My god thank you everyone for your kindness. Its overwhelming. So much to agree with but so little time to write. Cindy I had a childhood similar to yours and have also been told by therapists to keep a distance from my parents. I too earned respect from my father by keeping my distance, asking for nothing and demanding an apology before I would even consider communicating with him again. We now have a good relationship as a result and I keep my boundaries. I have a great life now, and I perfectly understand wanting to hurt others when you're hurt yourself. I've been there, but I've worked hard and continue to try and heal.
Thank you everyone again. I hope and pray that we can all heal, and live our lives with honesty, integrity, understanding and compassion.
Much love everyone.
Something similar to your pendant story happened to me years ago. I was researching US Western history and got lots of books. In one of them was a picture of an outlaw. It felt like he was staring right at me and I felt the evil radiating from the picture. Every time I opened the book and saw the picture it made me frightened. I got rid of the book right away!