We have reached the end of our ropes and I am tying knots at a furious pace to keep hanging in there!!!!!
I am reminded of @Baba 's vision of dark muddy, water.. and the comments of others here about the dark,muddy water... I think back to slaves in the Deep South running through the dangerous dark muddy waters to freedom, I think on the Ukraine soldiers and families fighting and fleeing... I think of those affected by natural disasters ... like Katrina and the super tornado outbreaks - where we experienced the literal dark, muddy waters and destruction.
Tho it makes our skin crawl and our resolve quiver as we wade through it... know that we must, and.. know that we WILL make it out the Other Side.. reach out to each other.. hold each other's hands...help the one beside you walk further... hug, smile,be kind, do small acts of kindness every chance you get... yes... mourn, cry, scream and express your pain.. then move through it and hang on....we are here to bear witness, to act and to do. We can not do it.. without each other.
@lovendures thank you so much for your post. I love you too, my sister. And thanks for letting me know about the National Rifle Asshole meeting that is coming up- i live in Houston, and hadn't even heard about it. I now have 2 days to get my sign painted and ready for the protest, just like Jeanne said:
Someone mentioned going to a protest. Protest marches are uplifting and give us solidarity in person with people who feel as strongly as we do. If anyone out there can get to a protest, it is worth it. Make a sign and enjoy other peoples signs. So much love and even humor in those signs. They restore our faith in humanity to see the outpouring of love from others
Weirdly enough, yesterday, probably while the shooting was happening, i was at HISD to enroll my little nephew for next year's classes. He will be in the 2nd grade. Now i am wondering if he should even go? And if so, does he need a set of full-body armour? This country, and especially Texas, is beyond sick.
Lovendures, you said that you hoped i would get a message from Coyote last night. Well, i did find some things that he said- in my email, that i had copied and sent to myself awhile back. A message for all of us- and some links to his favorite musician, circa 2020:
“When we share our cause with others, allies appear; synergy occurs. And when we act for causes larger than ourselves, the larger community for whom we do this will be acting through us.” I already see this synergy happening all the time in this forum. We’re all lightworkers, sharing our causes of living through this profoundly draining period of transition. And we’ve kept each other going. Remember how frightening and scary things were 3 years ago? But this community has only continued to reach new heights.
You’ve all kept me going and helped me reach new heights. A lot had to happen just for me to end up in a new city at the precise date and time so that I was face-to-face with the 2 suffering strangers who unleashed my soul’s memory of why I came to this world, why I’ve kept trudging through so much sh*t. And I’m sure one of the active ingredients in that alchemy was the love and wisdom everyone on this site shares so freely. I’ve been deliriously happy all week, but last night, when the full realization of all of this mutual support hit home, my mood went to another level. I was laugh-crying, singing out loud, stomping my feet to the music coming from my speakers while I cooked dinner: Oh my God, I’ve made it, and so many people helped me. So THANK YOU, everyone: (this is where he listed us all by name.but when i posted it, it was gobbleygook) and so many, many more. I'll let Natalie Merchant express the rest of my gratitude:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LR6PV-Irv7s
It's 6 am here in the Dawnland (New England) without a cloud in the sky. Which means that in about 70 minutes, I will walk outside and greet Father Sun as he blesses a new day. I will ask for healing for myself and for the collective. Then, as I further absorb the first light, I will ask for help to send special healing energy to two strangers I may never see again, but who changed my life nonetheless.
Today, as I was basking in these renewed friendships, the palpably hopeful energy of 2020, and the unobstructed sunlight of a clear blue sky, 10,000 Maniacs' "These Are Days" has been on repeat in my mind. The message: despite the very visible darkness that still has sway in our world, the energy of renewal that has been germinating for the past several years is getting ready to sprout into full view as the days lengthen over the coming months.
So if spirit is calling on you to celebrate, don't be shy. Get up and spin like Natalie Merchant!
Natalie Merchant is a bonafide light worker, and 'Just Can't Last" epitomizes her compassion for people who are struggling through dark times.
Considering my age, I developed quite the retro love for the 10,000 Maniacs and Merchant's solo work when I was in high school (I like to confuse people my age when I tell them my first celebrity crush was on Natalie Merchant). It turns out her music found me just in time, because soon after that I started struggling through my succession of health crises, and it seemed like her lyrics were speaking directly to me. Now whenever I listen to her music, I'm always reminded of this community. Her song "Wonder" especially captures the spirits of everyone who has found a home here on this site:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCL3wQu_Fx4
I would like to add one more for him:
motherland by natalie merchant