Feeling misjudged is awful, especially because trying to clear up the misperception can sometimes be almost impossible. Sometimes you just have to allow incorrect opinions to be. You don't owe anyone explanations about who you are. People can judge harshly and those judgments can rattle us, but we can't allow ourselves to be manipulated by the thoughts and opinions of others. I know from experience though, that it is painful to have an image of you projected out there that isn't who you are. Again, sometimes letting it just be it the only thing you can do, as painful as that can be.
I'm not a healer, but for whatever its worth I am sending you all my good energy and love. Put one foot in front of the other. The skies will clear.
@anya, I feel your struggle and pray you will get relief from carrying such a heavy burden. I see you feel alone and abandoned. But you were able to reach out here and we are so glad you did. Maybe you can come to the next Circle of Light meditation on Wednesday at 7 pm EDT. We do a loving kindness meditation, as @lovendures mentioned to you earlier. Only we do it together which is more powerful. Whatever you do, I am sending you healing energy and a prayer that you will be released soon from the pain and heaviness you feel.
@lynnventura
sent a bit of reiki to the group. Hope all of us have less unnecessary drama this year, as 45 created plenty of stuff to clean.
I am currently in a small area where majority unmasked in many grocers and most restaurants and numbers are quite high. I as well as family at risk so quite difficult to face the selfishness and denial every single day. Many here fairly well off so ...as both a science as well as culture enthusiast am often mystified and uneasy.
Thank you. If stamina returns will give it a try. It’s somewhat like being abandoned, but different. Keep running into the same stuff and all I really want is my body to function well again.
Some md’s and some nurses here also acting in a bizarre fashion. Some I gather are tired but others are jumping on a rumor mill or something, unsure.
for what it’s worth-have a feeling love endures’ daughter will be ok.
@anya You are in a tough situation indeed. I'm lucky that where I live masking in everywhere, and not a big deal. I'm sorry you find yourself in a place where people are allowing ignorance to override even their own self-interests. I'll continue to hold you in my thoughts and in my heart.
I grew up in a very right-wing community and even as a child I was liberal/progressive. I remember the feeling of being completely out of place and misunderstood, and knowing that the folks I was surrounded by just didn't have a clue. Your situation involves your very health and existence, so it's much more serious. Take care of yourself as best you can and know that this community supports you. xoxo
@lovendures I will continue to lift Meredith and your entire family in prayer asking for complete recovery and the best outcome for all situations. Peace to you all.
Asking for prayers for VP Harris , urgently needed https://www.npr.org/2021/08/24/1030663913/kamala-harris-havana-syndrome-vietnam-delay-embassy
I popped on Facebook tonight for the first time in awhile. I was quite shocked to discover a friend had just posted a Facebook live video from the hospital. She has covid and currently has pretty poor oxygen readings, has difficulty breathing and has both Covid and bacterial pneumonia. ( I didn't realize there was a specific Covid pneumonia). She looks in pretty bad shape and she is scared.
It was shocking to actually see someone I know documenting their hospital Covid journey. Really shocking. I have known her through her first marriage, divorce, second marriage, daughter's wedding and birth of her grandchild. We have shared our family ups and downs.
I then went back to her first live video post from the hospital yesterday where she sounded pretty good and she was upbeat. What a difference a day makes.
Apparently she is one of five members of her family who have recently gotten covid over the past 10 days. This includes her grandchild who is a few months old. Her husband and son have not gotten it so far. She is in the worst shape of anyone else. She had covid in January with her husband, did not want a vaccination and still is ok with that decision. She stated she was still concerned about how it may have effected her in a negative way if she had it.
I haven't seen her since Covid began and we have different views on life and politics but we have respect for each other.
She mentioned she had spent the first few days of her hospital stay in the ER because they had no beds. It is the same ER my daughter was in on Sunday with her head trauma, they missed each other in that department by about a day. The difference is that my daughter spent her time in the hallway waiting for the CT scan and getting examined. Not sure if that was because there were no beds in the ER or if it was to keep her away from Covid as much as possible.
My daughter continues to improve and is in less pain than yesterday which is wonderful. I feel incredibly blessed by all of your concern, prayers and love sent our direction and I'm hopeful she'll continue to heal. I pray she remains Covid free. I am counting down the days on that one for sure.
Please keep Heather in your prayers. May she improve, win her covid battle and return to her family and grand baby. May everyone in her family find good health.
Thank you.
@lovendures Prayers ongoing for the Highest Good for all concerned. Hugs and Love and Support to you dear Lovendures.
Asking for prayers for my daughter who simply refuses to go to school. (she is not at the same school as my son where they had their first Covid case)
I don't want to get into the details.t We need understanding and guidance.
Her name is Emma Thank you
If you could, please send some light and energy to my community, especially the local school board. They are voting tomorrow night on whether or not to require masks in school, as if this is even a question!
As of now, there is NO planned covid strategy: no contract tracing, no reporting. It is mind-boggling.
Our local Department of Health gave them a formal smackdown earlier this week, so I believe they are reversing their stance on contract tracing and reporting, but I know that several members of the board are still opposed to masks and other mitigation efforts. It's going to be a close one.
I remain hopeful they will make the right decision -- but a little help from you good folks couldn't hurt, either ?
