My heart and thoughts goes out to you. Very sad and very hard but so good that your brother is in a safe place for ease of mind all things considered. Even if just for now.
I know too many who have walked this rocky road and tried to end their pain themselves. Tells us and shows us all how deep their pain truly is.
Love and loving care for you, now. Know we are all sending you love and healing energies for you and healing peace even for just now during this for your brother.
@pamp, I come from a family with a history of addiction, and totally agree with @laura-f, @jeanne-mayell, @gbs, @moonbeam and @michele-b. You can love him, but you can't save him. I feel it's hopeful that your brother is seeking help. That's the first step, but a very important one.
I'm send prayers of comfort, support and peace to you, your brother and family.
Thank you all for all the warm wishes and warm light sent my way. Because or your prayers, I was guided into making a decision I am more at peace with. I am turning towards medication as a treatment as opposed to electro-convulsive therapy. I had the unhappy experience of waking up during a treatment and I am thankful I don’t remember the event! I am certain your prayers helped me in this.
@ana, I can only imagine how bad your pain is and I am sending you light and prayers.
@coyote don’t give up dear friend, hang in there. @saibh I’ll keep you in my prayers as well. It’s not easy living with chronic illnesses whatever they might be.
@Ghandigirl I know you are suffered great from mental illness. It is now my turn to ask you: how are things going with Lithium? Because it seems to be a direction my doctor would like to take. We’re you able to adapt to it and still use your gift?
I pray for all of you who need help, light and healing. I love you all!
@Bright Opal @Ghandigirl and all, I am thinking of you and of Rumi's words this morning as I read your posts:
Being a candle is not easy. In order to give light, you must first burn.
And
These pains you feel are messengers. You must listen to them.
@bright-opal, so happy to see you here again! I hope you do not mind throwing in my two cents as I have been prescribed Lithium as well.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder almost 20 years ago. They first put me on anti-depressants which didn't work. Lots of meds came after. Thoughts of suicide and the whole sha-bam, nothing much worked and neither did the psychologist who had me chart my ups and downs etc. Then came Lithium with sleeping pills. I was on it for 2 or 3 years (I cannot remember exactly). It did dull my senses, wrote poems about it because it bothered me, but... it helped me gain control of myself.
After this I was able to set a structure, make the right decisions and move on from the events in my life that cause my descent into stage 3 Bipolar depression.
Because of all of this happened I got to know myself (and my triggers) so well that I weened myself off it. My psychologist was amazed at the insight and 'strength' to stay in-control afterwards, but I think it was my 'gift' as you call it that was instrumental in this.
I now choose to stay away from anything negative and make choices that make me happy. Some are hard, but it does work. I use music and movies as my 'happy drug' (there has been research on how they can activate the brain as certain 'happy' meds can), although sometimes I still struggle (I crashed again when my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's and ended up in the hospital) so it isn't foolproof.
My path might not work for anyone though. Lithium isn't great, but it is good for some.
@bright-opal, I smiled when I saw your post. I'm so happy that your bright light is back with us!
Sending love and ongoing healing to you, my friend. ?
Oh, I’m so glad to dee you back, and so sorry for your experience!
ive been hearing about people using lsd for depression. But not for me!
it took me forever to start taking meds, but I cannot fathom trying the ingredient in acid. My dreams are bad empnough.
So glad you are much better and back!
Anita
Thank you for sharing your story. It does help. I am worried about not being able to read cards as I do now or not being able to see the insights sents by the spirit world during our remote viewing events. Did you feel your gift was muted by he lithium?
@bright-opal, I wish I could tell you, but to be honest, I'm just not sure. At that time I was in such turmoil that nothing much seemed to matter. I started to write poetry to help funnel the emotions, but I did lose my connection to the wilds as they say in Druidism. This was because of my state of mind though, I do not think Lithium caused it.
That said, it has an impact on the brain, so you might have to work harder to make a connection with your gift. You won't lose it though. Lithium doesn't take things away, it's 'just' dulled.
Hi Bright Opal!
