I am so very sorry to hear this news. This shooting (like all mass shootings) is so tragic. My heart bleeds for our youth.
May Alexandria be free and know she is loved. May her parents be held in love. May her friends beheld in love as well. May you find the words and actions to help heal her grieving family. Sending you love and prayers.
@november may her murder not be in vain. Asking that her family and friends are able to feel the love and support around them and that it sustains and helps heal them.
@november, this news deeply saddens me. I'm sending prayers of love, support and healing to Alexandria's friends and family. Also sending love and comfort to you.
@november my heart hurts for everyone especially her family. There are no words that are adequate enough. Please know of my prayers for healing and peace.
I did a meditation exercise yesterday and here is the message I received: Slow down. Breathe deep. Do not be afraid. There is something more. Don't doubt it.
Hello Friends,
Asking for your prayers and protections once again.
We are preparing to move again and my anxiety is high. Although I'd love to leave the state as some have (wisely) suggested and never look back, it's just not in the cards at least for now. So, I have to settle for a move further away from where I think the ex is. (He's been somewhat transient since the house sold, but suspect strongly he is lurking around the same area we used to live...) You'd think once the divorce was over (as it was beginning of this year) that he'd realize that the marriage was over, along with all the benefits that came with that.
But his oblivious entitlement caused him to become enraged just last week because he was no longer on my insurance, and two weeks before that because he was dropped from my cell phone plan, long overdue. He is permanently prohibited from any form of communication with me, even specifically via a proxy, but this is exactly what he did to deliver more of his thinly veiled threats that the courts will not take as such. As my lawyer said, I don't have any "evidence" because he hasn't "done" anything, and he has a right to be crazy. Courts are reactive, not proactive.... and I get that. But it all starts somewhere. Every murderer was not a murderer right up until the day he or she was, you know? The restraining order means nothing to him, and the courts will do nothing so my safety is my own responsibility.
That said, we are moving to a peaceful place away from the city. It's quiet and the neighbors know everyone there, which brings me comfort since strangers stick out like sore (unwanted) thumbs. Some neighbors have been there for nearly 40 years. The property itself comes equipped with security features you might not expect. And yes, I'm actually purchasing this property. It's been an ulcer inducing experience! I've had to go to great lengths to remain anonymous in this process, which isn't 100% possible in today's Snowden-was-right world, but I have done everything I can... I think... to remain hidden. But nothing can go wrong when we close Friday. I'm in the hands of people who are supposed to know what they are doing, and I'm in hyper mode about my information and where it is going. They all know my situation. Please pray for this to go well. While I know I've done what i can and feel that those efforts are pretty solid, it's out of my hands at some point and I have to trust the process.
My daughter and I are so ready to move on. I wish I could say it was finished with the ex but he seems determined to reinsert himself. He's maintained inappropriate relationships with memebers of my family designed to do just that. He occasionally tries to contact my daughter who never responds, but never with anything meaningful... either threats meant for me or links (likely to religious videos... she never clicks). He has his part of the settlement and could move on but is choosing not to, unfortunately.
We are so grateful for all the help, support, prayers and healing we've received from this group. Thank you all in advance for your kind responses and continued support!
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@jaidy - I am so sorry for what you are going through with your girls. I cannot imagine going through this mess if my daughter were small. It is shocking that the courts do not see the truth. There are some pretty bad judges and bad lawyers out there... but I also think that sometimes in the attempt to be "fair" to fathers they lean excessively in their direction. You did the right thing by advocating for your daughter. She will remember it. And her truth needs to be told. Abuse is far too common because we can't/don't speak of it. It's not acknowledged or believed. The only way to change that is to start to give the survivors a voice and for those voices, those millions of tiny voices to get louder in unison. I've found it hard to speak up myself because of those same reasons... I'd be looked at as crazy or not believed. And I got that from some people. But most didn't think that way. Keep speaking up until you find the right ears.
My heart goes out to you and your girls and I pray for your safety. I pray that your ex has healing from the abuse he endured so that the cycle ends.
You have been clever and strategic about this move which greatly enhances your safety. I will send protective energy to surround you and I will also picture your ex's focus shifting to other aspects of his new life.
Your new place feels good to me. I know you know this, but my own anxiety on your behalf prompts me to urge continued vigilance especially on any social media to avoid inadvertent references to your location.
May and your daughter you feel peaceful and safe in your new home. I just had that thought that you have spiritual protectors around you, for what that is worth.
@busy-smiling I am keeping you and your daughter in my heart and prayers. My daughter and her children are going through a similar but not as intense situation. I fear our situation will escalate to what you describe. And the courts are not on your side. I will keep you both and add you to my personal prayers as I do with mine for safety, peace, good health and stability. Blessings to you both on this new journey. Peace ❤️