Thank you, @lovendures. @jeanne-mayell, it's true. I knew as soon as I woke that the post wasn't real, but I was meant to know that the message was being sent from someone here (poster or lurker).
I had an "interesting" experience today. On a job site, we found workers we hadn't met before. We were joking and doing fine with these two men, until nearly lunchtime. One of them made a derogatory remark about Biden, and my girlfriend let them know we apparently didn't agree on politics. She said nothing nasty or personal, yet their entire dynamic and the way they treated us changed instantly. We didn't let it bother us, and went about our jobs. After lunch, I happened to be the one needing to work in the room these two fellows were in. I had heard part of their conversation about food and drink from outside, and while one of them kept trying to bait me, I ignored it, and would bring up topics I'd heard them discuss in order to have a cordial conversation. As soon as they left for the day, my girlfriend came immediately to the room I was working in. She noted it had apparently agitated them that they couldn't get me to fight. She told me she replied to that comment that they wouldn't have succeeded, no matter what they threw at me. All I could do was chuckle. Who needs to fight? Who needs such negativity? They showed who they were, and I accepted that. The end.
Now, why am I writing this? As soon as I got back on my ladder after the two guys left the room where I was working without being able to rile me, I thought of @dannyboy. The other day, I thought of him out of the blue, and thought I picked up on stress around him coming from someone at work. I got busy and didn't get the chance to come and post to him. My thought at the time was this individual was making things difficult because they were jealous of him. They knew deep inside they couldn't be as generous as our kind gent is, so they are being abrasive. I just wanted to tell dannyboy, it's not worth thinking about or letting it get under your skin-it's their problem, let them keep it. You have your priorities straight, so ignore. Today's events brought that flash back into focus for me. Not sure if I'm right in what I picked up on, but surely felt thinking of you today immediately after meeting abrasive folks at work had me thinking it was a spiritual nudge.
@Cindy - thank you so much for this. Both for the kind words and the thought of me, as well as your thoughts on it all in general.
As soon as they left for the day, my girlfriend came immediately to the room I was working in. She noted it had apparently agitated them that they couldn't get me to fight. She told me she replied to that comment that they wouldn't have succeeded, no matter what they threw at me. All I could do was chuckle. Who needs to fight? Who needs such negativity? They showed who they were, and I accepted that. The end.
I've been living in this space a little more often than normal lately. Part of what @Jeanne-Mayell told me at the start of this liver journey about the liver being a place where anger often lives or is born (I think I'm demolishing Jeanne's actual words but it was a link between anger and the liver) has had me really working on this this year, and while my patience is tried and tested often, overall this has been a good school hear.
Now, why am I writing this? As soon as I got back on my ladder after the two guys left the room where I was working without being able to rile me, I thought of @dannyboy. The other day, I thought of him out of the blue, and thought I picked up on stress around him coming from someone at work. I got busy and didn't get the chance to come and post to him. My thought at the time was this individual was making things difficult because they were jealous of him. They knew deep inside they couldn't be as generous as our kind gent is, so they are being abrasive. I just wanted to tell dannyboy, it's not worth thinking about or letting it get under your skin-it's their problem, let them keep it. You have your priorities straight, so ignore. Today's events brought that flash back into focus for me. Not sure if I'm right in what I picked up on, but surely felt thinking of you today immediately after meeting abrasive folks at work had me thinking it was a spiritual nudge.
I honestly think the agitation you saw was my boss. We've been butting heads again - to the point where there may be an opening elsewhere on campus I'm going to throw my name in the hat for. She actually told me yesterday she thought my last day was next week which was irrtitating on so many levels that I'll post about separately in a moment. As for the new possibility: It's a principalship at our tech center and while I lack the background and experience as a principal, I have the degrees and this gig would be an incredible way for me to use those degrees while also working for a staff I already know the quirks and idiosyncracies on. In short, I'm letting the universe be my guide here but if the guy currently in the chair gets the position I think he's going to get, his will open mid-May when I'll be off the heaviest of meds and at least able to do a one hour interview. I'll miss what I'm working on now but I'll love being with kids all day again. Plus the therapy dog can come with me every day. Win/win!