@laura-f and all here.... I find myself swinging wildly between Hope and Resignation..... Grief and Celebration.... Acceptance and Fighting .... Despair and Faith ... Light...and ... Dark. I think we all are...Big hugs and much love to all and know that.. when I am charged up? I send all here Light and Love.. and when I am drained? I hide to recoup and recover. It's such a hard line to walk sometimes.. knowing where we go when we leave here....knowing we still have much to do here.... because.. we are still here at this time... I live alone with my critters and go days and days and days seeing no one... talking only via text or phone calls to my humans (and daily to my critters LOL) ...and .... fluctuate between being thankful for that... and ...feeling so isolated. Knowing that school is going to open here a month from today (Aug 13th) and seeing so many here going on vacations to Florida and other states...not taking proper precautions consistently... I know that many here are going to sicken and spread the Covid-19 and be totally surprised about it and learn how serious it is. My heart aches for the teachers and the children.... and I feel guilty for being thankful that mine are grown and not having that worry in my life at this point. I feel guilty that ..even as my finances are squeaky tight... my social security enables me to continue to shelter in place... and I have my two grown children to help me if needed. I have a vision of this group... we are all swimming in deep water ocean... some of us with life vests...some of us just swimming..some of us with life rafts... but.... we are all linking our hands and paddling like hell ....keeping our heads above water and lifting each other up and helping each along..so that none of us... sink and drown...when one tires.. another takes over and the tired ones... rest and recover to take their place swimming and supporting as we go. I am thankful and grateful... and.. I am tired and angry.... all I can say really is.... tie a knot in the rope and hang on! It will all be ok in the end....if it isn't ok? it isn't the end. Love you all.
This part brought tears to my eyes. This is exactly how it all feels and I so love your vision of our group holding each other up, linked together, switching it up between resting and supporting. Love to you, too, and all of us! We are in this together and will get through it together!
Everyone's loving messages are so uplifting, and I hope Laura, deetoo and others fighting depression are uplifted by them. Melancholy is trying to infect me lately. My favorite medicine in to get outside in the garden (sunshine) and lots of comedy. Hearing/seeing others laugh, and laughing myself, helps jar the "sadness cancer" loose.
Yesterday I read my grandfather's World War 1 diary. (He was in Argonne and other terrible places.) Toward the book's end were comments that resonate now. He describes the moment soldiers learned the war was over and his division was told to sleep while the locals prepared a meal for them: "One cannot explain the precious realization of calm. It was in truth the first dead calm the country had known in four long years. It was so unnatural for a time to feel the peaceful pervading quiet that it seemed we must have shifted to another planet." Then he described the soldiers' unique joy of seeing the Statue of Liberty again at last. "Your average American ... is not a judge. His emotions are never plumbed. He simply feels it to the middle depths. A man has to come back from hell to understand."
We haven't known battlefields, but we have been to hell. If we hang on, we will share their overwhelming joy soon. And it will be profound. I can hardly wait.
@journeywithme2 I love this so much - it's perfect, and exactly how I feel. love you all
Please offer some prayers and healing to Ruth and Larry. They are the parents of my friend Debbie and they both have Covid and are both in the hospital. They recently celebrated their 55 wedding anniversary, apart as she was already in the hospital . He was admitted just the other day and is declining. She is improving a little. Debbie is very concerned, of course.
Thank you.
Saying prayers asking for Healing and Grace for Ruth,Larry and Debbie .Sending much Light,Love and Healing Energy
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In a heartbeat! Inviting them into our circle of light and love. 55 years is a gift and a blessing but these beautiful souls deserve many more.
Heartbreaking times for so many now. May God's Devine Light Lift up their Spirit of Being One so they may feel the connection that still is and can never be broken.
May grace fill their beings with love, hope, and mercy today and everyday.
They are already on prayer lists and in so many hearts, may they know and feel this love and help them deal with fear and separation.
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Beautifully expressed and heartfelt words from someone who truly knows, understands and reaches out with such love and heart.
Bless you ghandigirl and Laura you are so in my thoughts and in my heart. You can do this!!!
Just popping in to say thank you, I do feel a bit better today energetically, so whatever everyone is doing is definitely working.
Thanks especially for all your kind and uplifting words. I know it's not all about Me, and I'm grateful for this safe space to vent and release when needed.
May the light you send me return to each of you a thousand fold.
Namasté
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Your average American ... is not a judge. His emotions are never plumbed. He simply feels it to the middle depths. A man has to come back from hell to understand."
We haven't known battlefields, but we have been to hell. If we hang on, we will share their overwhelming joy soon. And it will be profound. I can hardly wait.
@jewels, I felt the chills when I read this, as if I could hear your grandfather speaking those words across time. His diary is like a special, precious portal through which you can step into the lives of the brave men and women of WWI.