Oh Jeanne, I am so very sorry for your loss. Kitty looked so very sweet, truly adorable. How lucky you were to have her for three years. How lucky she was to have you for that time. These precious animals add so much comfort and joy to our lives and it’s a reciprocated love. They love us back. I am thinking of you and your family and sending you love and healing light.
I am so sorry for the loss of your kitty, Jeanne. She was just beautiful. Sending you lots of love.
I am very sorry Jeanne.
Perhaps you were not supposed to know about her disease so that your time with her could be spent without worry or fear. Instead you had 3 beautiful years to enjoy and love her without fearing she was nearing that "3 year mark". You were given the chance to say goodbye as well which is a blessing.
She was lucky to have you was a mom and you I am sure were lucky to have her as well. I can imagine you sending her lots of love and light during her final hours. She knows she was loved.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
After losing my doggie this May, I read online, "Animals are pure love in a painful furry wrapper."
They are only meant to be with us a short time, to teach us lessons, or just to give us love.
What was your kitty's name?
Oh Jeanne, I'm so sorry. It's hard enough to say goodbye to our furry babies when it's their time, but she was so young, which I know from experience makes the grief worse. She looks very happy in the photo, and surely the time you gave her was quality time. As you do your meditations, invite her to join you. I find that departed pets are adept at "popping in" once in a while.
So sorry for your loss. My wife and I always have a family "pack" of dogs that we have privilege of caring for (I don't consider for one minute that we "own" them). Through the years we have lost more than one of our dogs to cancer at a relatively young age. In fact, I have a five-year old golden battling lymphoma right now.
I can tell you from my own experience that more than one of our beloved dogs has come to me in my dreams after they had passed. Another is my jogging partner according to an animal communicator that we know. (I carry on quite the conversation with him as I run.)
In short, they are never gone. They have just gone ahead, arrived safe, and will patiently wait for us to join them. Love never dies. In fact, love is all that matters.
Jeanne, I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets are part of our family, and it hurts. I am sure your kitty felt your love and felt that you were with her during her transition. I am sure it was a comfort to her. She was a beautiful cat, and she was loved. Sending you my condolences.
You have all reminded me of what I most need to remember,--that this sweet creature knew I loved her completely. She "talked" to me everyday and I felt I understood her many nuanced vocals and responded to her always with love. She talked to me all the way to the end.
It's not just missing her funny goofy sweet presence, that is so hard, but wondering if putting her down was the right decision. Going over it in my mind until I have to make myself just stop. The ultimate choice was to stop the suffering and a belief, bolstered by a knowledgeable trustworthy vet, that patching her up with steroids and fluids would not be a life for her, if it even worked at all, and would prolong the suffering.
In the end, what helps me the most through this is knowing that I gave her love in every interaction we had, so I did my best. It reminds me that no matter what happens in this world, giving love to others will help me through because I can't control this world, but I can at least know I did my best to make it better. Thank you all for guiding me to that wisdom.
P.S. I know Mueller is live in Congress right now, but I had to turn off the Republican obfuscation so I will wait for the replay where I can skip over them.
Jeanne,
Your post tugged at my heart. Your choice to let her go was out of pure love. I feel that so strongly. She loves you, and she understands.
I understand questioning yourself about whether it was the “right time.” We had to euthanize our sweet dog, Gracie, about a year ago. It was my first pet – I never knew how much one could love an animal until she was gone. My grief was enormous.
Gracie had cancer that had metastasized. She was on multiple medications, and we would administer daily steroid shots for her pain. My husband worked so I was home with her for most of the day. I witnessed how much she struggled to pull herself up and walk. The medication took away some of the pain, but created side effects. She was often loopy, and slept a great deal of the day. She still enjoyed eating, so we mistakenly listened to everyone who advised, “if they’re still eating, then it’s not time yet.”
One day when she was struggling to get up, I said to myself, “are we keeping her alive for herself, or for us?” Gracie was still eating, so I still questioned myself, but only for a short time. I called my husband and said, “This is no quality of life for her. It’s time.” After my husband came home, we took her to our vet. I asked Dr. Chavitz, “do you think we’re doing the right thing?” He responded, “whatever you decide to do is the right thing. You know Gracie better than anyone else does – better than I do. In fact, many people hold on far longer than they should. This is a holy partnership.” We let her go that evening.
After we came home to our empty house, I began questioning our decision. Suddenly I felt Gracie’s presence. It was a such a joyful, lightness of being – not that weighted down, physical body that struggled to get through her day. I feel that now for you, Jeanne – your sweet kitty’s lightness of being. And I also strongly sense that she is with you now. I can feel the goosebumps. She feels your sadness, and sits very quietly beside you, to comfort you. She understands why you let her go, and she feels your love. And she’s sending that love right back to you.
Jeanne I am so so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you and your precious fur baby. I too have a cat (mine is old) and I can't imagine the grief you are going through. I am sending you love, positive thoughts and all the comfort I can from a computer screen. I know your beautiful little kitty is in a positive place now, try to remember how wonderful she was in life.