Thank you all
It boggles the mind!!!
There are the people we have in charge of the well being of our children...
There is a big old spotlight on the truth isn't there?
Lots of prayers they see the light.
I’m not sure if this is the right thread to post this, but here goes:
I’m pregnant, due on 1/1/2022, and work for the State in NY. My agency had been telecommuting full-time since March 2020, until a few months ago when we started bringing everyone back to the office with no mask or vaccine mandates in place, while Delta cases started going up. At the time, we were coming in one day a week, and I was concerned about potentially getting COVID due to my pregnancy. My OBGYN was supportive and wrote a letter in order to get me an accommodation to continue to work from home full-time for the duration of my pregnancy, for which I feel extremely fortunate, because now, as of 9/6/2021, all workers will be expected to return to the office, with no exceptions for COVID-related situations. Higher-ups have produced a telecommuting contract which allows up to 2 days a week to telecommute, but it’s so restrictive as to be prohibitive for most employees, and apparently I wouldn’t qualify in the first place. It is truly not safe for everyone to be returning to the office at this point in time, and our higher-ups are disregarding our health and safety in favor of pretending that this pandemic is over when it clearly isn’t. I believe we have all proven that we are capable of working from home and being just as efficient and even more productive than when we are in an office every day and don’t understand the reasoning behind dragging us all back in. It feels completely backwards, especially when considering that everyone will need to commute when we really need to be trying to make massive changes to combat climate change, including limiting time using cars/in traffic.
Anyway, (sorry this is running on and on), I’m protected by my reasonable accommodation for the duration of my pregnancy, but I can’t help but worry about my coworkers and their safety. I’m praying about it and hoping that the new governor may make a decision to have those of us who can work from home full time do so again, but I’m having trouble keeping faith/hope. I’m also having trouble shaking the anger and disappointment I feel towards our higher-ups who are placing us in danger for what appears to be no legitimate reason. I have my own personal concerns about having to return to the office full-time after the baby is born since it won’t be safe to put him in daycare at 9 weeks old, something that is weighing heavily on me and causing me a lot of anxiety, but for now I’m really just worried about all of my coworkers and others who are being placed in harms’ way for no good reason. I’d appreciate any prayers/protective thoughts on their behalf. :)
@nelysthealchemist First of all never apologize for post lengths. The number of manifestos I’ve posted here are countless. This is my favorite of all the online communities I’ve ever been a part of for their patience, grace, understanding, commiseration and most importantly - love.
Second - this is exactly the right thread for this. I’ll start us off by sending some protective energy your co-workers way, and some energy to find solace and routine in your continued work from home stint, as well as some added protection for you and baby Nelysthealhemist! (Maybe you’ll get the New Years Baby given your due date!)
This is a real and true issue. I’m back in the office and while I felt safe being in close proximity with my coworkers Tuesday and Yesterday (our first day back) because we’re all vaccinated and careful, as the work takes off we’ll be back to masking and keeping our distance whenever possible. This is the reality for everyone who is going back to work - your coworkers as well, and while knowledge that we’re all doing this right now isn’t a comfort, the fact that many of us will be sending a little extra light and protection to everyone who is out there dealing with this could be.
Have you looked into FMLA leave options for after 9 weeks (or when your sick time runs out - in Michigan I used sick time until it was exhausted when my daughters were first born as my wife had to return to work very soon after spending 4 months on bed rest and then had an FMLA leave approved with reduced but continued payment until the school year ended, but I don’t know if that was a program in the state, an employment benefit I didn’t know about, or a decision our school board/superintendent made - regrettably I never asked)
Light and love to you, your developing human light worker, and your colleagues.
EDIT: I will add, god willing we’re in a completely different place in March of 2022 when you’d be coming off maternity leave. Lord, make this so!
@nelysthealchemist Have you looked into FMLA leave options for after 9 weeks (or when your sick time runs out - in Michigan I used sick time until it was exhausted when my daughters were first born as my wife had to return to work very soon after spending 4 months on bed rest and then had an FMLA leave approved with reduced but continued payment until the school year ended, but I don’t know if that was a program in the state, an employment benefit I didn’t know about, or a decision our school board/superintendent made - regrettably I never asked)
Light and love to you, your developing human light worker, and your colleagues.
EDIT: I will add, god willing we’re in a completely different place in March of 2022 when you’d be coming off maternity leave. Lord, make this so!
@dannyboy- I sure hope so! I actually posted another rant in one of the other threads about my situation with “maternity leave” in the State. So, there is no disability or maternity leave of any kind because as a union-protected employee, there’s an employer exemption where the union can opt-out of offering those options and, of course, they’ve opted out. The only option available to me would be an unpaid FMLA leave, which we can’t afford. Ideally, I could finish my 6-8 weeks postpartum at home (during which I have to use all of my available time off), then work remotely until the baby is 6 months old and can get a shot (assuming COVID shots will be available for children 6 months old and up), but my agency won’t be allowing that apparently. I do have a history of depression/anxiety and had severe PPD/PPA with my first child so my OBGYN and therapist are preparing me for the likelihood of that happening again. They’ve already agreed to support a request for an accommodation to telecommute full-time after the baby is born based on my mental health history, etc, but I hate to play that card (even if it is legitimate). I’m just scared and feel like I have no viable options…