Not sure, but you can try grounding yourself prior to meditating. Let us all know if you need tips on how to do that - there are many ways.
I get the sense you will prevail in the court case if you've got a good lawyer.
Also remind us a day or two before so we can send a storm of positivity your way!
Good luck.
I hope your lawyer or the twins' lawyers, not sure how it works, will use the words "death sentence." In fact their lawyer could just use what you've written above about this situation and it would be hard to imagine a judge who'd return those babies to that woman. The judge also needs to be reminded that her obligation is to the children, not the mother.
When you are that close to an emotionally charged situation, the best reading is to try one of two strategies:
1. Reading it for yourself: Ground yourself first in prayer or meditation. Then go beyond your usual everyday mindset and focus on the highest vibration you can imagine. I focus on the tallest trees and I ask them for whispers of wisdom about the situation. Some people focus on the wisdom of the whole universe or a spirit guide way up high above our earth. You are going above the clouds of worry and seeing clarity. Then ask a good quality question, not a yes or no question, but something like: what can I know about the twins' futures? Or what can I know about the court appearance or outcome? What can I know about the judge or person who will make the final decision?
2. If you find you are too emotional to do this yourself, then ask a positive-thinking person to tune into it for you. They may not be able to answer the question but they may be able to give you some peace and that is what you need right now.
I feel a good outcome for those children. I also call upon anyone reading this thread to send positive light especially to the children, and also to the courts and all involved.
Our thoughts, prayers, and energies are always surrounding you. I have been drawn to your persona, writing, and strong vibratory energies ever since you joined us.
I knew you were someone with great power and burgeoning talents and abilities that will only grow even faster and greater from this immensely challenging life filled with all of these experiences that many would cave or crumble under while you continue to reach outward and upward.
Please let us all know how you are doing.
You are always in our hearts.
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Thank you Jeanne. The DA files and handles the case and the parents have their own lawyers. We can be called as witnesses but have no say in the matter other than what we are asked on the stand if we are called. If it was a judge trial, id bemore comfortable but this is decided by an 8 person jury. Also, Wisconsin is a very "traditional Lutheran values" state aka misogynistic state and I work from home. I am a stay at home dad during business hours and then hand off to my wife when she gets home so I can get my work done. That isnt well received here, thus part of my fears. Your good outcome for the kids is very encouraging and much appreciated.
I'll be including you in my nightly meditations. But definitely follow Laura F.'s advice and tell us about the trial a few days in advance so that we can amp up our focus on a positive outcome for you and the twins.
@mas1581, I feel very peaceful as I meditate on the outcome of your situation. I am sending positive light to you and the twins, and will keep you all in my prayers. I will also pray that the judge and jurors will be divinely guided.
This is a petty, pity, selfish post, and I need help to get over it.I have always been very shy, but Mother thought I could be a teacher. Wrong, but I got a fine arts degree. My husband dropped out of college, and got a job at a plant that made large generators for oil companies So we did OK for twenty years until the plant closed. Jobs were harder to find, Then Arlie got sick. We open a craft shop, which didn't make a lot of money, but it paid the bills. We had it for eleven years. My brother, Jr left home when I was about seven, He became a petroleum engineer for Phillips 66. Became a vice president for the company, and president of another oil company. He is rich, rich. He has wonderful things for me, mostly since Arlie died. After the house burned in 2009, he got the property cleaned off, so the city couldn't get it. He got me a used trailer on my property, and after that trailer burned, he help me get another one. I had insurance, but I still needed help. ..............
So I was talking to him, and he was talking about his will. So I asked hi if I or my daughter was in his will. No, he has a trust that goes to his kids, and step kids. Two are already millionaires. He brags that one perfected how to side drill. He hates I spend money to feed animals. Then on politics. I said you're only a republican because your rich, and he said you could be rich, if you saved money. iI liked to know how to do that. Also he thinks Obama is muslim, and trump is the greatest president that we have had is his lifetime.
I always say that democrats care about people, republicans care about money.
Dearest Elaine, You are a brave woman to show us this side of you and be willing to share your grievances with us. You shared what he has done for you and yes, even if you didn't say it, we can recognize that he could have done more. I agree with that idea as obviously he could have.
But as you say, he left home when you were seven. You don't say how close you stayed from then on but you were a tiny child and he a young man who wanted more and was probably willing to do whatever he had to for an advanced education. He made basically good choices for himself as we all try to. And he made a lot of money. Good for him for his hard work.
If he didn't want to look back as a challenging childhood or parents he may carry subconscious resentments to this day. We tend to carry our early pains and triggers just as it hurt you yo have your mom choose or decide things for us even if subconsciously buried.
You shared all of this pain, the hurts and the grievances with us as you most likely gave carried in you and tried to share with Arlie and others. But they're still there, still hurting you.
We all do this Elaine, we all hurt, get triggered by events over and over. This happens to all of us and we all have people who judge us, see us as having enough money if we didn't spend on things no matter as small as feeding stray cats. To those with nice houses, cars, vacations, etc.when those they arevptone to judge complain in any way about not being to afford this or that, they get triggered by us.
So, no matter how simply you live anything that is seen as extra that they know about (from us and our complaining) they then feel judged. Judged that they aren't doing enough for us even when they have given repeatedly.
We are all hurting remember and our hurts and how we try to feel better can go against one anothers "programs" of what we're saying and feeling v.s. what they are hearing and feeling.
I had some very rich distant relatives, I was helped 50 years ago by my college books etc being paid for by them. They could have paid for every bit of my college and didn't. They were surrounded by closer relatives needing or asking for help. And when they died, one of the relatives who helped them all his life got everything.
That was their choice and I certainly understood it. But I was sad for my parents who were very close to them when young. Dozens were not in the will. It is common to recognize those actively in your life, your whole life, and forget those who needed it more or the most. It's just how it often is.
Now, I recognize if you read this literally you will want to say this isn't quite how it was or is. I'm just using examples. We can't wish people were different just like we can't wish we were. It's how we live, work at it, or make choices in our lives.
All you can do is let it go and that's one of the hardest things we ever have to learn. Every time we are hurting or going through challenging times it's easy to hope and pray for help but rarely is it financial. And when it is like half of the smallest amount we ever think they'd offer.
None of this may actually help you, it sure wont make you feel better when I say "it is what it is" or "he is what he is" just like it doesn't help him to be told things or asked whose in his will.
But I will say this, most people don't or won't admit their flaws or grievances and bless you, woman! You did! That's huge. This is one way to look at our dark sides and let it out into the light.
On the other hand, it doesn't help us to hold it in by never letting it go or setting free. All I can add is that we all truly like you, appreciate your being here and sharing and we all will hold you in our thoughts and prayers. May you, dear lady, see yourself and all that you do have as enough. It's not what anybody us wishes, or Hope's, or prayers but accepting our ,lives, our pains, and often very real challenges as just being how things are and hopefully for a greater reason, larger more spiritually purposed reason.
Lots and lots of love being sent your way.
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