Me next!!
I am sick again - third time in 6 weeks. Cough, fever, etc. I finally convinced the doctor to give me some antibiotics. This is the longest bout of this stuff I have had since about 1998. I always get my flu shot and luckily I've had the pneumovax too. But I feel like crap. I have to keep pushing off appointments and activities. Stuff that I had to rebook from early December I'm having to push off yet again, for the third time.
Last time you all were kind enough to send me some healing,and I believe it helped. Well, up until I relapsed anyway... So please add me to your list and send healing, direct it especially at my respiratory system, my asthma is totally flared up and I've had a hard time keeping my breath.
Thanks in advance, beautiful souls, Namasté
On it. I’m sending healing light to you right now. I think you will have felt it before you read this.
What a wonderful mother you are. I will certainly send love and prayers your way and your daughter’s way. Young adulthood can be so beautiful, yet complicated as hell. She is lucky to have such a wise mentor in the family. Ain’t nothing gonna stop her now. Sending warm vibes to you both. ?
Sending healing thoughts your way. Hope you get the rest and comfort you need to fight off those ? germs.
I too have a 20 year old in college. She is being treated for PTSD, anxiety, and depression, much like me. I was saddened and horrified to learn that she has to deal with what I do and I am praying she has not inherited the bipolar disorder. She got help in response to me recently divorcing her father after 25 years together, so something good came of it. She did not speak to me for six months and blames me. I stopped sleeping and was put on sleeping pils and am having trouble weaning off. Our relationship is healing now, but I am still so sad that she cannot see me for who I am, she idolizes him despite some very bad things happening from him her whole life, and also that I have hurt her so much. I am working on forgiving myself. I was not able to control alot of things and be the best mom I wanted to be often, and all I can do now is do better for myself and most of all for her. She is my ony child and she can be dismissive and such, because she has been hurt by us both.
I need prayers for us both. I need strength to forgive myself. I was mentally ill her whole life an ddin't even know what was causing me to be so off. It is hard for me to write this and share this, but I see that all of these posts have invited me to share what makes me saddest.
To all who have posted or are parents and are dealing with big regret I offer you my love and understanding.
Oh, Ghandigirl. I am so sorry for what you’ve been enduring. You have dealt with more than your share of pain and suffering. Now listen, today is a new day, a new beginning. I don’t have any amazing answers as to how you move forward, but I do believe it’s possible to heal yourself and your relationship with your daughter. Whatever you do, do it in love. Be kind to yourself. Practice loving kindness meditation every day. I am sending you love and healing.
As I read your message it is almost midnight. For the third night in a row I find I cannot sleep. I have been crying and sad. So I come out here to be with the cat and drink warm milk. I see my new doctor on Thursday and hope he can help me, and help me to relieve the pins and needles I now have in my very cold feet. A concerning new symptom.
You are right, it is a new day. And eventually sleep will come. I remember that I am loved and safe, even if my anxiety wants me to think otherwise. Thank you for writing to me...it wasn'y wise for me to write so close to bedtime about my daughter. I became so sad that the sadness wouldn't allow me to ease into sleep. Maybe I just need to let it be and drink my milk and pet the cat. Maybe I can use these quiet moments to feel better.
I spoke to G-d and asked Him for help. I no longer can sense the angels around me, but I believe they are there. I have overcome worse insomnia then this. I have overcome EVERYTHING.
Afraid I will have to medicate myself even more tonight. It is what it is.
For all of you here, reading and listening, you help me to feel not alone and for that I am the most grateful.
@ghandigirl and @laura-f,
Wow! What are the odds of 3 of us having 20 year old daughters dealing with a rough time right now? There are no coincidences are there? At least not today. I will say prays for both of your young ladies. May they find their own peaceful and joyful pathways. May they feel love as it wraps itself around them. May they gain wisdom. May both of you feel peace and love as you also travel through this parenting journey.
Laura, I am sorry to hear you have been dealing with illness for so long. That must be very frustrating. May you heal and feel stronger each day until you are healthier than before you got sick.
I am not sure why so many people are ill this year but they sure seem to be. My older 23 year old daughter is a first year music educator. She has been ill with different ailments since mid November with about 4 different illnesses. She is very frustrated because she never has illnesses this often. She also has been re-booking re-booked appointments. Weird.
@Honeybee, such kind words. Thank you so much!
Amazing, the power of words. They can easily bring people down when said in anger and fear. But look how powerful they are when uttered with hope and love with an open heart.
I feel so much love flowing tonight as I read these posts. @lovendures, I am sending my love to you and your daughter. I know you are trying to be strong for her and I am sending prayers and healing right now for both of you.
@laura f I am sending you healing and wishing deep rest for you. And for you too ghandigirl. Sending deep healing for you and for your daughter.
As their mothers you feel your daughter's suffering and you feel your own. It is a double burden to carry. We are so energetically aligned with our children. We feel them no matter how far apart in distance And they feel us. Taking good care of your selves helps your daughters.
I’m so glad you reached out to us here. We are all here for you. We put angels by you and your daughters’ bedsides and to accompany them night and day while they heal. And we send angels for you mothers too.
Sweet @ghandigirl
I am so sorry your heart is heavy tonight. You are certainly not alone. We will be sending you lots of love and hope. You will have a tribe sending you light and healing too.