A bronze scrying bowl? That put a big smile on my face Vestralux!
I was contemplating that Saturn/Uranus square that you mentioned (among other things, lol)... and this song came to me. I can't seem to insert YouTube here, but here it is, from me to you....
'Forever Young' - Bob Dylan
(hope you can listen to it*)
Oh, this is a good one, Stargazer. I'm smiling big.
My given name actually means "youthful spirit," and I'd say my double Sag nature's been helping me live up to it (at least from a heart/mind/attitude perspective)—along with most of the rest of Dylan's beautiful invocation.
The part I've struggled with:
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift
A week ago, I was talking about this over dinner with a dear friend. She told me that the reason for this, as she sees it, is that I've never had anyone praying for me to create such a foundation. Probably much like you, there was simply no one in my family of origin who could help me to stabilize my life or my dreams simply by envisioning the possibility of my wellbeing or fulfillment.
As she was speaking, I could tell she was working a kind of vision-magic, seeing into my future and holding space for me with both love and excitement—the way I do for my daughter all the time simply because I understand her potential and believe in her completely.
Since you've got Uranus challenging your sun, please know I'm sending the same kind of stabilizing intention your way. ❤️
Vestralux when We were all waiting to see what would happen re Kavanaugh and sending light to flake, Collins et al. I was struggling w my light bc I feel strongly that Collins would betray. As soon as I would focus my energy on sending light it would get mixed with what I was feeling from her.
i feel this happen too when I send healing to my parents who were invalidating and Trumpsters or my husband who has BPD and is abusive (currently divorcing). Maybe my foundation isn’t strong, or their energy is too strong on me? When my second daughter was born I practiced every day to send her healing energy as she had an issue with her development. The issue was resolved and she is healthy. I had no ‘interference’ when I was sending healing energy to my baby.
Do you have any thoughts? Why do you think I’m getting interference and what do I do?
Jaidy, I believe this is such an important question and really hope others here will offer their insight on it. (Likely in other threads they have.) It's also likely that some of us will have different perspectives, so I hope you'll continue to explore this question and search your inner wisdom and higher guidance for what feels true and right for you.
For me, the answer is always one of ethics, which in this case, is about energetic permission.
Where an ex-partner is concerned, for example, I personally wouldn't direct my light toward them, even if my intentions were positive and my motivations felt pure. We obviously desire the healing of the people we know and have cared for, but there are two dilemmas here, which are impossible for us to recognize or resolve:
We can't know if our healing intentions are in full alignment with another person's will—unless they've given us permission or made a request.
Our energy, however healing we hope it will be, is partly an extension of our will (a cord of light flowing up the column of the spine), and only the part we're aware of directing belongs to our conscious aspect. It actually emerges and is sourced from an unconscious part of us, which means there's a great deal about our healing energy which is hidden and unknown to us.
We'd like to always believe that healing energy only flows from our higher, purely creative light source. Depending on how attuned and developed we are in our personal work, much of it can be. But we aren't neatly compartmentalized beings, and we're all works in progress. Some of the energy we direct can contain shadow—the unconscious, unintegrated layers we're still working through.
And in our shadow may be layers of dissociated, denied, or suppressed energies which could do harm when targeted at another person, such as an ex (whom we have a lot of baggage with) or a political figure from an opposing political party (who we greatly disagree with), and so on.
You see how it's complicated.
[There can actually be quite a lot of shadow involved in energy healing—and in lightworker communities, in fact—but that's a whole other thread.]
When I want to lend healing support to a situation, or a person whom I don't personally know (and therefore who hasn't asked me directly for support), here are some of my own hard and fast don'ts:
- I avoid determining what healing "should" look like;
- I avoid targeting a situation with my energy;
- I avoid envisioning an outcome based on what feels right to me;
- and I never direct my light into another person who hasn't invited me to do so.
