@jeanne-mayell This beautiful view of the vulnerability and courage one requires to confront the possibility and uncertainty of death brings tears to my eyes. I’ve been dormant on the forum for quite some time as I wrestle w my husband’s growing prostate cancer, his shrinking body, his reticence to confront reality, and to even help himself (he’s been in possession for several days of an 11k per mth end stage drug that is paid in full by my ins, but he hasn’t started it yet). I realize we’re all entitled to define our life journeys and I respect his decisions that never include me (bc of his anxiety and panic).
For so long, I wanted to know and needed to know when his time on earth will end. I felt that if I knew then I’d be prepared. And, bc he cannot communicate his true fears and real reasons for constantly hesitating to help himself... well, you can imagine the frustration, helplessness, and sadness I’ve felt that drove this need to know.
As this film narrative demonstrates, we’re never really prepared. We truly don’t know how we’ll respond to grim news, dire news, and the choice of fight or flight. I love how brave and courageous this narrator is. And I respect that we all cannot be this brave and courageous. I cannot begin to predict or guess how I’d react if I were in my husband’s shoes. I know that, as his wife, I’d like to be included more in the discussions, I’d love for him to be more proactive, talk to more experts, try different approaches. But he cannot. And I love him through this difficult time as much as I love myself through it... to keep me upright, keep us going, and to remind myself that life goes on... here and in the hereafter.
@earthangel ??❤️???❤️?? Prayers for the Highest Good for all concerned and holding space for you as you and he travel through this... together.... apart... all at the same time?
@earthangel No words can describe how brave you are and how beautiful your response. Thank you, dear friend, for sharing your journey with us. Wishing you both well. By the way, I checked into the author of that video, and, as far as I can tell, he is still going strong, well past that initial potential prognosis.
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As I wrote in the chat last night, I do believe the message for the 'little one", "the mighty one" was meant for me. My dad is a very strong spirit who crashes all my readings and supernatural activites. I saw him in my head once the words were said and I felt him in my heart, his presence making it clear he was sitting in.
Growing up, I was the youngest girl and smallest, even smaller than my younger bro (who my mom still calls "the baby") who has got about 5 to 6 inches on me as an adult. So you see, I am "the little one." I am absolutely definitely, "the mighty one." I am the bravest person I know.
My dad appears often when he knows I need comfort. This has been a very long difficult week, and I am steeling myself for whatever happens next. I don't want to share about it, I don't want to give the difficulties more power than is necessary, but I am thinking about Grace a lot today. Any Grace you can send my way... thank you. And thank you for the relaxing meditation, and the friendship. I appreciate this forum , and all of you, my anonymous pen pals, and fellow travelers and light bringers.
@ghandigirl, you came into my mind a few times this weekend. Just wanted you to know that you're in my prayers, my friend. Hope to see you at Wednesday's meditation. ❤️
Thank you. :)
This weekend was a very important one and I am not able to begin trying to sleep as I think about some realizations that I have come to.
The problem is I don't know what to do with them.
But there was Grace this weekend.