@lovendures, thank you for sharing that incredible piece of music. It often brings me to tears. I could feel the sorrowful joy that you so beautifully described, as well as the magnificent ascension. Like you, I also found it synchronistic that Barber wrote Adagio when he was 26.
When I received the news that Coyote had passed on, I was caught in a whirlwind of emotions. But the more I focused on Coyote's presence, the more I was filled with a profound, quiet peace. I felt lightheaded, and in a real sense, healed by the power of it. I could feel the expansiveness of Coyote's breath. I could also feel his joy, which allowed me to feel joyful as well. It was infectious. I found myself smiling back at him.
Later that day as my thoughts returned to Coyote and I was again feeling a deep sadness, I turned on the radio and the Peter Gabriel song "Solsbury Hill” began playing. I immediately thought of Coyote, had goosebumps, and smiled. I love that song and find that in many ways, it exemplifies Coyote's life -- it's about struggle and endurance, and ultimately, wisdom, self trust and the courage to let go. Gabriel has a mystical and transformational experience on Solsbury Hill, as an eagle appears before him. "Son," he says, "grab your things, I've come to take you home." As the song continued to play, I envisioned Coyote being transported on the wings of an eagle -- slowly metamorphizing into that magnificent bird, as he soared across the sky.
I love and miss you, dear friend. I know we will meet again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zpePvu3A_UM
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/petergabriel/solsburyhill.html
Dearest Jeanne,
You are so right, I did indeed have a miraculous trance connection the day of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse with Coyote.
While it is called a Flower Moon (among half a dozen different names) and was a red moon, energetically it was a extraordinarily deep moon energy of enormous change and possibility that reads as a far deeper maroon verging on almost black blood moon color in feeling.
The veil between worlds was whisper thin that day. And as I am immensely sensitively reactive to earth changes and others energies as well they often not only have me taking in/taking on those energies. I was in a place of great imbalance and could barely function with the energies all day long. That forced me to bed where the deepest of energetic (I see them as angelic for my personal frame of reference) connection was triggered.
I realized that the candle I had going for Coyote had died and I felt so badly as I'd forgotten to keep thoughts and prayers going for him and had an immense drawing in to make amends with a meditative prayer. I lay down as is my meditation practice and was quickly brought to such a deep state as a result of the full moon energies and the intensity of a need to pray to his spirit from mine.
And in my minds eye energies I simply spoke from my heart to what I felt was his. That went on for a big long prayer like speech to him about his life, his mission and all he had accomplished with nothing missing or lacking or not achieved. It was simply deep channeled energies through me to his being or not being.
My heart to heart experience in this in-between world was so pure and so light and so deeply healing. I floated instead of dragging for the rest of the day. I only even realized later after coming here the next day and reading your post that whatever that amazing experience was it was happening then on his own amazing day of transition and change into limitless possibilities.
I did not at that time nor on that day know he actually passed but only that it was an experiencing of the process of transitioning on some other level and I believe in many others in this world and perhaps, who knows, other worlds as well.
Those of us who have always known deep inside we were different, meant to Iive in service for a greater good and who have had really challenging lives in both health of ourselves or those we love, become ready to grow and to learn and to transform ourselves and the people we come into contact with energetically, much more quickly.
It brought me incredible peace in so many ways and I knew my angels were surrounding each and everyone one of us in that place, that time beyond time.
Coyote and I personally only exchanged a very limited email connection once I learned his email address and contacted him online but he shared his full name with me long, long ago. I had previously read all of his posts here and always felt it was his Joanna Macy connection that brought him here to you.
You had brought her to all of us with your posts and I would occasionally look her up and read her beautiful passages and save them as I do quotations and poetry.
We all have many, many endearing and enduring connections as a result of all you have done and shared and created for us here, Jeanne.
You are always in my heart and the hearts of all of us here as will dear Coyote and his family and all who were touched by his brilliance in this world.
💜🕊💜
I love this poem, and felt guided to share it today with all of you:
When Great Trees Fall
by Maya Angelou
When great trees fall,
rocks on distant hills shudder,
lions hunker down
in tall grasses,
and even elephants
lumber after safety.
When great trees fall
in forests,
small things recoil into silence,
their senses
eroded beyond fear.
When great souls die,
the air around us becomes
light, rare, sterile.
We breathe, briefly.
Our eyes, briefly,
see with
a hurtful clarity.
Our memory, suddenly sharpened,
examines,
gnaws on kind words
unsaid,
promised walks
never taken.
