Anita, one guiding principle that has kept me balanced since 2016 is the truth that, as children of the Paradigm of Separation, every single one of us alive today is traumatized and hurting inside. We've all been deprived of genuine human connection on some level, and unfortunately many of us latch on to groups/institutions/teachings in order to fill that emotional void. So everyone has their own collection of scars, including your sister, and maybe it helps to think about what happened in her life to make her latch onto absolutist religious teachings or act with self-righteousness in the first place. I myself developed a self-righteous streak due to social rejection early in childhood, and I didn't quite outgrow that mindset until my college years. But you'll never find out if your sister has that sort of backstory if you don't try talking to her. Maybe she's reaching out to you now precisely because she needs to unburden herself.
I can't relate to being spurned by a family member because of the person you love, so it's entirely up to you how much you are willing to forgive your sister for that. Looked at from a broader perspective, though, I feel like the societal healing we need to go through in order to get back to the light begins with forgiving one another for relatively minor mistakes ("who did you vote for?") and understanding the complexities of their lived experiences.
Thanks, Jeanne. If she wasn’t my sister, it wouldn’t be such an issue. I can just ignore.When she’d
Make untrue and mean statements about Pres Obama, I basically let it go cuz I figured she was in the Fox minority. But when we have this horrible human (sort of human) running the country and doing
these awful things, I can’t deal with her beliefs....and values.....
i miss when we were having good times. But this is awful.
Anita
hey Coyote, just wanted to let you know that i love reading your posts. you are such a brilliant writer, and so compassionate. But i just gotta say- it is not a ''minor mistake'' when someone votes for ecocide, or child torture, or against democracy itself. It's a big honking deal! Especially if they plan on voting that way again. These are not normal times w normal elections, where we have to choose between two brands of cornflakes! And can anyone pls explain why anti-abortionists are almost always pro-gun, pro-war, pro-capital punishment, anti-enviromentalist, and against food stamps and accessible health care? And then try to say they are pro-life?!? if they REALLY believed in the sanctity of life, it would be so much easier to have them in mine. peace and love
All I wish to friend and foe equally is justice . And that includes family .
Do you think you can arrest people because they crossed your cherished line ? And now you have the right to prey on their children ? Do think you can prossecute and torture those that sacrifice their well-beeing for the sake of truth and care of most ? Sacred over good is right ?
I believe in justice . All i wish is justice .
Life dumps us into this world very unwise people . The universe has to carve our living flesh into goodness . It has to suffer us into empathy . It worked pretty good for me . I am thankful for it . Am I a beast to wish it for others ?
Can there be love without justice ?
Can you fix the refugee hater, without making him a refugee ?
Coyote, I can relate to a lot of what you said. We’re all broken in some way, shaped by nature, nurture, our day-to-day life experiences … some of it a mystery. Emotions are complicated. Life is challenging. Belief systems are just that – belief systems, which some of us accept as absolutes. Often those systems haven’t even been created by us, instead being handed down to us by family, church, whatever. We haven’t bothered to question, is this what I really believe in my heart? We don’t question it because we might be afraid of the answer. Because the answer might force us to look at some of our life choices, some of those painful. We might open Pandora’s box, and where might that lead? We might have to change our life. I know, because I’ve been there. But there is a certain liberation in starting over.
Stardancer commented in one of the forums that she finds it difficult to love people who have views that seem so contradictory to her own. I can really relate to that. I can love the T**** supporters in the spiritual abstract, i.e., I can say that we are all connected, all part of the same infinite universe. I can speak of loving them in those terms. But I feel like an imposter, that I’m really talking BS when I say that, because it’s an easy way out. Because it doesn’t address the messy parts of being human, and all of the crazy emotions that go with it. For me just witnessing the cruelty that has been unleashed feels overwhelmingly painful. It makes me angry. It can keep me up nights. When I see these followers and those in charge excusing, supporting and/or spewing bigotry, hatred, and abuse, it hurts my soul. And it’s not right. I try to understand why. I tell myself that it’s all based in fear, but even if that’s true, we’re all still left with living with the aftermath of their actions. And it’s 100X more challenging when this is coming from a family member or close friend, because you love this person, and it feels like a betrayal.
What we're all facing now is huge. There are no easy answers, but I can do what I can. Each day is a new day. Each day I can put one foot in front of the other and shine my light on the darkness, in whatever positive form that takes. And I am grateful to have so many wonderful, fellow spiritual travelers accompanying me on this journey. It makes the journey a lot less scary.
I have not been able to focus enough to respond to all the posts but the last one here is exactly how I feel. I am having trouble letting go and forgiving and when I have tried to broach something with someone about their loved one who wronged me, they advise me to follow tenets of Tao and not concern myself with that. An unexamined life is ...well, whatever the rest of the quote is.
I do get the interconnectedness...
...but I also get the fear that the nasty behavior will continue. It is a line we walk as lightworkers and as mere mortals.
Also as I have been Recovering from an onslaught of revelations regarding my health in all it's aspects , and especially my mental health. I find that I need to sort, and grieve, and express anger ina safe way and so on and so on.
