I find it interesting that at least a few of you have had issues with vertigo/balance problems lately because I've been having the same problem. I'm fine as long as I sit in one position, but as soon as I change positions (standing to lying down, lying on by back to lying on my side), i get moderate to severe vertigo for a few to several minutes before it settles down.
Odd that so many of us are having that problem... ?
Calling in a blessing and praying for all in need of Healing. I pray and ask that we be given strength, be comforted and know without a doubt that we are Loved, Supported and that all we need is there for us...for the asking. I ask for it and I give thanks for answered prayers.
I have a walking stick, although its meant to be used as a hiking pole and is not too sturdy. There's a volunteer carpenter who does projects for the organization I serve with, and I'm thinking of commissioning him to make me a wooden walking stick, which would be sturdier and have more character.
You've mentioned St. John's wort before. Is there brand you trust? I know Jeanne doesn't like us discussing brand names on the forum, but there are so many untrustworthy supplements out there.
I heard from @UnkP. He is better!
Hello Jeanne! Thank you for thinking of me. And thank you, and the forum family for the healing and love energies you have been sending me. My ear infection is slowly getting better, and this morning i woke up without the feeling of utter doom. This is the first time in what seems like weeks, that i feel semi-normal. What a relief! I hope to return to the forum soon, but in the meantime, please give my love and gratitude to everyone. I am thinking of, and praying for us all in this difficult time.
I can attest first hand to how your healing prayers work. So send away, angels.
@jeanne-mayell so happy to hear this good news. Prayers for healing and peace will continue,for Unk-p and everyone of us. ❤️
@coyote ... You are on my mind today, and along with that came a remembrance of a friend from college. He was born with a physical disability that left him wheelchair bound. While he couldn't participate in normal college things, in normal college ways, he was a presence on campus. We were both English majors, and listening to his thoughts through essays and stories made you realize just how much he paid attention to the smallest things, and truly, the smallest things affected him in ways much different from the rest of us. In the winter, we would hurry to class and get into a warm building as quickly as we could. Yet he could roll only so fast ... slower, even, when the walks were covered with snow. Where we could quickly get into a building, he would have to struggle to open a door against snow and wind, and maneuver his chair in through the slush and ice. When we would huddle under umbrellas while walking across campus, he got wet. He always wore a look of determination veiling frustration. I wish I were still in touch with him, to know where life took him. But I hope he still wears that determination and is still writing. And I think that's why you and he connected together in my mind. Through his inabilities and limitations, his mind and voice were clear, and he was an inspiration for all those who took the time to watch him and listen to him and pay attention to him. It almost seemed as if his internal power grew as his external power struggled. I hope you can find your internal power and voice, because it will be a gift to a world that chooses to recognize it and pay attention.
Thank you for the replies. I know. External, physical struggles can refine the internal and create soul beauty, and that's part of my journey right now.
But I want to make this clear: I have no intention of letting disability be a permanent state. We're at a stage in human evolution where we can start shifting our bodies and external realities in ways previously unimaginable, and I think part of the message I'm supposed to convey is how this healing can be brought about. That's why I'm doing the work I do, instead of sitting alone behind a desk all day. If I isolated myself and became sedentary, I would be wheelchair bound, deaf, unable to swallow, and possibly blind by the time I'm 40, and that's not a life worth living, just like it's not worth it for humans to inhabit a planet of hyper-acidified oceans and noxious clouds of chemicals that is devoid of complex plant or animal life.
I parallel my journey with the biospheric crisis because that story gives me motivation and makes sense to me. I'd set myself up for failure if all I did was passively wait around for the doctors - "the saviors" - to come up with a miracle drug. Similarly, we won't heal the planet if all we're doing is applying a mechanistic mindset (electric cars! cap-and-trade! geo-engineering!) all the while waiting for the experts to swoop in to the rescue. I could write a lot more about this, so I'll just say that healing is multidimensional, interpersonal, and can never be achieved by a single genius (you can probably guess that I'm not a fan of Elon Musk or Bill Gates).
I deliberately wrote that I don't intend to let disability be permanent, because I don't know if my journey will end in success. We also don't know if the Great Turning will be fully realized. In Active Hope, Joanna Macy writes eloquently about the necessity of recognizing that success is never guaranteed:
"Why might failure and frustration be necessary parts of the journey? Because if we stick only with what we know how to do, what we're comfortable with and confident about, we limit ourselves to the old, familiar ways rather than developing new capacities...The good news about frustration and failure is they show that we have dared to step outside our comfort zones and to rise to a challenge that stretches us. What we're doing here is reframing frustration and failure in a way that encourages us to persist rather than to give up."