Great souls die and
our reality, bound to
them, takes leave of us.
Our souls,
dependent upon their
nurture,
now shrink, wizened.
Our minds, formed
and informed by their
radiance,
fall away.
We are not so much maddened
as reduced to the unutterable ignorance
of dark, cold
caves.
And when great souls die,
after a period peace blooms,
slowly and always
irregularly. Spaces fill
with a kind of
soothing electric vibration.
Our senses, restored, never
to be the same, whisper to us.
They existed. They existed.
We can be. Be and be
better. For they existed.
Your post was absolutely beautiful. I am so grateful you shared it with us. It is also a joy to see your posts again Michele and to hear your wisdom. I have missed the spirit and love you bring to our forum dear friend. So happy you meditate with us in the Circle of Light.
I ran across this sign today that describes one sweet aspect of this Forum so I snapped a pic. From Mesa Verde. CO:
That brought a huge smile to my face and I am sure you were guided to discover the sign. Thank you for posting it for us. The past week has certainly been exactly what your sign said hasn't it?.
Dearest Jeanne!
This time last year our community had just survived the "Great Crash of 2021". To help off-set the expenses associated with fixing our beloved site, we decided to have a Birthday Celebration fundraise for your. We also asked our community members to write a note of appreciation for you Jeanne, so we could show you just how much your community has meant to each one of us. I thought about that birthday celebration and all of those beautiful messages written with such deep love and thoughtfulness today. And then I remembered Coyote had written a message to you Jeanne.
In reading his beautiful heartfelt words to you tonight, I knew I must share his message with you once again my friend, for they are a blessing which you will hold even more deeply now.
In honor of your Birthday Season, you will find Coyote's beautiful message to you sent EXACTLY a year ago, as well as a link to all the eloquent and heartfelt messages of appreciation from our grateful community members last year.
Happy Birthday Season Jeanne!
Written by Coyote:
I remember when I discovered this site in the final days of 2016 (before there was even a forum). I'd read the predictions and be incapable of imagining that the sun would continue to rise in 2019 and 2020, let alone 2018 and 2017. Yet here we are in 2021! I'm a more mature, thoughtful, and self-aware person now, and I have your efforts, @jeanne-mayell, to thank for that.
While I was lurking on the site for 2 years, I'd repeatedly ask my spirit guides to please lead me to the community of people I knew was out there who would help me understand what was happening in the world while also bringing joy to my life. I've only recently realized that they answered my prayers by leading me to this group of spiritual travelers. ?
https://www.jeannemayell.com/community/best-of-forum-posts/jeanne-appreciation-thread/
Quick request for a burst of prayer/light/healing for my friend's daughter who is going into surgery soon to try and help transition her off of ECMO. Things have been rough, so praying this will help and that the surgery goes well. Thank you, all!
I am so enjoying reading your beautiful posts about your experience with Coyote's transition, poems and more. What a beautiful connection and interaction he had with us here! It is such a gift to read about them. Thank you so much for sharing.
Sending prayers right now! May her doctors be guided toward the best path to help her, may she heal and become stronger, may her parents be held during this time with love, light and hope and may her doctors be held in love and light.
Blessings and gratitude to you dear cc21.
I have missed your beautiful energies and posts here.
I am so enjoying reading your beautiful posts about your experience with Coyote's transition, poems and more. What a beautiful connection and interaction he had with us here! It is such a gift to read about them. Thank you so much for sharing.
I am continuing to hold your friend's daughter close in my thoughts and my heart. There is nothing closer than the love of a mother for her child so I also keep the mother surrounded by loving waves as she surrounds her daughter with her own instinctive healing energies and you practice in all of your caring ways to be of service as the connection point with all of us. The beautiful essence of love with purpose in action is amazingly deep. Please keep in touch here and I will continue to check back for updates. Love love love to you all.
@michele-b Thank you so much. I have read that she is going to have the surgery to try to wean off of ECMO sometime this evening (eastern time.) I very much appreciate all of the love and good energy for her healing and recovery.
Dearest beloved forum members of our own unique tribe gathered here past, present, and future:
Besides our loss on this earth plane of our dear brother-friend, Coyote, there have been over 20 solar flares in the last week, on April 30th we were gifted with a new moon and a partial solar eclipse, and today it brings a gloriously full Super Moon and a Total lunar eclipse.
