I think your response is actually understandable and normal, especially during this time. I don't know who you were thinking of, but perhaps you are concerned about family members right now or perhaps you were thinking of your late husband. There is no reason he can't be the focus of your energy if yo feel you want to include him. I am really glad you feel lighter. I know that meditation has helped me greatly when I have needed it.
Your children are wonderful ages! There are many activities we have listed they can do online during the pandemic if you need some suggestions. I think most are in the points of light section. Zoos and museums have some wonderful things going on to learn and explore.
Again, welcome!
I had a strange dream this morning about the virus and Trump. In the dream I am in a work setting and I am refilling toilet paper in some of the bathrooms because they were low. I find a huge scary spider on top of a roll of toilet paper. I trap it into a container where it thrashes its mouth a lot as if to try to bite me. Trump hears I caught it comes over to me and asks me to save it for him--he wants to keep it in a terrarium as a pet. I start to find a terrarium for the grotesque spider, with all the spider would need to stay happy inside it. When I say grotesque spider I mean like worse than horror movie grotesque--very CGI scary...it's teeth were very bad...
In the dream I come up to Trump with the horrible thing in it's new home which is a large glass terrarium and as I hand it to Trump it is as if I could suddenly read his thoughts. He was thinking he might have an enemy or enemies he would like to save it for... I woke up and thought it was obvious based on another dream that the spider is representing the coronavirus. In the other previous dream spider eggs were shown as outbreaks of the coronavirus. I was shown many, many new areas with many spider eggs. Each egg had a tiny fully formed spider inside ready to hatch. I didn't think it gave any new information so I didn't post it here, everyone knows this is happening now. In that dream I would watch an invisible hand try to sweep the eggs away, only to find more every time I walked forward...
Since I am refilling toilet paper it suggest to me a time when there is plenty of toilet paper. Or the toilet paper is only a reference to the time of the pandemic, when suddenly having toilet paper seems so important.
Although I am not sure the full meaning of this dream, I am posting it to see if I get any insights. Trump is a germaphobe according to sources, yet shook everyones's hands to show he isn't afraid to do that. I guess the appearance of being unafraid matters to him a lot. (Remember him staring at the sun during the eclipse? Did he want to appear unafraid or somehow immune to the damage? Now he wants to appear immune to the virus? Or is he just stupid...)
Maybe the dream is just suggesting he is always looking for revenge on others. He can't literally use the virus as a weapon for personal use, can he?
Another material that you can use for masks that should be readily available is furnace air filters. If you get the hepa filters and remove from the cardboard, they make good mask liners and protect much more than straight fabric.
Maybe the dream is just suggesting he is always looking for revenge on others. He can't literally use the virus as a weapon for personal use, can he?
No, he cannot use the virus as a weapon. He's not a genius super-villain. And now that the White House is down to the dregs of his spineless sycophants, he can't call on any of his allies for real help. He's a frightened little boy who has as much control of the pandemic as any other schmuck on the street. He tells himself the pandemic can be used to his advantage, but this is just the desperate delusion (and final undoing) of a malignant narcissist.
@mas1581, regarding using HEPA furnace filters to use inside the masks -- do you know whether those filters can just be cut up and inserted into the pocket, or do they need to cut into squares, pleated, and sewn along the edges? I saw a good illustration of the latter in a youtube video, but since I don't own a sewing machine, I'd like a simple solution. Thanks.
you can cut it up and sew it to the inside of the mask. I can’t sew either but I added to the inside of the mask. I use the filtrete 1900
@jessi1978, thanks. The cloth masks I ordered contain interior pockets, so I can probably just cut up the filters and slip them inside. Not sure why the youtube instructions I saw had you pleating them -- maybe they offer better protection that way.
Thanks also for the Filtrete link.
@starpath
I think it's both - yes, your dream suggests he's looking for new modes of revenge - look at what he does to states that "aren't nice" to him.
BUT the virus itself can be weaponized very easily. He could put someone's sneeze droplets in a spray bottle, and spray objects in the WH or elsewhere that someone like RBG or Pelosi might touch, hoping that in a moment of inattention they touch their faces. He could contaminate where the press sits for his "briefings".
I never underestimate the depths of his evil, so you may be on to something.
I know, he has that sort of vibe to him...
My thoughts went toward military labs that might study this virus as a potential bioweapon. Perhaps if Trump got a briefing about that sort of research he would want to use it for his own personal reasons. Thankfully I don't think anyone would help him do it.
Putin has that sort of power, but not Trump.