I was deeply moved by your post. I am so sorry for your sadness and loss. Although the friendship ended, your words are a beautiful and thoughtful tribute to the road you traveled together.
Take good care of yourself as you move through your grief. I'm sending you a big hug and lots of love. ?
Hi @ghandigirl. You may want to take a look at this post I made a while back. I feel it could be helpful as a complementary practice here. (The post was specifically targeted towards insomnia but can be applied whenever you are feeling "spaced out") ❤️
@anita the meds put me to sleep. I guess I've had it for so long I've learned to live with it. I actually think at this point my lack of motivation is due to depression.
@journeywithme2 I feel your pain, it's awful to lose a friend. Unfortunately as we go through life, not everyone you call "friend" lasts through your whole life. When they don't, it's devastating. I'm not as nice as you are - I've dropped a few people.
It's odd that this comes up now. A friend of mine had a best friend who dumped her over a money thing. I read that the woman's husband died - actually two years ago. Of course, my dumped friend didn't know that. And we talked about this very thing. It's very sad.
@suspira44 Thank you...it is very sad.... and I understand where she is coming from...she is a very traditional Catholic Latina married to a red neck in the rural South. Her first marriage was to a military man.. and yes.. as she told me.. she has traveled the world and sees more what is going on that I do..my having never traveled much at all and never outside of the US. She had become very very judgemental of me a few years ago. I decided today that tho I will always treasure our time together when our hearts spoke to each other rather than our minds I will no longer allow toxicity to belittle me and treat me as less than I am. That part of my life? the people pleasing part? is over. The part that tolerates abuse? is over. Still tho.. I grieve for the friendship we once had.. and also know.. that once Home on the Other Side? Things will have a totally different perspective than they do know. Therefore... I cried it out in the shower .. rinsed it down the drain and followed with a vinegar rinse to let it all go... knowing that I can not align myself with those drink tRump's Kool-aid any longer.
This experience is one that I have had to deal with many times as well, and as painful as it is to let go of people that you love, it is happening for a reason, journey-- ....
When our perspectives align it's because Spirit is moving us along the path to a greater awareness and destiny, and the same for those whose sight does not align with our own ... they are being made aware of the contrast.
So essentially Spirit doesn't like a void, and others will come into your life that will resonate with your vibrational level and bring you happiness, and you to them...
Feel good in that you have blessed your friend with the letting go of the negativity... and can stand in your strength with the knowing .....
Peace ?
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Sorry for your double loss, as it sounds like you lost your friend before they passed.