These are spectacular energies for all of us to be experiencing now and their effects on your individual energy systems will last for several weeks after they occur. May has been a very intense month on our earth's own vibrational field, personally, nationally, and internationally.
Today is also the day that Coyote begins his personal journey as others say their final goodbyes and we all send him our love, prayers and reaching out and releasing energies.
I am truly hoping that as many of you as possible will be sharing in our beautiful Circle of Light Meditation that Jeanne so beautifully and freely offers almost all Wednesdays over her registered Zoom account.
Please register if you haven't before but we always know that those who most need to be there shall be. The energies are so powerful and deeply restorative for mind, heart and spirit. 4 pm Pacific Time over to 4 p.m. Eastern or vice versa.
As we think of those we love and care about and those in need of healing energies during challenging times, we will also naturally be including our own dear @coyote.
This is such an incredible time for this farewell ceremony (of our very own if you will) with so much in our earth, sea, and sky joining in its own conjunction of bursting energies of shared expression.
Dear Coyote you have timed this all so beautifully and incredibly well. I cannot imagine a more powerful energy field as the one being offered to all of us in this world today to create the energies so desperately needed for transit to the new and more beautiful world we have all been dreaming of. It is a beginning of new awareness for our own need for acceptance of all on earth and all that happens as necessary parts of a longer term process of change and rebirth.
Many of us already see our dear Coyote fully free and joyous and even more brilliant in more ways than ever. May we all see that and feel that in ourselves as well.
We love you, Coyote!
May you soar freely surrounded by great love and eternal and sacred light of the highest of divine energies. And may all who miss you so deeply and dearly, forever feel your energies as part of themselves and their daily lives, as that holy essence lives on forever and ever
Amen to our dear brother and may it always be so!!!
@mhb
@mhb
Et Al
https://www.jeannemayell.com/community/postid/55133/
Truly beautiful and so very, very deeply true.
Love you dear woman!
When we receive intuitive insights or messages from spirit in the form of a personal memory, we pause and consider how that applies today. Knowing Coyote and his exploration of consciousness, his near death experience, his openness to thinking outside the norms of religious boundaries, I suspect he may have been ready to pass out of this existence and into one of spirit. I picture his eagerness to explore this transition and his joy in living past the suffering of his earthly body.
Coyote was very frank about his personal journey, his disease and his disability. I know he wanted to live and went through all these surgeries to prolong his life. At 27 years old, Coyote left a legacy of writing about consciousness, the environment and finding meaning in life. If you click on @Coyote, you will be taken to his member page. Then click on Activity and you will see his posts, nearly 46 pages of posts over the past few years. His writing was as rare and exquisite as he was.
From the poet Hafiz:
"I have come into this world to see this: all creatures hold hands as we pass through this miraculous existence we share on the way to even a greater being of soul, a being of just ecstatic light, forever entwined and at play with Him."
Coyote, you are that being of ecstatic light now.
I miss you Coyote. You touched a lot of lives during your brief time with us. As always, I am sending you love and deep peace. We will meet again, my friend.
@michele-b. Bless you for asking people to come to Circle of Light which has been held now every Wednesday almost without fail for2.5 years. Tonight and next Wednesday it will not be held due to me being on holiday. We will be back on June 1st!
I had to laugh out loud when I realized the joke was on me for announcing something that I wasn't aware had been canceled.
You know I hardly ever miss Circle of Light though I am an all but invisible phone in person.
Love you Jeanne and the waiting in an empty waiting room and having my own private and lovely goodbye complete with a party hat as "Coyote the great Trickster" played his flute for performance for an audience of one.
Then I heard the plaintive strings of a violin as my own heartstrings repeated the sweet tones along with his.
Nothing was wasted or lonely or left out but exactly as it should have been. It was filled with laughter as well as a sweet tear or two.
In my life going with the flow has always been just that!
💜🕊💜
I still cannot find the words to express the depth of my sadness over Coyote's passing. Considering I make my living by writing and editing, this is quite ironic. And yet I know that only his physical form has ended, as his eternal spirit continues on, having ended only the experiences of this lifetime. I know he will continue to do much good for us now that he is freed of his earthly bonds. May his family find peace in Coyote's great spirit.
Another quick update on my friend's daughter. She had surgery last night that was successful to get her off of ECMO and control bleeding, so that is a huge step in the right direction! I keep coming back to share good news since there is some (which is great!) and we need all the good news we can get. Another heartfelt thank you to all those who have been able to send healing energy and prayers for her.