Good news Coyote! Remember when you sit down with your neurologist that he/she will have to lay out all possibilities. Keep a positive attitude. My sister went out celebrating her 21st birthday on a Friday night, and had ski tickets for Saturday. Not a bright idea. She couldn't handle the slopes as she normally did. After ski patrol got her off the mountain, and she was in the emergency room, the docs wanted to do an MRI after seeing the CAT scan. Her fall saved her in many ways. They found a brain tumor that had not gotten to the point of exhibiting symptoms yet. It was removed, and she was always told in subsequent years that this type of tumor had a high probability of returning. It did not return, but they always warned her that it could.
@coyote, so happy to hear your recent news. I marvel at your profound courage, strength and wisdom as you navigate your challenging life journey. I feel blessed that you are here, sharing your story and your amazing gifts with us. Thank you.
I just read your post about the illusion of a world we live in and feeling sometimes depressed and turning to food. We all have our "vices" to help us cope I think with some form of depression every now and then, some more than others. Sometimes I binge watch my soaps or go shopping even if I don't buy much it's just meandering around in the store and getting "lost" in something mundane. I've even put on music really loud and just danced at home or driven around the town to music that makes me happy.
My friend/mentor and psychic used to say that "this life is your movie". I would always ask her questions and she would say "It's your movie pumpkin". It took me a long time to understand what she meant by that. She was the first to explain to me what quantum physics was and what being psychic was all about, energy etc. I have noticed though that I do not get as depressed lately and I did find out I needed to have a little thyroid medication because of hypothyroidism and it wasn't obvious in the test results. Post menopause females sometimes do not present on the TSH test unless they test for T4 and T3 conversion too. I also use some CBD oil and have noticed my back pain and some depression may have been helped by that too.
Sorry for rambling but I just wanted you to know I was thinking of you after reading your post. I just wanted you to know you are not alone! ?
Thank you for your response! I wonder...I overthink, and I always assign spiritual meanings to things, so I'm curious if I can't seem to maintain interest in things because it's the nature of the physical world to change? For example, recently, I've been watching a lot of sports, listening to sports radio, reading sports-related books...but I also know that in a few months, or even weeks, I will totally lose interest. Or perhaps, not lose interest, but other empathic stuff comes up, and I am focused on that.
I am so envious of those people who can maintain a passion and interest for something...anything at all! Whether it's a sports team or a hobby of whatever. Like, right now I'm really interested in sports. But I also know next week, I could totally care less, knowing that in 50, 100, 200 years from now, nothing will matter. It's a very fatalistic viewpoint.
So I can't tell if it's a Val-thing, like depression, or a spiritual thing, knowing everything changes each micro-second.
So to me it sounds like you have a lot of energy, your mind is always going, and you are just seeking your purpose in this life. Gee, I can relate. I have to calm my mind down sometimes because I over analyze or think about stuff too much. My husband made me take Yoga, but right now we are not taking those classes (they were every Sunday at 5pm, since I can't make the 7pm during the week ones due to my job). I did learn though breathing techniques that help me now and then and I use CBD oil to help relax me.
Lately, I've been wondering what my purpose in life is too. I have learned though to just ask the universe and my guides "please just guide me to my purpose and goals that are right for me". I try not to analyze that too much because it can be frustrating at the same time. I'm also envious of anyone that takes their passions and does something with it.
Try not to worry what happens in future. I'm the proverbial pot calling the kettle...since I can't talk (59 yrs old) I worry and hope that I won't die someday after my husband who is 6 yrs younger than me. I don't think I could handle this life without him (we have no kids). Getting older also has made me have these thoughts that my younger self didn't worry about. It's natural. BUT I believe that we live on. Our souls and spirit live on...and our next "assignment" will be one we sign up for. I think of this life as "boot camp" for our soul...or perhaps "school". It's all part of the soul's learning and journey and we're here to help, or learn or both.
I just feel blessed to be learning so much from all of you!!!
Hello All,
Just wanted to ask for some good vibes sent my way. I'm having eye surgery tomorrow morning (Thursday) -- nothing serious, but I just want to be sure things go well. Actually I'm more concerned/nervous about the 3 eye drop medications I'm on than the surgery itself. I've already had a reaction to one of the meds this morning, causing me to become so lightheaded and weak that I had to cancel an appointment. It felt like I was on a major dose of valium. No way I could haven driven; just walking around the house was a challenge!
My doctor told me to stop taking it and called in another prescription. Then I made the mistake of reading all of the potential side effects of the new medicine! I'm trying not to allow what I read to affect me, but that's hard to do. I have a history of being extremely sensitive to medications.