Thank you, everyone.
I feel at peace. I'm not exactly sure why, though. I told my counselor that maybe it's due to the fact that I'm gonna be 42, and my life is half over.
@laura-f @suspira44 Thank you for the continued good thoughts. My mom was unable, again, to be with my dad. He did, however, finally get to talk to a doctor about his scans, and he put the phone on speaker so my mom could be "there." They did dye in his IV to check for internal bleeding; luckily that came back negative. However, more injuries were discovered that had been missed or unseen due to swelling when he was initially in the hospital. In addition to the five broken ribs and two compression fractured vertebrae (which are worse than initially thought, and will likely need surgery to be fused), he has a cracked sternum, another compression fracture in the T5 vertebrae, a large hematoma behind the sternum, and he's lost an inch of height (hence all the swelling in his back). On one hand, I'm thanking the Universe that his skeleton did its job and protected his heart and organs. On the other hand, he has a long road of recovery ahead of him, he is in a lot of pain, and his life will likely include physical limitations once he's healed. We play Words With Friends, I send him anti-Trump cartoons and videos to make him laugh (carefully), we're all trying to keep him distracted and his spirit up, but it's going to be a long, hard few months ahead. (And thankfully, the burst pipe could have been so much worse. My mom still had absorbent pads on the floor in the basement from the last time they had a pipe issue, so the water never reached the finished part of the basement; things in storage were still moved higher so nothing was ruined; and the pipe burst when no one had used the restroom, so the water that came out was from the dishwasher and washing machine, not toilet. They have had to deal with so many burst pipes over the past 15 years ... in two different houses. There's some weird pipe/water/sewage karma working itself out around them; I hope it's nearly done.)
I'll be including your father in my prayers and sending him love and light - and asking for him and your family to be included in tonight's meditation with Jeanne, etc. ?
It does sound as though you all have "touched bottom" and are rebounding to the surface. Hang on!
I meant to do this earlier today, but got caught up in stuff and forgot:
My ankle is very much on the mend! Today was my first pain and crutch-free day. Already starting back up with my ankle exercises. I'm going to a foot/ankle surgeon next week to see about what can be done about my right foot and ankle problems.
THANK YOU to all who sent good vibes and healing!
Namasté!
I'm asking for some good wishes. Later today I have my first job interview of my summer job-search process. But what's at stake isn't mere busy work that will decorate a resumé. I've come to know lately that my physical healing path depends on what sort of work I pursue, which will also inform who I spend most of my days with. Specifically, I need a job that involves being active outdoors on a daily basis (connected with the vital life force of Gaia), which is why all of the jobs I'm applying for are related to gardening and agriculture. Farms and garden operations also nurture cohesive communities of goodwill in ways offices do not, and I need to be surrounded by a cohesive real time community if I am to further heal.
I can go back to live with my parents if I don't find a job by the end of the summer, but I really don't want to do that. Although I'm on good terms with my parents, they don't hold the same story of healing that I do, and if I spend too much time with them, the quantum field of wellbeing that I've been building up for the past year will start collapsing. My intuition tells me that I will find rewarding work soon, but I also have to ask for help and support from "my choir." So that's what I'm doing.
@coyote - Good luck!
If it helps, I'm feeling that you will find something very soon, and what I'm seeing is more of a garden/nursery situation rather than a full-on, side of the road, golf course type landscape job. Working outside is going to be safer than anywhere else for the time being, and knowing you, it will absolutely help you heal internally and externally. I kind of get a feeling of you combining some knowledge of herbs and other healing plants to help people set up their gardens, I see you amongst the plants, educating people and helping them plant stuff to help humans and the earth heal.
Not really related, but as a fun/synchronous anecdote: I had the same landscaper for the last few years. Good guy, a little flaky at times, but always did a good job and reasonably priced. I even got to know him a bit, know his family. He got a job with our city in the Parks/Recs landscaping dept., and we became one of his side gigs. Over the winter, we usually skip December and January because it's rainy and nothing much is happening in the garden. Back in February, I reached out to get our season started, and no reply. I tried multiple times, but nothing. So I figured he's probably busy with his real job and doesn't have time for the side gigs anymore. I got other landscapers in, they all sucked, each worse than the last (long story short they literally killed some of my stuff that I told them not to touch at all). I was beginning to despair of the situation (and due to my own disabilities, I'm limited in what I can do physically in our garden/canyon). About a week ago, I was sitting in a doctor waiting room for a routine thing, and someone said my name. I looked up, but we're all in masks, so it took me a sec, but there was my landscaper! With his wife and baby! Turns out, he had a life threatening truck accident (was in a coma!), and then his wife's mother came down with COVID. So he's had a very rough few months, but he's fully recovered, his family is well and he's looking for extra work again. So he'll be here tomorrow, and I am glad I can have a happier garden and also help him get back on his feet!