I'm so sorry you have been hit with this again. I envision the presence of the holy spirit delivering clean, clear air to your struggling lungs, as it expels all that does not serve you … your lungs are expanding freely, like the wings of a butterfly, as they are bathed in healing light.
I am holding that vision for you in my prayers.
May your doctors find out what is causing your lungs to have issues. May you heal completely and breathe clearly.
I'm wondering whether the political terror we've experienced throughout our world may have contributed to your desire for a cigarette. We've been going through a relentlessly stressful time. Please don’t beat yourself up over it. Be gentle with yourself. My life has been a series of starts, stops, backslides and restarts, especially during times of stress; I believe that’s true for most of us. I’ve never smoked, but from observing my friends and relatives who have, quitting isn’t an easy task. The addictive, biochemical piece of this is huge. I like some of @laura-f 's suggestions. I would do whatever resonates with your body and your spirit.
I deeply admire your strength and determination to tackle this head on. You have all of your higher angels and the spirit of this community behind you.
I am sending healing light to calm, support and sustain you. Please let us know how you are doing.
I'm ? sending you love and light - picturing the white light piercing through and washing away the "black bits" and encasing your chest and throat with healing light right now...
I'm a singer too. I also suffered from bronchial illnesses for years and years.
For me, I am believing it was a physical manifestation of feeling like I could not just BREATHE in my life. As my life grew happier, my lungs grew stronger. I still have mostly symptomless reflux that makes me hoarse sometimes, and I notice it is occuring most when I feel that I am not being heard or my voice isn't being counted. This may not be true for you, but it is something to think about. I noticed a big change in the health of my lungs when I changed my life.
I am visualizing your lungs pink and healthier and your spirit peaceful and able to breathe. The body will strive towards wellness, and the feelings will help direct you I think.
Keep singing! It is so good for the brain, body, spirit, everything! (Make a joyful noise...)
@ghandigirl Reporting on Lilli: The operation went fine, the vet took out a mass, but her lymph nodes are enlarged so they biopsied one of them. No results yet. Susan thinks Lilli can come home tomorrow. I encouraged Susan to get in touch with my homeopathic vet (one of my cats is a chapter in her book). Susan said she will not give up on Lilli. I will keep you all posted.
I'm glad for you, @suspira44
Meanwhile, my crappy week continues. I'm back on antibiotics, but the x-ray was clear, so I'm on the mend once again. So thank you all - I can feel your energy - it's kinda coming in spurts this time, but that works!
BUT
My cat Arlo, who has the cancer on his skull - it's as if a switch flipped. Two nights ago he was playing with his toys, eating my lasagna, and basically a cat living with cancer. Since yesterday morning, he's become a cat actively dying of cancer. I promised him and myself I wouldn't let him suffer more than one day, so I've called the special euthanasia vet to come today. We thought he'd be gone before the holidays, but we've had all this extra [and good] time with him. That's why his nickname became Chanukkah Cat...
So send a thought for my good boy, this should happen between 4-5pm PST, for peaceful passing. I will be giving him reiki starting in a little bit, til the vet gets here.
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