It's been some time since I've posted here. In large part it's because this period of unraveling in our nation has been so extremely hard to bear. It has reached a new pitch now that my husband and I have to work our jobs, homeschool my youngest kid, and manage virtual schooling for my eldest thanks to COVID. And now that the election is around the corner, I'm finding myself in heated arguments with my parents and cousins, all of whom voted for this current administration which has been the author of so much pain in our lives.
I'm finding myself less resilient these days. I wish I knew how to feel less angry and more patient, but every day is full of challenges to my peace of mind and it's gotten so hard to stay afloat. I finally snapped at my parents who continue to preach devotion to Trump even though both their daughters have felt huge hits to our psychological health and financial stability due to Trump's policies (and/or lack thereof). Of late, when they put their latent racism on blast on Facebook, I feel duty bound to say something, if only to show mutual BIPOC friends that I will not let that kind of thinking slide unchallenged. But it's also draining to keep explaining why racism is something we all need to care about, how conservativism has spawned authoritarianism, etc. and at the end of the day, it all compounds my frustration at the echo chamber they live in.
Once again, just as I had in 2016, I feel orphaned. I want to feel comfort in the knowledge that Spirit has the wisdom to lead us through this time and right all wrongs, but I've never felt as skeptical in my life as I do now. 1/
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I had visions leading up to the election four years ago. One was of a white horse being flayed to near death in a town square by a demon posing as an angel, and I understood then that it meant Trump would win and our democracy would be brought to its knees. I cried myself to sleep on election night knowing what the election results would manifest for us in the long term.
The other vision was different: It was of my entire community sheltering in place in a high school while a meteor careened toward the earth. As I wandered around the school, I discovered someone sitting in a lone spotlight seat in a dark gymnasium. When I approached him, he appeared to me as Barack Obama, but then explained that he was only showing himself to me in that form because he thought I might find it comforting. He told me that there was no avoiding the coming blast. That it would come and carrying on as best we could was the only way to survive it. He spoke about caring for one another. He told me to stay hopeful.
After speaking with him, I emerged from the gym and walked around the school. I saw Joe Biden walking a bride down the aisle (not sure how to interpret that part). I saw people huddled looking at family pictures. It occurred to me later that the reason this scene was in a high school was because we were all sheltered in a space of learning and education, and would be "schooled" during this period of unraveling. Finally, I walked to the window and looked out at the blood red sky where the meteor was so large and looming it had eclipsed the sun. And then I woke.
It gave me a shred of hope, that second vision. But it seems to have run out.
My prayer is that, in coming here, I can find some comfort, reassurance, and solidarity. A greater sense that I'm not as alone as I feel.
I wish blessings on all of you here who have offered light and/or might be reading this. I hope you are bearing up better than I am. 2/2
I saw Joe Biden walking a bride down the aisle (not sure how to interpret that part).
Thank you for sharing your visions. It does indeed feel so much heavier each day - just when we think we can bear no more, something else happens. It sounds very much like the meteor in the dream - relentless, no avoiding it, etc.
But I found the line about Biden walking a bride down the aisle jumping out at me. It immediately made me think of how I view Biden in this whole process -- his current run for president. Where he is the transition figure leading us out of the old patriarchy and into the new matriarchal leadership. He is bring the bride down as a father figure and he is viewed much like a father figure to many (in his caring manner and pledge to care for the country through this time of crisis.) I see your vision as him "handing over" women to the new leadership roles which they are continuing to expand and will continue to grow as we move forward. I found that part of your vision extremely hopeful and verifying thoughts/images/impressions of his role at this time.
I agree -- it has felt particularly difficult to maintain hope and positivity as this continues to spiral darker and darker. But as @jeanne-mayell has mentioned before and others recalled, this drain is spiraling faster as we get closer to the switchover from patriarchal to matriarchal. Hang in there!
Thank you so much for your support @CC21. I love your interpretation of Biden's appearance in my vision, and I truly hope it plays out exactly as you've described! It really does feel like a meteor is hurling at us right now (and if I'm not mistaken, aren't we looking at getting a harmless-albeit-real one close to election day?).
I'm trying my best. Some days are better than others, to be honest. There have been moments of grace in the midst of all this mayhem. Today was just especially hard, but you've helped tremendously. <3
We are being hit day after day with one mind game after another. It’s like we are all pawns in a spiritual chess game. I keep thinking about what Jeanne says that as it all goes down the drain, something good is rising. I don’t see it yet but I’m choosing to trust her vision.
Right now, I don’t see how anyone can know how this is going to turn out. I just hope to live long enough to see this horror show in the rear view mirror.
“I'm finding myself less resilient these days. I wish I knew how to feel less angry and more patient, but every day is full of challenges to my peace of mind and it's gotten so hard to stay afloat.”
