Thank you so much deetoo. That is very comforting. Mom is hanging in there. She is trying to build up her strength so that she can start a clinical trial in a couple of weeks. The oncologist is hoping to help shrink her tumors and improve her breathing, giving her some good life quality and such for a time yet. So, please keep sending the good love and light! Thank you all very much.
CC21 So sorry to hear about your Mom, sending prayers, light and love to all of you. Dealing with severe illness is never easy on anyone.
CC21, continuing to send healing light and prayers to your mom and family.
Thank you so much, Robin and Lovendures.
Hello Everyone and especially Jeanne,
I have been off the site and dealing with some huge things. Recently was asked to be evaluated for bipolar disorder and have digestive ailments that have caused me to lose 13 pounds in 3 weeks. Awaiting test results of an ultrasound.
I began to wonder if I am psychic or have hallucinated seeing my father's spirit ans so on. I feel like a preteen trying to figure myself out.
I am sad, and shocked ,a nd hopeful, and desolate. I also recently diagnosed with PTSD and believe I have been suffering from underlying Bipolar my whole life. The word terrifies me as my bipolar sister abused me my whole childhood as well as aprivate bully at school. I am a traumatized person. I am a sexual assault and Domestic Violence survivor.
And right now I am very ill. so I am asking for Reiki or prayers or anything you can give to me.
I think I am psychic but I don't seem to know myself right now.
Love and healing light to you ghandigirl. My heart and energies go out to you now during this immensely challenging and life changing time.
Any and all of us would be stressed and physically, emotionally, and spiritually challenged as you are now.
It's hard for those of us without your life experiences, challenges, or triggers, to know if what we hear or what visions we see are "real" or from other times, places, or realities in our own lives but dealing with this added confusion and potential causes in your life is even more challenging.
Energetically, your severe trauma is a more heightened, more fearfully aware, more desperately feeling the need for help than any of our anxieties, fears, triggers or traumas.
But what you are experiencing medically can be helped. The physical and emotional world offers doctors and therapists of all kinds. The emotionally sensitive, empathetic intelligent woman you are at your very core will always be a part of you.
You have the gift now of being helped, finding balance, and using those gifts of medicine, science, and gifted and caring therapists and healers to care for every aspect of your beautiful being.
Open yourself, your focus, you own innate intelligence and gifts to your physical self care as your highest priority.
Finding a balance in all ways, medically, emotionally and spiritually is now a new and amazing journey of many possibilities, many new insights and understandings.
Bit by bit, the greatest gifts of all towards understanding the long and deeply interwoven DNA connections through many lifetimes and many parts of yourself that have brought you to this time, and place.
I thank all that is divine for your healing experiences. I praise you for your strength, your courage, your ability to connect with all possibilities.
We are holding you in our heart light and sending such deep and endless caring and love to and for you.
Now, and forever, we love you, dear, dear ghandigirl. Believe that this is all just a part of your souls journey and bring in all the help from all who offer, give, and are now sending and sharing.
Be at peace and let it flow in and around and through every atom of your being.
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Dear Ghandigirl, Michele has woven such a beautiful, thoughtful word tapestry of healing and love for you. This is also an energy tapestry full of beautiful, vibrant light and color that is surrounding your body, mind and heart. What difficult experiences you have felt in this life...Your bravery in naming these experiences and facing your challenges is part of this life’s journey for you. In these moments of sadness and fear, you can grow in wisdom and courage. I am sending you my own heart’s light and love, too. However, do keep reading Michele’s wisdom for you over and over again. May you find peace and physical health.
CC21, I am sorry to hear about your mother. I'll keep her, as well as the rest of your family in my prayers.
Ghandigirl, I'm sure that right now things feel rather overwhelming. Take a deep breath and have faith. Keep in mind that those of us who are given HUGE burdens to bear in this lifetime are those who gain the most spiritually. In high school, you have different lines of study. There's general academic, remedial, and then there are the advanced placement group. AP is the most advanced. See your life experiences for what they are-the hard lessons so that you can advance more spiritually than if you had taken the remedial track. You get to choose how you react. If you don't like your reactions, it it totally within your right and capability to change them. You can let these experiences make you bitter and afraid, or you can look in the mirror and say look at how strong I am to have survived what I have.
As Michele says, there are many options open to you medically, psychologically, and spiritually. Find what works for you, and don't give up.
ghandigirl, I am so sorry to hear of your difficulties. I don't have the wisdom or experience of the wonderful posters here who have such words of support for you, but I am sitting here on the first nice day of spring we have had, listening to the birds, breathing in the warm air, feeling the sun on my face and feeling such hopeful energy. I truly send all of that and my love to you during this challenging time.