Instead, I ground and meditate, aligning with my Higher Self and my guides, and from there, I ask to connect to the Higher Self of the other person. If that connection is willingly received on the other end,
I simply offer love.
(Always easy to do so from the perspective of my Higher Self.) Love is a powerful energy. It affirms and supports. Any being can choose to accept or decline love. And if accepted, love is always healing.
When I desire to lend support to a situation, rather than aiming my light directly toward it like a laser (or directly toward a specific outcome), which implies that I know what the Higher Collective will should be, I ground and meditate, and draw down Living Light, which I perceive as an energy of of both future potential and ever-present Love. When one or more people become highly present and attuned to this higher energy, it can create a 5th dimensional gateway into a spacial field of very high coherence. It's something like an access portal that can be used for time and/or location travel, though you don't actually have to leave your apartment (or it won't feel as through you do).
If anyone reading this is still with me, the point of this kind of work isn't to project or inject our linear self or ideas onto what "should" be happening in Washington or with our Aunt Jolene in Smyrna, Georgia; it's about opening a door for our Collective Higher Self to step through into the now. By holding that field of light within us, and allowing the Higher Collective to make itself available through us, we move out of the way for the Divine to realize itself in the world.
We don't have to know what will happen or how. In fact, it's probably better that we don't.
For me, that meant that Susan Collins made a choice I found terrible and difficult to understand, but because I did my work to stand in a higher space with willingness and trust, I choose to have faith that there's a higher order to what's coming. I saw the Sword of Damocles hovering over the heads of the GOP that day. Their decision sealed their fates.
And it ultimately made the blue wave stronger.
When I sent my daughter my energy I just visualized the healing of her esophagus- which was where her issue was. With my husband- and it was primarily when we were still together, but I dont have any bitterness or anger towards him- I just sent love. With Susan Collins it was like I couldn’t focus/meditate it was like when a radio station won’t come in. It also felt like my own pain was in the way, and also I had been following her comments on Kavanaugh and I felt she had been looking for cover to vote yes. And in this case I certainly had an outcome I was trying to send.
I agree with you completely that her vote caused the reaction we needed and the Kavanaughs appt was probably a good thing in that it further exposed problems and galvanized women.
I'd already written a novel up there (maybe I need to address some seriously suppressed need to blog or something?) so I never got to my feelings about our children or family members. I believe that sending our healing light to our children while visualizing their body's repair or wholeness with loving intention isn't an intrusion, because they're part of us. We're nested together.
Ultimately, everyone is, but in this dimension we're less able to feel this due to karmic dissonance and the pain of separation. But with our kids (and also parents, siblings, and other close relations), we can feel them and they can feel us—often from far away, and even when we haven't spoken. It's the same with very close friends.
If it's part of their journey to experience an illness, our energy won't override that, and their higher self and ours will know what to do because we're already joined there.
That's just my own view.
(Speaking of astrology)........I was standing almost knee deep in snow today, looking west to California and the devastation of the fires, where people are standing knee deep in ash & cinder.
There is an interesting aspect between transiting Uranus/Aries & Mars/Aquarius called 'mutual reception' happening right now and both planets are at the fateful 29th degree in sextile...... the Nodes have recently formed a T-Square aspect with Uranus in Aries as well, and all are in the 29th degree.
These aspects indicate the fires may be going on for sometime yet, and very sadly will keep 'feeding' each other in a closed loop that is hard to eradicate... sending all the light and love that I can to everyone experiencing these horrible events. I am heartbroken.
On the 16th I did a deep dive on Jared (and Ivanka), after reading Jeanne's impression of him somewhere. She said that he feels very dark to her but that she's unable to explore it too deeply, perhaps because she's being protected. When I look at Jared I see darkness too, but I'm always struck by a particular kind of empathy, even knowing what I do about his potential crimes and unethical conduct. To me, he expresses a vibrational/behavioral signature which I connect to a particular kind of childhood trauma, one I'm personally familiar with. Ivanka does also.