By the way I AM celia. I was wearing a mask and pretending to be duplicate and now I see why I feel multiple. I am having a really hard time. Because I am and its fated for me to grow,
I also was told again by anothyer psychic that I have a gift and she suggested I join a psychic forum...which is something i have done. I need to believe that this gifty is not a masquerade of symptoms but waht Jeanne also told me. A rare gift.
So needy and full of myself, so hoping to rise above, so sad and so grateful and such a mix mix of things as we all are.
I was misdiagnosed and put on the wrong meds and just foiund out I have been negatively affected for 10 months.
LIght and prayers still need majorly pleae. I feel like the footprints poem. hoping to b e carried and guilty for the neediness in the first place.
Being a spiritual being in aphysical body cvan be very hard. Or easy if I can just hold on till my meds are right. I will shine it on.
love to all. Sad Celia/Ghandigirl
Ghandigirl, thank you for reaching out. I am very sorry that you are facing such physical, mental and spiritual challenges. I pray that you receive divine guidance as you seek the answers to your medical issues. Please focus on getting well, and on receiving the proper physical and mental help you need. Your health and well being is the most important thing right now. I am visualizing you in the very near future, celebrating a beautiful spring day with your sweet dog – healthy, vibrant, joyful and grateful that this difficult period is behind you.
You have tremendous courage and special gifts to share with the world. May there always be an angel by your side, to hold your hand through your life’s journey, and carry you when you fall. I’m sending you healing light, prayers and lots of love.
Hello Ghandigirl, As I was reading your post, I could so relate to your situation. I recently, finally, understood when I was being taught Mindfulness how the 3 aspects of life are equally as important. Body - Mind - Soul.
You've had a difficult life (to put it mildly). The healing path is a difficult one. There are all kinds of healing. Forgiveness is a powerful tool, not for others but for yourself. And sometimes, it is simply to learn to have a healthy life, turning these event and ilnesses to our advantage. Believe me when I say I know it is easier said than done!!!
Don't give up. Believe in your gift and use it for yourself as much if not more as you do for others. I am very different than the rest of the family. To the point where I avoided mingling with them as much as possible (for a while) during family gathering. I hang out with my nieces, and eat at the kid's table. Jeanne has helped me understand and realize how I may be different because of my gift. I now understand I need to work on accepting and loving myself in part because of these differences, because they are exactly that: gifts. As I'm writing this, I am praying for you and sending you light of love, strength and healing.
All of you beautiful souls grappling with Love and Hate and Justice - I'm right here with you. And I need your prayers and support tonight.
There has been another school shooting in my state close to Columbine. I'm not sure I can convey how personal this is to me.
Columbine is a sister school to the highschool I graduated from. The school layout is exactly the same for both schools. 9.6 miles separated us, we competed against each other in sports. My cousins attended Columbine.
I graduated 11 years before Columbine. My youngest cousin graduated three or four years before the shooting.
The day it happened, my mom was in lock down in the orthodontist office she worked at as a receptionist four miles from the school. Everyone was concerned it was another Timothy McVeigh situation at the time. I was home in Westminster sick watching news coverage and calling Mom trying to keep her safe by relaying second hand news information to her.
My paternal grandmother died of a stroke the day after the shooting, and we all think the shooting contributed in at least a small way to her death. Because it was PERSONAL. It was in my backyard. It was home grown. While I didn't directly know those killed, my cousins did. And my family was absolutely directly affected.
While I can't say every school shooting, or every mass shooting in mosques, and synagogues and churches- those at movie theaters and concerts and malls - are a result of the Columbine shooting, I can't say they aren't influenced by that terrible tragedy.
And because that original spark and template, (if you will) for so much continual horror sprouted in my personal space, I feel it again personally every time it happens again. The whole damned PTSD thing for all of the people affected by this madness that we are inflicting on ourselves and each other over and over and over.
Rationally and spiritually, I know it is not my fault. I didn't cause or contribute to the violence or depression or sadness or anger that led to the violence. I do understand, having been bullied by my father and peers what could have led to the violence.
And what I struggle deeply with now is the choice I made to NOT EVER advocate for violence as a solution, and how many, many, many others decide violence is the ONLY answer. I know I am not the only one struggling with this. If we can breach the gap here - find the combinations of empathy and logic in people's brains that lead to polar opposite decisions on how to deal with grief and fear we can solve this.
I want it solved. I want it to stop. I want to stop it. I know I don't have the authority to stop it. I feel like it is my responsibility to stop it - even though logically and spiritually I know that's not true.
This gift of compassion that we Light Keepers have is a tough gig. There are no easy solutions. And feeling everyone's viewpoint on varying issues is both enlightening and confusing to the point of paralyzation.
I've rambled enough. Thanks for listening, understanding and raising my grief and confusion into a place where a path can be illuminated.
Much love to all.
Dearest Luminata, I am sending you love, heart love and the warm embrace of empathy and compassion. This is just so horrific and we may not have the personal connections that you do, but we share your grief. How many times can our government turn blind eyes to the murders of our children? What number is enough? What monsters dwell among us....
Breathe deeply, Luminata. This is not forever, but this is a terrible season. We bear witness as Lightworkers and we also light the way forward. May you find peace, my friend.
Much love to you tonight and in the days and weeks to come.