@Coyote. I am rooting for you. Don't let life get you down and think of that Sun card. Sometimes things need to get broken first before it can be fixed in a better and more gratifying way. Try to believe in that. Also, think about what @laura-f said. St. John's is a great herb to try. It benefits some and is less sever than anti-depressants.
@Bluebelle, congrats! May the sun always shine on you, your wings soar and your heart filled with love. ❤️
So many hard things to bear for so many right now :( Much love to all of you who are struggling.
Last week, the 14yo daughter of a longtime friend took her life, and last night we found out that our 15yo niece has had suicidal thoughts and depression. The world and this year is pressing down on so many right now, and I have to wonder how much more people will be able to take before they snap.
We moved our son to his apartment at school on Saturday, in a state that hasn't mitigated covid at all or required any sort of distancing or masks. It terrifies me, even though I trust him. The day before he moved back, he and his girlfriend of nearly three years decided to give their relationship a break, even though they are best friends. Makes me so sad, even though it was a mature decision. I don't feel they are done yet, but maybe that's just wishful thinking. We chose the distance learning option for fall for our 15yo daughter ... not an easy decision, but we asked for her input, and she agreed. As hard as this all is and has been, I know my kids are mentally and emotionally doing okay ... so far.
@lovendures. Thank you, my sweet friend! My birthday month is starting out pretty great, I must say. It continues next weekend with another small family event in the big city. I am just living in the moment these days and it helps dealing with all the chaos and turmoil surrounding us. I keep hoping things are getting better in AZ, but it sounds like you are still in the midst of it. Much love to you, my friend.
I read your post last night before sleeping and you've been in my mind all day. My experience with reading cards for myself has been so discouraging that I rarely even try that anymore. When I did attempt it while feeling upset or discouraged, I only threw cards repeating my misery. I'm convinced that our feelings influence the card process. So, what I've tried instead, is to wait until I'm on even keel and then read situations, say in the Celtic cross spread. I would ask, "what will the outcome of this situation be?" Then I would continue to throw a few cards after the outcome card. Those extra cards represented how the situation might be in one month, two months, six months. I might ask, "how will I feel about "x" situation in one month, two months, and so on. Invariably, I found more peace and clarity about the situation I was concerned about. It's hard to be dispassionate about oneself. We are harder on ourselves than we would ever be with a friend, aren't we?
Have you meditated and tried automatic writing for yourself? I've found that if I meditate on a topic and wait until I've reached a depth of serenity, I ask questions of spirit as I write. Sometimes, I will start getting answers during the meditation itself, but then the automatic writing bears it out. An interesting thing I've noted about this process is that the language of channeled writing is unlike my own writing voice. I save all these channeled writings and occasionally go back to see if things turned out the way predicted. It's not bad. None of us will ever be 100% on this, but we may see a good batting average emerge.
I know your life has had more challenges than anyone should have to endure and yet you have persisted. You've developed this wondrous perspective on life and a deeper spiritual knowledge than most of us would ever dream of. I hope you will continue to share that wisdom with us.
Sending you much love and peace, Coyote. You're not alone. Not at all.
Thank you for opening the window on John O' Donohue ...what a beautiful gift for Bluebelle's birthday, and one for everyone here.
I was really inspired to see that this late great poet priest and amazing soul had left a legacy of deeply moving writings, and I plan on getting all of his books. Every verse that he wrote is like a poem unto itself.
Here is a little quote from O'Donohue that is charming:
~Morning Offering~
May I have the courage today
To live the life that I would love,
To postpone my dream no longer
But do at last what I came here for
And waste my heart on fear no more.
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@stargazer He was a close friend of an old friend of mine. She took me to meet him back in the day. It was after he died that I began to fall in love with his poetry.
It's so sad that he was taken so young.... how fortunate you were to meet him!
Thank you once again for sharing his beautiful heart and soul with us ?
I'm intrigued by your automatic writing process, Bluebelle. I've produced automatic writing spontaneously when I've posted on this forum. But I've never sat down with the intention to write automatically. Do you type or handwrite?
As for reading cards, right now I'm only drawing a card a day. I ask spirit what I need to know about the energies I'll be contending with for the day. Then I imagine light descending down on and use my left hand to draw from the deck (on Sundays I pull a card for the entire week). I've never been made more upset by whatever I pull. I think that even supposedly scary cards like the Tower shed light on my situation while also offering a way forward (that's why I like the Thoth deck; the imagery and possible interpretations are so rich). Maybe I'll try out a more involved process like the one you use once I've learned more about the Tarot and the meanings of the cards.
Hi Coyote, I type my automatic writing. It just flows. Then I save the document by date. I thought many of your posts have been spirit driven in the past and that’s exactly how the automatic writing works for me. I don’t do that writing on any type of regular basis, just when I feel led to do it, so it feels spirit directed.
Before I tried this approach, it occurred to me that our writing during the Read the Future exercise was channeled writing. So, I thought, why not try it out by meditating on certain questions or topics and then writing whatever came to mind?
I love the Thoth deck, too and agree with your recognition of the richness and complexities within each card. Each card is a work of art. You’re inspiring me to pull a card everyday.