My sense is that children who grow up in the privileged class, where there's intense family and social pressure to succeed, tend to efficiently suppress outward expressions of sexual or other trauma. It's unconscious, but nevertheless real. They may do this in order to continue to receive the only validation ("love") they've ever known, which is the approval of the narcissistic parent and the security of belonging through assured inheritance, status, and power, the currency of that world. Many become robotic and over-achieving. They manufacture hardened masks, which makes them appear very plastic: veiled, remote, aloof. They tend to be highly perfectionistic and determined, and are less able to separate their own desires from the dominant parent's desires. This is how I see both Jared and Ivanka.
In working class communities, we tend to express the effects of early trauma outwardly—mental illness, addiction, disease, etc. The symptoms are often messier, more obvious. Trump didn't come from a poor family by any stretch, but I believe he expresses his own childhood trauma quite dramatically. I feel that as a toddler and onward, he was likely emotionally bullied by his father and rejected by his mother, which may have manifested as either NPD or an anti-social personality complex. (Trauma-induced narcissism or sociopathy are no less insidious than being "born that way.")
Anyway, I ended up exploring Jared and Ivanka's astrological profiles (in comparison with Trump's), and was fairly astonished by some of what I saw. I could easily be wrong (perhaps projecting too much) but there are some telltale signs in their natal charts which indicate to me that they may share a specific wound. Whether or not they do, their charts are strongly mirrored (several conjunctions of the same planets in the same signs), with particular emphasis on the role of the father. Ivanka's chart in relation to her dad's is also pretty eye-popping.
I wrote it all up but it needs editing and I've been too busy with work. I'm not sure if anyone would be interested in reading it, or whether it's wise or even ethical for me to make these kinds of assessments about them in the first place. If anyone has thoughts, please share.
A friend of Jared and Ivanka said they are really good at compartmentalizing their situations. I read this months ago in an interview article. This behavior sounds like disassociation, i.e., when trauma causes us to split from ourselves. Extreme disassociation creates split personalities. It's called dissociative personality disorder.
Vestralux, your analysis resonates with me.. It is so helpful. Yes, I also empathize with them. I can feel their situation and understand how childhood traumas have limited their growth.
Still, the harm they do reminds me that they need to be stopped, regardless of how much I understand their limitations.
I look forward to reading your more detailed post about them.
Cross-posting from a climate thread:
I'm sensing that this Friday, December 7, 2018—which marks a new moon (at 15-degrees Sagittarius)—could be a signal date for a trigger to a "force majeure" event. I believe it's likely to involve both water and fire, so it may be the eruption of an ocean volcano (though I can think of several other scenarios linking these conditions). The full moon on Winter Solstice will be at 0-degrees Cancer, making it particularly powerful, so it could be a culmination point for this event.
If a volcanic eruption, best guess (not intuitive) is that it would occur somewhere along the "Ring of Fire," which is a huge geographic area, obviously. (I'm feeling Southern Hemisphere for fires and earthquakes now and over the next few months, so maybe there? Not that this nails it down much.)
Although, it could be linked to a vision I posted about in another thread a couple of months back, which would place it somewhere in the Atlantic, off the west/possibly northwest coast of Africa or east of the Mediterranean, although this would have it coming sooner than I originally felt. That vision seemed to involve a tsunami and other upheaval. Whatever the case, I'm asking that we all hold the wider global field with love and coherence, and a prayer that the highest possible outcome for all involved be realized.
It feels like there's tremendous flux in the timelines I'm seeing, which is why I'm having difficulty nailing down both type and location. I never pick up precise dates and very rarely even months, so this is a surprise to me (and could easily be way off in one direction or another!). However, on Friday, Mars will form a conjunction with Neptune in Pisces on the exact degree. And I feel this is significant.
Pisces is the realm of the waters and Neptune, Pisces' natural ruler, is the god of the waters. Mars is fire, action, initiation, and any incendiary potentiation—for good or ill.