I am not on lithium. I take (generic)Seroquel, Quetiapine for bipolar disorder, Atomexetine(generic Strattera) for newly diagnosed Inattentive ADHD, and medical mj for Anxiety. I have other meds for asthma and some other physical issues, and while I am still not as even as I would always like to be, I am told the ADHD med will continue to help my brave improve. I have a new Art therapist who also does traditional talk therapy. That is very helpful. The meds set the stage and then I try to help myself with good food, good sleep, and good friends.
I find that daily exercise for half an hour walking, dancing ,or isolated exercises , and singing or listening to music and making Art provide the most relief. Also remembering that I am good, and that I am more than my problems, I am more than just a collection of symptoms, more than my disordered moods, more than my Anxiety which lies to me... and that I have and will continue to heal.
Some days are better, and others are worse.
I wish you the confidence of healing that I also wish for myself.
Prayers for all our Oregon families appreciated.
Oregon is on fire. My own family members have evacuated under a level 3 evacuation order. Friends and family from the Santiam Canyon headed north and several families are staying here in our house and even makeshift beds in our garage. Cats and dogs too.
Up all night too tired getting beds ready to find links, info etc. Making do with what we have and happy we can.
Little kids finally fell asleep but dogs are worried and pacing Smoke scented cats scared and meowing.
Masks and social distancing all but impossible with too much happening at once and cars not finding our house in the dark etc. But all here now
Knowing they have good chance of losing their homes they just grabbed and ran. Will try to find their cars gas and get more food for special dietary needs tomorrow
Just listening to fears and keeping them company now as little kids at least are finally sleeping.
When you have a moment to catch your breath, please let us know how your family members and friends are doing. Do you have an update on their home situations yet, those can take quit some time?
How are you holding up?
Continuing to send you mush love, light and prayers.
@michele-b, thinking of you and sending love and light to you and all your people as we breathe the same smoky Oregon air here in Olympia. So far, the nearest fire has been over 5 miles away, but here in the woods a stray spark from any source can be catastrophic. Topped off the fuel in our camper van yesterday, planning to fill the fresh water tank today and make a list of what to grab if we have a hour's notice, vs 15 min notice, vs grab and go. When we catch our breath may it be free of smoke and may we have a clear view of the road ahead.
Is there any benefit to pre-loading items into the camper you might otherwise be forced to grab at a moment's notice?
I've only had to evacuate for hurricanes in the past, with plenty of warning, but I packed all my jewelry, sentimental heirlooms and non-replaceable family photos and had them in the trunk of our (locked) car just in case.
We also keep 1/2 our emergency kit in the back of the car, and the other 1/2 is in a covered tub by the front door 24/7.
Some of these fires have moved so swiftly, people have had no notice.
Five miles is close, especially if there is wind and an ember carried by the wind ignites as you mentioned.
It is wonderful that you are preparing right now.
I would start collecting things which can be gathered and placed by your front door at least. Also, take pictures/video of items in your house for insurance purposes. This has been VERY helpful when dealing with claims.
Remember pet supplies/carriers and leash your animals and make sure they have ID on them. Cats will hide and are difficult to find when evacuating during a fire.
Don't forget medicine. And computer/phone chargers.
Say safe!!
@moonbeamFinally I ended up on Epival. Lost of side effect. And mood swings. But that’s ok, it will get better with time
@michele-b. Oh Michele, I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. Please keep use posted.
his situation is absolutely horrible. Let’s hope it will be over soon. I send you and everyone on the west coast, love light and praying for blessings.
Blessings Lovendures!
Doing fine, everyone coping, holding onto hope as news for us and our families and friends with our massive fire news poured in as each day went along. Family since early Monday but all doing well.
Updating this morning here as i catch phone signal and have time between meals, laundry and lots and lots of grandkids time. They hadn't seen us except from a distance recently much less be in our house since March 2. Beyond thrilled to be with us but aware instinctively that much was happening just from our general conversation and the oddity of living with us and others all of a sudden .
Am sharing installments here
https://www.jeannemayell.com/community/climate-and-earth-predictions/wildfires/paged/2/#post-34584