Thanks! I think this situation will be resolved, probably by December, because my lawyer said she's more than willing to take this to the Superior Court and listed the precidents in our favor in her letter. I think I just needed to vent. Our lawyer figuratively beat up their lawyer, which is why I think they changed tactics and they are now going after the driver's insurance award. I don't think they stand a chance.
@stardancer, thank you for posting, my friend. I thought about you last night -- honestly, you entered my mind. I wondered how you were doing.
Yes, the grief. I believe that for many of us such anger -- hatred, even -- masks indescribable sorrow and pain. I know that for me, that rage gives me a false sense of power -- it's crazy, I know, but sometimes I just don't know what to do with my grief.
When you describe walking among and talking to the trees, I felt a sense of lightness surrounding my heart. Soft and quiet. Thank you.
Hi Deetoo,
Thanks so much for thinking of me. I know I have been quiet for the last several months. I was in pain unable to adequately express what I was feeling. I had a companion dog. His name was Ben. I got Lyme’s in 2005 and it wasn’t diagnosed until 2009. Ben came into my life in 2006. He kept me awake, assisted me up the stairs among other things. He was a yellow lab, but I really think he was a wonderful little boy wearing a puppy suit. He was the most gentle, loving creature I have had the opportunity to be in relationship with. Ben’s health began to fail about 5 months ago. I so hoped he would just fall asleep and pass when the time came, but it didn’t happen that way. A few weeks ago we took him to our veterinarian to be euthanized. The entire process was so painful. A process similar to what many who join us in this forum have experienced. We buried his ashes in our garden and planted a dogwood tree there in memory of him.
We have another yellow lab. Her name is Birdie. She loved Ben. They slept together and Ben would routinely pick up 2 toys and take one over to her. We keep her busy during the day, but she misses him at night and cries. She picked up a toy for the first time since Ben died the other day.
i know the grief will pass but I really miss him.
Didn't expect to be writing about it in the forum, maybe it was time.
Thank you for your friendship, Deetoo. ❤️
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my heart goes out to you - losing a pet is devastating. Someone once told me - don't be sad they're gone, be glad they were here. I'm sure his life with you was wonderful. You'll meet again.
I am so sorry on the loss of your companion and helper dog Ben. He sounds like a sweet boy and I am sure you miss him tremendously. Our animals are family members.
Thank you for your kind words, suspira. I am sad that he is gone and glad he was here. So much of life is “both/and”, isn’t it. Not certain if I will see him again, yet I believe God loves all of creation. However he works that all out in the future it will be ok. Many of us have a bit of a different take on what happens after death, yet we love and respect each other. What’s most important to me is that it will be a better place for all of us.
It means so much that you extended your love to me. Thank you, friend.
Oh thanks, lovendures. They are family, aren’t they. So it makes perfect sense that we grieve the loss of their physical presence for a season. I know the grief will pass and what will remain is wonderful memories. You stated my sentiment perfectly, he was a sweet boy. He loved everyone, even people who didn’t like dogs. Never chased or barked at another animal. We even had a neighborhood garter snake we named Wilbur who would occasionally slither over and sun himself beside Ben in the yard. I really got a kick out of that, I mean if we can find peace and be at rest next to a snake..there’s gotta be a lesson there somewhere. ☺️
Like your name..Love Endures.
@stardancer, I am so sorry for the loss of your furry companion, Ben. I can feel his gentle, sweet spirit; he makes me smile. You were blessed to travel this life road together. The love you share is a sacred bond that can never be broken.
How lovely to plant a dogwood tree in Ben’s honor, and to bury his ashes under it. Besides being beautiful, the dogwood flower is a symbol of rebirth and resurrection.
I am surrounding you and Birdie with love. Take care of yourself, my friend.
Hi Deetoo,
Thanks Deetoo. What a beautiful message..a sacred bond that we shared..oh Deetoo, that is so meaningful! Thank you, warms my heart.
I wasn’t aware that the dogwood flower was a symbol for rebirth and resurrection. Thanks for letting me know, I’ll remember that.
Amazing journey we are on, even in the midst of all the yuck and brokenness we encounter love and light breaks through the darkness.
Stardancer,
I'm so sorry for your loss. All dogs are wonderful creatures, but some touch us in extra special ways. I hope your memories of Ben and his kind, gentle spirit will always be a blessing to you.
Hugs across the universe.