Dear Share,
You should never have had to carry the weight, scars , burden, hurt and responsibility thrust upon you by your father. Never.
Yes, you are very brave. Very brave. Being brave doesn't mean you are free from traumatic physical and emotional injury however. The wounds you worked on healing were opened again and they are raw and fresh. I am heartbroken for the little girl who faced a real life monster every day, one who should have showered her with love and joy. I am also so proud of the caring and beautiful woman she has become.
You tried to give him an opportunity to change. He has chosen not to do so. It is his burden to carry.
Do you still have siblings living at home? If so, does your mom feel she needs to stay because of them? Perhaps you can establish a code word/sentence to notify you if the situation turns dangerous.
Thank you for sharing this event with us Share. I will keep you in my prayers and send you comforting love and light.
Everyone here has sent so much love and said so many loving things that I know you know how much we all love and treasure you in all ways here.
So I will send loving and caring energies in the highest vibration today and every day on Wednesdays and Mondays Mediations and in my prayers and meditations each and every day. My candle burns bright for you always always always.
May you truly come to realize how uniquely valued you are and the negative emotions of a harmful individual with deeply damaged physical, mental, and emotional energies himself cannot touch the beautifully radiant essence of who you, the daughter and child of the divine universe truly are and ever will be.
This is your true essence. Let the harm of the not dad energies be blocked by the loving protection of good and kind and caring angels of love and light forever and may you let allvover energies pass through you without harm and regret as you seek always to be the best and highest pure you, pure loving you daughter of goodness/god/goddess/divine energies of true nature and pure love.
This broken heart can and will heal and the energetic barbs and poison pain arrow will be pull out. It will.
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@share sometimes our family can bring us the most joy and the most hurt. I’m sending you a huge hug and asking for peace and love to soothe your pain. We are here for you. It hurts but also takes courage to advocate for yourself and your mom. Take some time to calm yourself and know that we are with you. ❤️
I am so proud of you for standing up to your father. I see your heart is broken, and I want to cradle your beautiful heart, but you are a heart warrior and the heart that breaks, breaks open, becomes stronger, and leads the world.
The heart that breaks open can contain the whole universe.” ― Joanna Macy
When you came to my class, your light shown so brightly. You are all goodness, and I felt so honored and fortunate that you had joined us.
@share I am sorry for this constant pain that contradicts your goodness and light. Thich Nhat Hanh and others helped me to recognize the broken child within my parents and helped to lessen my suffering in feeling abandoned emotionally. I suppose I’ve become the parent in some respects, trying to teach my parents about unconditional love and compassion. They also become insulted and tell me to be quiet and mind my business.
May your courageous heart know that the love it sends out will be reciprocated in abundance from the Universe. ?
Dear Share, I am so deeply sorry for your suffering and wish I could bind your wounds and heal your heart. In my experience, it can take a traumatic experience to create new pathways for yourself. May this time of emotional pain be a turning point in your life. May this turn into a time of strengthening and resolve as you put aside the torments of the past and move forward into emotional and spiritual wholeness. This turning is possible from this moment on.
I know what it’s like to be disappointed by a father in the past and now I know what it’s like to have family members embracing the cult of our fascist president. My family is divided, too. There are slings and arrows directed my way and while I choose not to respond, it’s terribly sad and disappointing.
You will find a way to communicate with your mother and monitor that situation. Please know that I am lifting you up and sending you protection, strength, and peace of mind. May you be blessed with a fullness of life and spirit that surpasses your suffering in great magnitude. You are going to get through this and you are going to be okay.
Much love to you.
I can only echo all of the beautiful and strong encouragements of so many here ... if Spirit is calling you to leave family members for your protection please know that it is for your highest good and as heartbreaking as it is, hold your head up high and move forward.
It's really not our job to try to enlighten those whose eyes are so blinded, however heavy the 'responsibility of caring' may feel. We are protected in the Light, always, and aligning with Spirit will heal those wounds.
Take heart, dear Share ...
You are beloved ?
Dearest Share, reading your post just now made me want to hug you so much. The pain you endured from someone you love, and should show you the most love in this world, but instead inflicts such pain is something I can not only imagine but identify with. I am with you in spirit and my heart holds you. I am sending you and your mother - and yes -- even your father loving light. My hope is if we send him as much love, light and peace as possible he will be kinder with your mother too. I look forward to seeing you at the meditation tomorrow (Wednesday) so I can envelope you even more in loving kindness. My prayers are with you.
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"...you are a heart warrior and the heart that breaks, breaks open, becomes stronger, and leads the world."
"This broken heart can and will heal and the energetic barbs and poison pain arrow will be pulled out. It will. "
Both of these quotes above really spoke to me. My heart has been broken so many times.
In being strong enough to share your pain, and bring it up to be healed in that light of love, you have inadvertently enriched me with accidental comfort from others to you.
I hope today has been a gentler day for you.
Sharing your love and light :)