[Closed] Prayers and/or Energetic Healing Needed Part 3

Lots of people to continue to send light and love to.  If you have a little more to spare for me and my liver journey, tomorrow I'm headed to the transplant center for an ultrasound.  This is really the final test and makes my "I'm carrying K's liver baby to term for him." metaphor a little funnier.  Essentially they want to be as sure as they can be that my own liver is healthy enough to give to him and at that point if I'm good to go we're really just waiting on the weight loss.  Positive vibes welcomed.

And on the weight loss front, when I walked out of school last year on June 8th I was nearing a weight I swore I'd never get to again.  From that date I'm down 50 pounds.  When I was at the transplant center last mid-August they told me I needed to lose 50 from there.  I'm now halfway through that goal (SO 50 pounds since June, 20 since mid-August when they told me to lose about 50.  This is confusing but yes, I'm halfway there which would put my total weight loss since June 8 at 75 pounds when I make it to the transplant center's goal!)

I have gotten there through a combination of Keto, daily exercise (weights, HIIT, walking, biking, dancing and sometimes multiple of the above!) and the Feast/Fast philosophy.  Very few carbs touch my lips these days (though I have a wedding this weekend and will partake) but I will spend part of each week "feasting" which for this purpose essentially means filling up on low carb foods like cheese, lean meats, nuts, salads, etc. and then some days which are lighter, which always culminates with a fast at the end of each work week.  Sometimes it's just a 24 hour, sometimes it's a 48 hour, and once a month I try to do a 72 hour because of the research on autophagy and what happens to the body during an intentional long fast.  It's really, really working keeping my body consistent (with the Keto) but always guessing (with the feast/fast approach.). Hoping I can keep this going during the upcoming holiday eating season that starts in November :P.

Anyway - vibes as you can spare them - definitely for tomorrow but occasionally on the weight loss piece too.  I'm hopeful to be there by February (I'm giving myself grace for teh holidays) with a "fingers crossed" liver donation to K date of mid April.

Light and love friends!

@dannyboy All good things to you as you continue this journey! And way to go on the disciplined approach with the feast/fast and exercise. You are awesome! I am back to just the 16 hour fasting and making sure I don't eat too late in the evening. It is remarkable how the body adjusts once you get past the first week or so and things start shifting. I hope that your ultrasound shows a healthy "baby" and that things can proceed as planned. Sending lots of light and forward momentum to you!

@pat-czap I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband. Your description of weird so aptly describes that strange limbo when someone passes and it hasn't sunk in yet. I pray for peace, calm, and clarity as things shift with this transition. May you see/sense those wonderful little signs, that often come when you least expect it, showing you that your connection remains. Love to you.

@pat-czap, I am very sorry to hear of the passing of your husband.  May angels surround you with their amazing grace, comforting and healing your heart.   I am holding you in my prayers.

@dannyboy You are doing a hero's work here, With so much positive energy in trying to get your body ready for a selfless act of compassion.

@pat-czap I missed your post originally (I hate the end of a page), and in seeing your follow up, I want to add a noticing I had from when I lost my father.

The week someone passes you're busy - you're moving in a haze from thing to thing getting plans ready for the memorial, burial, etc. and it's a good busy because you're working on something - putting steps forward in an attempt to stay moving.

I felt like we were going to be okay by the day the funeral arrived.

Not so.  

The day after services the phone calls start to drop off, the visits with casseroles taper off and My mother, my brother, and I all found ourselves separately dealing with an unsettling silence.  That's where you'll find yourself thinking deeply and really coming to terms with things.  

Lean on friends.  

Go out for a vulnerable cup of coffee by yourself somewhere and just reflect.  

Write something either for yourself or for others to see.  

While it's silly, the book P.S. I Love You was a model for me after my father passed because while I didn't get a handwritten letter from him once a month for a year following his death, the overall message was to keep putting a foot in front of the others while ALSO dealing with the silence and the pain.  It's a good lesson, and I've already started preparing letters for my wife for after the liver surgery just in case.  

Feel the silence when it comes.  

Acknowledge it.  

Invite it in.  

Treat it like an old acquaintance, show it hospitality, and then tell it it's welcome to stay as long as it would like but you're going out for coffee.  You're going to sit by a lake and think.  You're going to dinner with a friend.  

For as long as you keep putting one step in front of another, Greg will take those steps with you from the spirit world.  Listen closely enough, and you'll hear and feel him!

Light and love my friend.  I'm sending you both.

@dannyboy, You've been in my prayers and I've been wondering how things are going.  Congratulations on working towards getting your body in shape for this journey you're undertaking.   Your commitment is remarkable -- as the saying goes, you are truly "walking the walk."  May your angels and guides always be by your side, ready to help with the heavy lifting.  

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow.  Lots of love to you.  

@tgraf66, how are you feeling today?  Have the muscle spasms lessened any?  I'm praying that your pain and discomfort subsides as you work towards finding a successful resolution.   

 I'm glad you'll be seeing a spine specialist on Monday.  Please let us know how it goes.  

@dannyboy What a wonderful message.  Lots of powerful points to ponder.  The notes you are preparing for your wife...priceless. I've seen this in a Hallmark movie 🙂.  I do feel like they will not be needed at that particular time of your lives. You still have much to do.

Thank you to all for the kinds words, they are much appreciated.