Dear Vida,
your Post sounds like my therapy session I had today.
this is such an insane time. I’ve crawled out of agoraphobia and PTSD, but I’ve never seen the world, especially this country, like this ever in my life. I’m 69.
i used to call myself resilient, but I don’t anymore. Thanks to this group and my best friend, I don’t feel completely alone, but I am so lonely.
I’m not sure if your dreams are prophetic or not.
it seems every time trump has gone too far and will be removed or forced to resign, he just gets away with it. I’d have had a stroke by now if I were him. Yet he just keeps going on, surrounded by people I cannot understand, including my sister.
I wish I had answers for you, but all I can say is you’re not alone. I often feel ready to break off the US from the red and blues, with our own president, so we can live in peace.
Anita
@vida - I am so glad that my response helped. That makes *my* day :) I actually pulled some Tarot cards (Thoth deck) after seeing this to get a sense of the collective in the coming weeks into October. I will have to write that up and post in an appropriate part of the forum. When I do that, I will come back and provide a link here, if I can. It was more positive, overall, and that was reassuring. Lots of earth energy represented (solid, grounding, holding steady.)
If it helps to know, all of Earth is under the sustained pressure of Mars square Saturn and Pluto right now. It's been going on for weeks and weeks, since mid-August. Unfortunately Mars will continue to square Saturn for the next few months, with the square exact on September 29 and then finishing up on January 12.
This is the unstoppable force (Mars) meeting the immovable object (Saturn). Pluto is there to turbo charge it all and make us very much aware of the misuse or abuse of power.
Hang in there. This energy can help us make progress on challenging projects or learn how to achieve significant goals within a small sphere. I personally think this is humanity experiencing the pressures of the birth canal before we are born into something new. Remember that every single human being (and our fellow animals and plants) is experiencing this energy. We aren't alone and we will get through this together.
@vida -- Ok, I think here is as good as anyplace to post my Tarot reading on the collective. Since it deals with the intensity of feelings we have all been posting about and needing support on, then I think here is a good place. For those that know Tarot, I am using the Thoth deck. When I refer to the text, I am referring to the booklet that comes with the cards and also the text Jeanne shared with us in class. I tend to read through it with my questions in mind and see what resonates or jumps out at me. I read each week coming up from the last week of September to the last week of October:
Last week of September: Fortune - This is one of the major trump cards and reflects changes that can be good or bad, but depend on how you "ride the wheel" of fortune. Are you hanging on or sitting solidly on top? I see this as a potential for positive change after the heaviness of late, but with caution as it is a wheel and can change. I pulled a second card to clarify and got 5 of Wands - Strife, so I think there will still be some negative stressors or energy through next week. The card mentions Saturn and Leo - quarreling, fighting, competition, making me think of @gbs and the post above about Mars and Saturn.
First week of October: I pulled the Prince of Disks - the prince is bringing great energy to practical maters. I notice the bull pulling his chariot, It is very strong, solid, earthly. I sense that we will be hunkering down, hanging in there. There is a lot of earth energy in this card and makes me think of grounding and holding. The text that resonates for this card is that the prince is steadfast and repurposing; cautious; imperturbable. He adapts to circumstances in a slow, steady way. So it might be an opportunity for us to ground, hold steady and gather energy for practical matters to come?
Second week of October: I pulled the Ace of Cups - this is a beautiful card with hopeful rays of light and energy radiating outward and upward. It represents the deep feminine and can represent productiveness, fertility, love with wisdom. Perhaps this is when the energy ramps up to bring in some feminine energy in some way?
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Third week of October: I pulled the Aeon/Judgement - this card represents the last step before mastery and usually indicates a final decision point/definite step. Perhaps there is a turning point in the collective energy or news this week? I pulled one more card for the evaluation after judgement - Ace of Disks - here is that powerful, grounding earth energy again! This refers to the root elements of earth and the material world. The text indicates that it usually refers to a new beginning! I like that :) This also brought to mind perhaps there are advances or good news in the way of the environment and/or technology that is better for the earth?
Fourth week of October: I pulled the 6 of Disks - Success -- again, earth energy! This can refer to a gain in material things. For clarity, I pulled another card and got 6 of Wands - Victory. This is energy and its reception and reflection by the feminine. Again - that feminine element coming to the fore. Energy in balanced manifestation. One other piece of the text jumped out at me and that was that the card has 9 flames burning as lamps, which immediately brought to mind the Supreme Court. Perhaps this indicates a new woman being considered/approved for the court? But I have a positive sense of it, so maybe she would be a more balanced choice than she first appears?
So, overall, I think and hope this represents a breather of sorts; a regrouping of our grounded earth energy and some clear rising of positive female energy.