I will go Sunday to her flute thing, but I’m not tearing up that ticket! I am going to try harder to do more of what she wants, though. I’d sit home while she’d go to chorus every Wed and when she has gone to many places without me. I can’t give up the things, few as they are, that give me some joy. Growing up Catholic has meant many many sacrifices in my life trying to be a good person. But point taken. Thank you.
A truly truly loving post. I could feel your heart surging out to ghandigirl and hers welcoming it. This is just how real caring reaches out.
Big loves and gentle hugs to both of you and now a big group hug to all of you who are feeling ill or feeling the beginnings of something negative coming in.
Surround yourselves with love and acceptance for whatever space you are in now and remember a better moment or a better day is just around the corner.
When we are depleted it can be so good and so healing to focus on ourselves and send simple caring hugs to others without overdoing our own currently depleted energies.
Sometimes we need to protect our selves from always giving never resting, always being on any and all media --including TV --listen to music that makes you happy instead and focusing only on happy, healing things. And focus only on positive topics or sharing positive experiences.
I have really lovely moments of pure happiness during even really sad, hard or discouraging days when it seems like miracles are only one breath away. But I can feel a wall often of my own lacking of positive focus that symbolically or energetically has been created between me and my loved ones from that miracle. And sometimes even really challenging things serve a far greater purpose that our higher self understands but not our lower vibrational self.
I allow myself to be ok with that and with myself and with the day. And that acceptance with gratitude for the understandings is just what I needed to get through the smallest of emotional or physicslly sensitive challenges to the really really huge things that are happening in my life....past, present and future.
Love you all so much. May we all be better ?♀️??♀️??♀️ day by day in every way ?
@coyote, I’ve learned so much from you this past year, as you’ve shared your remarkable journey of self-discovery and healing. I welcome hearing more of your story, whenever you are ready. It’s an act of love, trust and courage to share so much of yourself with us. Thank you.
I look forward to reading your posts in however many installments you need it to be.
@gandhigirl, and anyone who can't sleep, this may or may not help you, but there is a guided meditation audio tape on line by Jennifer Percy that works well for thousands of people, judging from the number of times it has been played. In the Insight Timer app which offers over 3,000 guided meditations, it was the number one most often played guided meditation. It is also helpful for learning mindful meditation, except that it is specifically geared towards sleep. You can find it here: https://www.doyogawithme.com/content/yoga-nidra-sleep.
I usually fall asleep within five minutes but once I had some really bad insomnia and I had to play it through twice before I fell asleep. It's 25 minutes long. The method has also helped me calm down when I've needed to do so and find my center. It helps me get out of that monkey mind state that so often runs at night when we need to rest.
@lovendures, Perhaps you accidentally referred to your daughter as "old" because she is an old soul? ? Seriously, I sense that about her.
By the way, I looked up Wish Garden -- sounds like they offer some excellent herbal products. I'll probably order the Kiss Ass Immune, since I often need a boost to my system. Plus I love the name. Thanks for the recommendations.
@ghandigirl, your new doctor sounds like a wise, caring soul. I sense that he speaks the truth. Take it a day at a time, and keep the faith. ❤️
Thanks everyone for the input. I will write down my story of depressions in the coming weeks. First as one big word document, and then I'll break it down into installations for the forum so that I can add a disclaimer about which posts will be the heaviest. I'm looking forward to letting everything I've stored up see the light of day.
@anita I don't know what your spiritual beliefs are now, so this advice may or may not be helpful. But do you ever talk to your spirit guides? And I mean going to a quiet space and actually talking out loud, as if you were confiding to a friend. Because when it's just you and your guides, there doesn't have to be any dogma or formality. Forget the severity of institutional Catholicism. Your spirit guides are ancient friends, and they want to hear what's burdening you so that they can help you. I've only started talking to my guides in the past year, and the process makes me feel less alone, less rudderless. Usually I have these conversations before I go to bed or when I'm alone outside in a natural setting, but also sometimes when I'm driving to work in the morning,
@ghandigirl I echo @deetoo. Your doctor sounds amazing. Just the fact that he wants to get to the emotional why of your symptoms indicates that he's a highly evolved medical practitioner. I'm glad you're beginning to feel better.
She is definitely an old soul! You nailed it for sure.
Let me know how Kick -Ass works for you! I love the name too!