@ghandigirl I’m sorry you’re in so much pain. Holding you in my prayers and sending you lots of hugs.
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Tomorrow I go for a second opinion.
I am scared.
Please send me energy and light at 2:30 EST.
I had a vision of my father this morning. A young friend was in need and I had started to pray. My father's photo popped on by itself on my computer and I could see him in my mind/vision and see he was talking, although I couldn't hear him, but I then got what he was showing me. Some of it was health related.
A vision of Moses in stained glass looking like the World card. The color red, a not fully shining sun light showing in the red, making it darker. all of that is about my health. After the vision I wrote down all my symptoms and questions to ask the doctor. I believe my father wanted me to do this.
Today my child invited me to call her. It was a miracle. I was nervous. But I know it was a blessing. I had written that I miss her. There is still love there.
Hope I'm not seriously ill. Hope the new specialist can help. Hoping, hoping, hoping. Still in pain, still with troubling symptoms. I will pray for answers. I will pray for healing. I will give thanks for the vision and the conversation with my child.
@Coyote- I am sorry to hear of your struggle. For me, it helps to write gratitude lists. When I focus on what is left, I feel better. When I focus on what I lost I feel grief. The challenge is to bring my focus back to what is left over and over, as needed. Sometimes I allow myself the grief. Feeling is an act of bravery. Reframing the feelings is an act of self love.
Oh my dear dear friend. You are a Grand Mother Tree. It's in our roots and flows up from the earth in our dna and in hearts, our gifts and even in our art just as it does in so many here! You can do this all of it as your branches reach out to sway instead of breaking in the winds of transformation. We are all evolving now for our call to action is so strong now. Each and every thing that happens now is part of our cellular and energetic growth.
Because of our work, our learning through challenges and not truly jusr "inspite of them" we are part of the old growth forest along with other elders and wise women crones and all our tribal cronies we nurture in our grandmother tree circle.
Love to you our beautiful sapling! You are so good, so strong and so very loving, You are deepvin my heart!
You are both (all!) surrounded by a score of angels and so very loved! "We have you. We are with you, we will guide and help you through anything and everything!"
There’s a pervasive sadness in the air and while I thought I was alone in this brooding and deep sadness, people have been alerting me in all venues to their suffering too. I didn’t even jump on the meditation circle last night bc I thought I’d be only a hindrance. That’s not a call for sympathy but a genuine internal struggle.
I'm a mom trying to quiet the maternal longing for my sons. It’s been nearly a year and a half since I’ve seen my oldest. He lives in LA and obviously it’s not wise to travel, esp w my husband’s compromised health. My youngest son’s gf works in a hospital emergency rm so seeing him/them isn’t happening either until there’s vaccine etc. I did see him 3x this spring/summer.
I started the morning w thankful gratitude and a meditation to jumpstart my natural optimism. Would love to say it worked but the sadness is part of me now. I accept it and will take the path of least resistance, I suppose. For me, it is what it is until it is no more. If I feel like crying, I cry. My husband never had children so he’s feeling helpless in how to comfort me. I just tell him I’m very sad and not depressed yet.
Going to buy some Christmas ribbon today for the tree going up next weekend. Wrap presents this week to ship then, too. And I spoke to my boys yesterday. The youngest one always has me laughing in about a minute and then he comforts me. The oldest commiserates w me and we comfort each other too. I’m fortunate and blessed to have them—the loves of my life ❤️❤️
You are so loved here and in your other lives! One of the dearest, wisest, strongest most innately knowing spirits to join us here. Hold on to your inner knowing, your inner truth
This is just our season for a reason. The dark winter calls to all of us. But the dark bears the gifts of solitude to use well and wisely to be able to move into our caves even if in not fully understood time of hibernation. Oh how I love my home time even when not by choice. But oh I long for my own children and grand children in my home (and not just for fire evacuations) but out of our new spring time of growth and transformation as the seeds of time (and our isolation-eating belly fat sustains us!
Know to you all reading here that you are loved, you will see your loved ones all again and a time of joy can fully and completely come back into fruition again. For now phone calls and face/duo/zoom times and keeping and finding joy in community helps so much. Just as you gave to yourself with gratitude keep on with all of that beautiful energy that us innately yours to have and to claim.
No one ever brings me or my energies down in any meditation group. If people share fears, or pain, or anger or sadness--i know it is releasing all of those from those holding them. I seek additional understandings and acceptance of incongruity in our polarized human beings of our tribe but always remind myself of my greater true nature, of strength and deep resilience of all our animal, plant, mineral and other kingdoms. Look to your true nature and to theirs as you know so well within.
Keep flowing through the seasons and the reasons through this deep transformation.
Love love love to you all who feel alone, or are scared or angry or any of our darker emotions. They are our teachers but they also harm our earth bodies and add to the collective intensities now. Bring in the light and the love and the gratitude and feed our world with the truth and goodness it so desperately needs now more than ever! ❤ ? ♥
@earthangel. We missed you! It's okay to come to a meditation group when you are sad. One of the most important points of meditation is to let yourself be with whatever is arising. Just let it be, breathe, and your psyche will figure out what to do with it.
@ghandigirl sending you so much love and friendship. Hang in dear one. You are in my prayers. ❤️